all he would ever need (1257 words) by Winchesterek
Relationships: Derek Hale/Stiles Stilinski
Characters: Derek Hale, Stiles Stilinski, Original Children of Derek Hale and Stiles Stilinski, Eli Hale (Teen Wolf)
Additional Tags: Alpha/Beta/Omega Dynamics, Alpha/Omega, Established Derek Hale/Stiles Stilinski, Mates Derek Hale/Stiles Stilinski, Mpreg, Omegaverse Omega Stiles Stilinski, Omegaverse Alpha Derek Hale, True Alpha Derek Hale, New Year's Eve, New Year's Kiss, Derek Hale/Stiles Stilinski are Eli Hale's Parents, Parents Derek Hale/Stiles Stilinski, Slice of Life, Fluff, Derek Hale Deserves Nice Things, Stiles Stilinski is a Nice Thing, Derek Hale Loves Stiles Stilinski, Stiles Stilinski Loves Derek Hale, Derek Hale is a Softie, Derek Hale is Good at Feelings, Family, POV Derek Hale, Feels, Derek Hale/Stiles Stilinski Feels, Derek Hale Feels
Written for @sterekfests kiss me at midnight, @sterekweekly kiss, @sterekmonthly new year, @imagine-sterek 24 event
Summary:
Derek has a quiet moment, reflecting on his life and his little family as the New Year counts down to midnight.
Derek smiled as he studied his family.
Stiles was asleep on the couch with Ava tucked against his chest and of course, she was shifted. Derek knew that she loved being shifted because she had more freedom as a pup than she did as a baby and heâd be sad when she stopped shifting around the age of five. It would feel like an eternity to both of them until she could fully shift again after she was eighteen, but he also knew it would feel like time flew by the time his little girl was on her way to being an adult and starting a life of her own. And maybe one day, her own pack.
Elijah was hanging upside down off the couch, his head resting on Derekâs shoulder as Derek sat on the floor. His little family had tried their best to stay up until the new year, but theyâd been fast asleep for about an hour now and there were less than thirty minutes left until midnight.
The night had been eventful with watching their childrenâs favorite cartoons and letting Elijah drink sparking white grape juice as he pretended he was an adult, but they both knew they only bought it for Stiles since Ava was still nursing. Theyâd played the Floor is Lava with Stiles being the safety zone and Derek had more than once let Elijah win like he always did.
Not for the first time that night, Derek thought his life was perfect. After everything heâd been through, after all the pain and loss, he couldn't ask for more than what he had right now. Ever since heâd met Stiles and Elijah was born, he thanked whatever powers that be in the universe for letting him have this little slice of happiness. Even more so after Ava had been born, and especially now that Stiles was pregnant again.
Theyâd both always wanted a big family, each for their own reasons, and Derek felt like he was building a life that he could be proud of. One that he knew his family would have been proud of him for. He had a mate, he could take care of his pack, and they were living a perfectly mundane life filled with so much love and happiness that it sometimes hurt Derekâs chest with how much he felt for Stiles and their children.
After the fire, he never thought heâd be able to feel like this again. He never thought that he would be able to love anyone ever again. He was glad that he was wrong.
Derek raised his hand to gently stroke over Elijahâs hair, which caused Elijah to rumble with that little sound that Derek knew meant he was happy. Stiles always made fun of Derek when Derek made that sound too, telling him that he was teaching their son bad habits. He knew Stiles didn't mean it and they always laughed about it.
He carefully shifted until Elijah was sliding down his shoulder, still fast asleep, until he slid into Derekâs arms. Derek cradled Elijah against his chest. He smiled as Elijah curled against him, purring as best a werewolf could, and stood. He scented Elijahâs hair and walked him to his room, carefully tucking him into bed and brushing his hand over his hair again before he left and did the same for Ava.
Once the kids were in bed, he returned to the living room and smiled down at Stiles, who was still sleeping. Derek sat on the edge of the couch next to him, glancing at the muted television that had Times Square in New York on, waiting for the ball to drop. They still had some time and he thought about not waking Stiles, but then he felt Stilesâ hand on his thigh.
Derekâs gaze returned to his sleepy mate, finding Stiles blinking up at him and yawning.
âKids in bed?â Stiles asked, voice groggy. He stretched and then slid his hand to hold Derekâs, relaxing back against the couch.
âI just put them to sleep⊠the three of you have been asleep for a little while. I didn't want to wake you.â Derek laced his fingers with Stilesâ, bringing his hand up to place a kiss on the backside.
âDid we miss the ball drop?â Stiles asked, glancing at the TV which would answer his question, but Derek knew that heâd wait for his response all the same.
âNot yet, but itâs soon. Did you want to skip it and go to bed?â Derek glanced at the TV and they still had at least five minutes until the countdown started.
âNo, weâve made it this far. Or, well, you did. But Iâm up now.â Stiles chuckled and sighed, then sat up on the couch, crossing his legs under him.
âIt was a valiant effort,â Derek replied with a grin, reaching out for Stiles and dragging him into his lap. Stiles moved easily enough, draping his legs over Derekâs as he settled and wrapped his arms around his neck.
âMaybe next year the kids will make it to midnight⊠or maybe at least I will.â Stiles laughed softly, nuzzling against Derekâs neck as Derekâs hand slid onto Stilesâ belly. He wasn't showing yet, but Derek knew they were both imagining that Stiles was already growing a tiny pooch, despite them both knowing it was more likely a food baby at this point in Stilesâ pregnancy.
âI think we both might miss midnight next year with four children underfoot.â Derekâs other hand smoothed up Stilesâ back as Stiles scented him, glad that it comforted Stiles, especially since he knew it would help him the further along his pregnancy went.
âYouâve got a point,â Stiles replied and smirked as he drew back. âBut Iâm sure we will still all try.â
They looked at the TV when the countdown started and Derek thought about how different the following New Year's Eve would be. If they got the twins they both wanted, theyâd have four kids, and if they still had only one, theyâd both be happy with their little pack of three children.
âSo, Derek Hale,â Stiles started, his fingers playing at the base of Derekâs skull, teasing the hair there. It sent a shiver down Derekâs spine and his smile was soft, his eyes full of love as he held Stiles. âI think you owe me a New Yearâs kiss.â
Derekâs hand moved from Stilesâ back, trailing up until he wrapped his hand around the back of Stilesâ neck and gripped firmly as the seconds ran down on the television. He drew Stiles into a kiss as the horn sounded, pouring everything he felt into it. The kiss was passionate, yet gentle and he grinned as he scented Stilesâ arousal.
Stiles was flushed and laughing softly when the kiss broke. âI think Iâm awake now,â he teased. âAnd you need to take me to bed and breed me while we can,â he whispered, fingers dancing across the mark on Derekâs neck that marked Derek as Stilesâ.
âYour wish is my command,â Derek replied, his arms moving to cradle Stiles and he stood, sending Stiles into a fit of quiet giggles. Derek loved it when Stiles was happy and he knew that heâd spend the rest of his days making sure they were always like this.
As long as their hearts were beating and their lungs were filled with breath, Derek knew he had everything heâd ever need for the rest of his days. His life was perfect.
A Question Between Family (1330 words) by simplyn2deep
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: Teen Wolf (TV)
Rating: General Audiences
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: Derek Hale/Stiles Stilinski
Characters: Derek Hale, Stiles Stilinski, Eli Hale (Teen Wolf)
Additional Tags: Tumblr: sterekweekly, sterekweeklymarriage
Series: Part 36 of Shots of Sterek
Summary:
Eli takes on a fun, unexpected role in getting Stiles and Derek to finally make things official
Summary: Derek woke slowly, reaching across the sheets to find -
Nothing.
He frowned, opening his eyes to look at the empty space in bed next to him. The sheets were still rumpled, a divot in the pillow, but there was no one there.
He rolled into the empty space, face planting into the pillow and inhaling deeply.
The pillow still smelled like Stiles.
Tags/Warnings: Morning After, Flirting, New Relationship
Pairing: Sterek
Rating: Mature
Word Count: 734
Written for @sterekweekly, the week of April 3, prompt: bacon
Fic written for @sterekweeklyâs prompt âconfessâ. Rated T, 2.4k words. Tags: pining, fluff, confessions, humor, banter. Read on AO3.
Summary:
The time Stiles thought his dad could read minds and ended up confessing his inner most thoughts starring Derekâtwice.~ đșđ
Stiles liked surprises.
In fact, he loved them.
But he didnât know how he felt about the surprise of Derek showing up to the pack meeting looking like that.
To be fair, he shouldâve been the least surprised, considering he was the one whoâd gifted Derek that deep burgundy v-neck sweater for Valentineâs Dayâanonymously, of course. Heâd ordered it along with a fluffy blanket and chocolates and had them shipped to Derekâs flat addressed to a different name to make it seem like a misdelivered package, all to make sure Derek never figured out it was from him.
A lot of trouble for arguably nothing, but Derek of all people deserved at least a little coziness in his life. Everytime Stiles saw Derekâs apartment, he found himself bewildered by the absolute lack of comfort and homeliness and warmth, because look, having a minimalist interior design did not equate to not having any blankets or rugs anywhere.
A month had passed since then, though, without Derek wearing the sweater once or even mentioning that heâd gotten a misdelivered package in the mail. Stiles had assumed that Derek had returned it, set it aside, forgotten about it, or thrown it outâwho knewâand moved on.
He hadnât particularly expected anything to begin with.
But then Derek had walked into that pack meeting wearing the v-neck sweater that Stiles had spent a pathetic amount of time picking out, looking so unfairly stunning and for the first time, relaxed, andâ
Stiles couldnât stop thinking about it. Couldnât stop thinking about the way Derek smiled at him a little on his way out when heâd commented, âYour sweater looks soft,â after both Erica and Isaac said something similarâ(he figured it wouldnât be weird of him to mention it if the others did, too.)
Even Lydia had complimented Derek with a âNot your usual style, but itâs even better. I didnât peg you as someone with an eye for flattering colors and fits.â
So Stiles thought itâd be safe to say something.
âItâs very soft,â was Derekâs reply.
Stiles nodded. âBaby alpaca wool is supposed to be the softest.â
That was why heâd picked it, after all.
Derek just gave him an amused look in response.
He went home soon after, still thinking about Derek and that little smile and the way that sweater might as well have been tailored for him and his ripped muscles, only to find his dad waiting for him, arms crossed.
âCâmon Stiles, just confess already,â his dad said with a sigh when Stiles told him he wasnât hiding anything. âAre we really going to play this game?â
âConfess what?!â Stiles wanted to scream, but thenâ
Oh god.
He was hiding one thing, his feelings for Derek, but there was no way that was what his dad was talking about.
Right?
âŠRight?
Stilesâ hands grew clammy and his dad just stood there looking profoundly stern and unbudging and oh god, he knew his dad had detective skills, but this was just freaky, because he was pretty sure he hadnât been obvious about it, so maybe his dad could just read mindsâŠ?
His dad sighed again and tapped his foot, and Stiles cracked under the pressure.
He didnât even know what all he babbled and rambled about, but it went something along the lines of fine, so what if he liked Derek, it wasnât like it was ever going to happen and they were just friends, and it wasnât weird that heâd secretly sent him a Valentineâs Day gift because that was what Valentineâs Day was for to begin with, right? And he didnât even know Derek had opened his gift for sure until tonight when he wore that sweater, and you know what, he might be a genius because that sweater looked fucking amazing on Derek and Derek looked fucking amazing and he looked so content and relaxed and happy, and Stiles was just glad that Derek had maybe liked his gift because Derek deserved to be happy. Plus Derek had mentioned at the pack meeting that he was thinking about building himself a small house in the woods and heâd looked so soft when he said that, and of course Stiles had volunteered to help and he was happy if Derek was happy and he was fine, just fine, reallyâ
âStiles, I was talking about the lasagna you hid that Melissa brought over,â interrupted his dad just before he really spiraled. âNot your, uhâŠsecret feelings.â
And Stiles just stood there slack-jawed in shocked, humiliated silence, like a moron, while his dad rubbed his temples.
When Stiles found the wolf injured and unconscious in the snow he sighed heavily, but dragged the unusually large animal onto his sled over the snorted objections of his hoof-stamping hart.Â
âDonât worry, Larem, I wonât let it eat you,â he said, scratching around a soon to be shed antler and trying to soothe his sole companion of the past 3 years.Â
Cutting his foraging short, he secured the unfortunate creature and returned to his solitary hut hidden deep in the forest to take a closer look. Male, with thick, black fur and seeming a healthy weight for his size. That was a good sign. The fact that the wolf had been doing okay before whatever befell him recently gave him a better chance of survival. Stiles had magic yes, but his healing abilities were fairly modest and generally more helping things along than performing outright miracles.
After some minor debate he moved the wolf inside. There wasnât much for the animal to destroy should he wake and itâd get him out of the elements for now. That way his body could focus on healing and not expending as much energy for warmth, especially with the increase in breath rate he now noticed.Â
Lighting a fire was an easy task for Stilesâ magic and he went out to boil some water in his smallest pot to cleanse the wounds â  the wolfâs right front leg had obviously been caught in a trap, but heâd somehow managed to get out of it â and gathered comfrey, yarrow, chamomile, and calendula from his supply of healing herbs in the meantime.Â
As he was taught by his mother years before, Stiles used a mortar and pestle to grind them roughly, adding garlic and honey to form a paste. He brought in the hot water and soaked clean cloths to wipe away any debris before applying the poultice and covering it with a strip of fabric. The wolf twitched and whimpered, but remained unconscious.Â
Stiles put his hands on the now heaving sides of his patient and concentrated, finding something that felt dark and gave the impression of bitterness â a poison? â  and began to draw it out. It was hard, but several minutes later he seemed to have gotten it all and the labored breathing eased. He used his power to press the noxious matter into a tiny ball and sealed it pine resin before tossing into the fire.Â
That done, he filled most of his mid-sized pot with water, salting it, and set it over the flame to make a warming broth with bones from some of his meals over the last few days, which heâd wrapped and buried under the snow. (One didnât waste anything out here.) He could spare a couple handfuls of grouse as well from his larder out back and still had an ample supply of dock seed flour to make a heartier soup. Stiles took out a large bowlâs worth for the canine and then added onion, garlic, sage, and thyme to the rest.
When he returned he was quite surprised, but not utterly shocked to find a naked man on the floor where the wolf had been. He hadnât seen such beings in person before, but had heard of them. Stiles put the bowl down on the table and peered at him curiously, noting how his wounds seemed to be gone now and how he looked just like any other man. Well, perhaps not any other man, he was very attractive indeed.
Said man awoke soon after, easing back into consciousness at first and then sitting up quickly, no doubt alarmed by the strange surroundings and possible danger. He whipped around toward Stiles, eyes turning from some pale color to a brilliant red, and growled warily.
Stiles huffed and crossed his arms. He knew he should probably be more understanding of whatever his guest had been through, but heâd been alone a long time (aside from dear Larem, pun absolutely intended) and now here he was being threatened in his own home after rescuing the sorry shifter. His own eyes flashed silver and the warning noise cut off immediately. The man awkwardly tried to both curl in on himself and bare his neck at the same time, releasing a short whine before trying to speak.Â
He croaked and cleared his throat a few times as if from long disuse and then hoarsely said, âIâm sorry, Magus, please forgive me. Please donât kill me.âÂ
Stiles sighed. So the wolf had heard of his kind too. Magical beings who too often strayed to the dark side and could cause untold harm in their greed and entitlement or simple desire for cruelty.Â
It wasnât the majority of them, but any occurrence was too often when as powerful as they could be. In the past couple decades it seemed to be as high as 1 in 8, at least to some degree of malfeasance, and many a decent mage had been hurt or killed in the process of defending against them. A pang of grief ran through Stiles as he thought of his parents; his mother died when he was 9 protecting him and other children from a mad wizard and his father when he was 17, just 3 and a half years ago, ambushed while doing his lawmanâs rounds in the city of Beacon. Both had taken their assailants down with them, but it was little consolation.Â
âI didnât go through the trouble of saving your wolfy ass to kill you now,â he quipped, walking back toward the table. âItâs nothing exciting, but thereâs food if youâd like and water to drink and wash up.â
âThank you, Magus.â
âStiles.â
âPardon, but whatâs a âstiles?â
âMe,â he responded, looking through the pile of clean clothes in the corner.
âSorry, Master Stilââ
âJust call me Stiles and stop apologizing. Now, whatâs your name?â
âDerek.â
âHere you go, Derek.âÂ
Stiles threw his loosest shirt and pair of trousers at him and went back out to the fire with the bowl. A minute later the shifter peeked around the corner and then cautiously approached him as he added the soup back to the pot and added more herbs and aromatics.
âI didnât realize you were a shifter so I took your portion out before the onions and garlic and such,â he explained. Once he figured the flavors had melded nicely he filled the large bowl again and handed it to the stranger, serving his own meal from the cookpot and then gesturing to sit down beside him on the bench. Once he began eating Derek did as well, drinking from the bowl.
âIâd give you a spoon, but Iâve somehow managed to misplace or ruin the others and I havenât bothered to make more yet since itâs just me that uses them.â
âItâs no trouble. Iâm used to eating with my hands or in wolf shape anyway. Thank you for the food. And for saving my life.â
âYouâre welcome.â
They continued to eat in silence until the sound of snorting and hooves drew their attention. Stiles looked at the wolf-man and pointed at the 5.5 year old red deer.
âThatâs Larem. Heâs my friend and helper so donât eat him.â
Derek started rolling his eyes and then froze after remembering who he was sitting next to. Stiles looked up to the heavens and sighed. The shifter swallowed.
âI-I wonât. I wouldnât have either. He clearly belongs to someone.â
âGood. â
And so began their companionship. Derek didnât seem in a rush to go anywhere and Stiles told him that he could stick around if he wanted. He soon built his own little hut a couple hundred feet away on the opposite side of the greenhouse. It was nice having someone to talk to who could answer back and while the wolf certainly had an appetite the amount of game in Stiles' stores increased significantly and he more than came out ahead.Â
Grouse and wild turkey, rabbit and boar. He told Derek that he wouldnât begrudge him hunting deer too as long as he did it, and the initial butchering, well away. Stiles taught Derek about dock seed, mallow, the roots and greens of daisies, lambsquarters, and tree sap for sweetening and the wolf brought back crabapples, elderberries, and teaberries that heâd found during his ranging, fashioning a bag to wear in wolf form. Â
As winter turned to spring they shared more and more of their stories in bits and pieces, Stiles speaking of his parents and his old life in Beacon and Derek telling of his lost pack. Apparently, he had a sister somewhere, but both had assumed the other was dead after they were attacked years ago by Hunters. He eventually learned that she survived and left the area, but could no longer feel her. His uncle came out of a long lasting unresponsive state, but was mad and killed his other sister, leading to Derek having to put him down and becoming an alpha.
This only happened a handful of months ago and heâd spent his time as a wolf ever since until Stiles found him. Heâd been hiding from regular hunters when he stumbled into the trap, which had been set by the other kind and soaked in a wolfsbane solution that prevented his usual healing abilities. Derek shifted back to human form just long enough to remove it and then ran far away despite the pain until he passed out from exhaustion and the effects of the poison.
He borrowed from Stiles' haphazard stack of books one at a time â heâd limited himself to 3 dozen when he left Beacon, a mix of fiction and survival/wilderness guides â and built him an actual book shelf. Stiles played minor pranks on him from time to time and played the mandola for him regularly after dinner. One evening when it rained and heâd done his music inside he couldâve sworn that Derek was going to kiss him when he walked the departing werewolf to the door. There was a charged pause, eyes roaming over faces to lips and then back to meet again, but the moment passed with only an awkward smile and a quiet farewell.
Stiles hadnât much considered the prospect of romance and/or sex with the shifter until then both being completely out of the habit of such things and worried about the possible fallout. He had been texting with Heather about their upcoming first date â his first date, period â flirting and making plans for weekend when he got the news that his father had been killed. Needless to say, it was cancelled along with every other plan he had as he first withdrew into himself and then from society altogether. That had been the entirety of his romantic endeavors and while he masturbated like a typical young man he tried not to dwell on things he didn't, couldn't have.
Then Derek showed up and it also became a matter of not wanting to risk scaring off his only human (-ish) friend or, in the beginning, concerns about taking advantage when the werewolf was still a bit afraid of him. So he just hadn't really let himself go there. But that night Stiles desperately stroked himself while imagining green eyes staring into his as large hands explored him all over. A swarthy, muscular body on top of him and the short beard â which he loaned his scissors to keep trimmed â rubbing against his skin.Â
He hadnât actually gotten a proper look at Derekâs cock, but he did his best to imagine it thrusting into him as well, adding two and then three fingers (as much as he could at that angle) to bring himself to completion. After that night Stiles noticed occasional glances and there were little touches here and there, but nothing more came of it, both likely afraid to make the first move. And then one day everything changed.Â
It was a beautiful afternoon in May and Stiles had decided to leave Larem to rest and enjoy some hay with apples and acorns, setting off to take a nice long walk and go foraging alone instead while Derek was out hunting. He was exploring in a direction where heâd seldom gone, happily picking wild garlic in a small clearing heâd come across, when all of a sudden something made all the hairs on his arm stand up. Danger. Eyes wide he threw himself on the ground and rolled just as a burst of magic hit the spot where heâd been standing.Â
Fucking darachs. Heâd thought he left all of this behind, but apparently even the middle of fucking nowhere wasnât far enough. Stiles returned fire with his own power, feinting and then hitting the long-haired brunette square in the chest with a what he called a "pain loop," causing her to scream in agony and fury.  Â
He lashed out again with a stunning spell, but she managed to dodge it and all too soon interrupted the paroxysms from his previous strike, eyes glowing milky white as she threw something in sickly shades of green and brown at him. A perversion of earth magic.Â
Stiles was able to twist away in time and then he was running, weaving between the trees as soon as he reached the edge of the clearing. Not for the first time he bemoaned the fact that he was too young to learn killing spells from his mother, who was loath to know such things, but understood their necessity. He tried to put some distance between them so he could face the dark druid on his own terms, perhaps ambush her on ground of his choosing if he was lucky.Â
Unfortunately, he was still a ways off from his usual stomping grounds and unbeknownst to him a large tree had fallen and blocked the other end of the fairly short, but narrow path he vaguely remembered from a previous time that heâd come this way. Cursing, he went back and hoped to emerge in time to try another route, but the darach met him on the way out.Â
He was at the ready so he got off another pain loop even as he was finally hit with whatever foul magic she was dealing out. Stiles gasped as a chill took hold of him and he felt noticeably weaker than he had just moments before. He hit her with the stunning spell as well this time, but he could tell it wasnât nearly as strong as it should be as he staggered too slowly towards her.Â
Stiles was planning to kill her the old-fashioned way, with his sufficient enough all-purpose knife, but another wave of weakness went through him and he fell to his knees perhaps 5 or so yards away. Wearing a smirk on her objectively pretty, but...twisted, oblong face the darach rose to her feet, stretching languidly like she just woke refreshed from a nice nap. With horror he realized that that was more or less the case and that it was his power and life-force being siphoned to her benefit.
She didnât speak, but stood there watching him like a cat not quite ready to pounce again on the mouse sheâd been toying with, drawing out her amusement. A flash of darkness fast approaching caught his eye beyond her and he pretended to have a fit in order to keep her attention. I really hope Iâm not just seeing things, he thought. Hurry.Â
âWhy are you doing this?â he shouted. The woman rolled her now normal looking light colored eyes and huffed.Â
âPower, what else?â she replied in a tone that said he was very stupid indeed.Â
No, what was stupid was wasting time gloating and not paying attention to your surroundings or checking for reinforcements when dealing with an enemy. Stiles ranted about less than mediocre practitioners trying to make themselves feel special with stolen power, but always being the same pathetic losers at heart, punctuating his words by slapping his hands on the ground and rustling the leaves and twigs there. The darachâs face grew dark and she clenched her fists, clearly over his continued existence. Just as she was about to step forward he bared his teeth in a bloodthirsty grin.
âGo to hell,â he said, and then the massive, red eyed, black wolf was there, leaping to clamp his jaws around the back and right side of her neck. Stiles took great pleasure in the utter shock on her face, lastly only a second or two before Derek brought her to the ground and tore her throat out the moment he regained leverage. As her blood sprayed and splattered a rather impressive distance he felt the effects of her spell slow and breathed a sigh of relief.Â
Unsteadily, he got up and stumbled toward where Derek was still savaging what was now a tattered corpse.
âI think you got her, dude,â he snickered, feeling not a shred of remorse for the death that just occurred. Who knows how many people sheâd hurt or killed before attacking him?Â
The wolf shook the body one final time and then dropped it, fangs gleaming red like his eyes, before shifting into a naked, blood smeared Derek. Stiles swallowed. That should not be as hot as it was. Apparently that post-battle feral lust thing in stories was real. Derekâs nostrils flared and he made a pleased growling noise, his cock twitching and starting to harden in interest. Oh my god. Stiles was torn between remaining there, frozen, and closing the last few paces between them when his legs suddenly buckled.
âStiles,â Derek cried, rushing forward to keep him from slumping all the way over.Â
It took a minute to clear his head and he then realized that while the darachâs draining spell had indeed slowed considerably, it hadnât stopped even with her death. Like sheâd also tied it off somewhere and didnât only anchor it to herself. What the fuck?!
âDraining spell, need to go home now,â he rushed out. Moments later he was lifted into strong arms and cradled against Derekâs chest as the beta-shifted wolf ran much faster than Stilesâ own feet could ever take him. He closed his eyes and concentrated on his  diminished well of magic, using it to counteract the spell. It bought him time, but as he was expending more power than he could replenish in his current state doing so only amounted to dying more slowly than he was before. Maybe distance from the casting and using his herbs to restore and amplify his power could make the difference.
He was too weary to stand when they got back so Derek put him down on his bed and tried to find the right jars of plant matter using his descriptions. Stiles had lived alone for so long and had never thought to label what he clearly knew on sight. After trying to figure out which of three nearly identical containers of dried leaves was a particular ingredient a frustrated Derek simply picked him up again and had him point at the right items. The wolf prepared them according to his instructions and he swallowed the resulting tea in between words of focus and intention.Â
Stiles felt some vitality return, but even after seven mugs of the frankly disgusting stuff over the next hour or so he could tell that it wouldnât be enough to give him the strength necessary to break the spell. Fuck. He was now at least able to brew the tea himself and continued drinking two to three mugs of it an hour for several hours, pissing like a racehorse in between trying to think of something, anything, else, but he was quickly running out of a couple of the rarer herbs.Â
There was only so much of the infusion he could consume before it stopped being effective and before both the amount of liquid and the ingredients themselves became toxic anyway. Fuck. As the smallest containers emptied the tension evident in Derekâs body increased, the clenching of his jaw more pronounced and the muscles of his back tighter still. The pants-only shifter alternated between pacing inside the small dwelling, trying to sit quietly, and going outside to check the immediate perimeter for any additional danger.Â
When Stiles was down to his last mug and half of tea he finally resigned himself to the inevitable. He was going to die by the hand of an evil caster just like his parents. And just like with them, it didnât matter that the darach had been thoroughly neutralized, though that did at least bring him some satisfaction.
All that hiding and isolation and it had been for nothing in the end. Stiles laughed bitterly. It wasnât fair. He was only 21, his birthday just the previous month though he hadnât bothered to mention it. Stiles hadnât even gotten the chance to see if the whatever between him and Derek eventually went anywhere. It was dark out now and he had seen his last sunrise.Â
Around three-quarters of an hour later, maybe 10 minutes after taking that final sip, he turned to the silent, intently watching werewolf with a wry smile.
âPromise that youâll look after Larem for me.â Derek made a wounded noise and he felt a sweet, sad warmth for his friend. Stiles was very sorry to leave him like this, but he was glad to have met him. To have cared for him and know that he had been cared for too. âAnd promise that youâll do what you need to do to both survive and not go feral. Find yourself a pack,â he added sternly.
Derek exhaled forcefully and an expression of grim determination came over his face.
âThereâs a wayâŠI might be able to save you.âÂ
Stiles gave him the mother of all exasperated looks, throwing up his hands.Â
âAnd you didnât think to mention this earlier becauseâŠ?â
âIâd have to claim you,â Derek replied, sounding somewhat uncomfortable, but moving closer to him.
âClaim me?â Stiles asked, puzzled.Â
Like pledging fealty in a ritual or something? Or did the wolf mean giving him the turning Bite? Perhaps he wasnât aware that it didnât work on magic users, either doing nothing or killing them.Â
âMate you.âÂ
Ohhh. Â
Oh.
Oh my god.
âWhaâSeriously?!â he blurted out, incredulously. Seriously?!, he echoed internally.
Derek looked like heâd swallowed something sour and was probably about to explain that he was certainly not just trying to have his way with a dying man and how very dare, but Stiles lifted an arm â already feeling heavier again, fuck, this spell was a bitch â and put two fingers to the shifterâs lips before letting it fall again.
âI believe you, Derek. Thatâs exactly the kind of thing required for binding magic, which I gather this shifter mating stuff is. Blood or bone or, um, essence, and all that kind of thing or some combination thereof. I swear the Universe is a huge perv. Itâs justâŠwow, not at all what I was expecting to hear right now." The werewolf looked at him with fondness and concern. Stiles took a deep breath. âYeah, you canâŠyou can do that.â
It wasnât only the increasing weakness that had him trembling when he made his way from the table over to the bed, Derek hovering behind him. He turned and dropped to sit on the mattress, looking up at the older man.
âKiss me?â he pleaded, wanting to make sure he got to know what it was like and to do some part of this in order.Â
Derek smiled and caressed his cheek with a knuckle before sliding it under his chin to tip his head up, bending down to press their lips together. Stiles made a soft sound and opened his mouth to allow Derekâs tongue inside after it swept across his lower lip. A minute or so of exploration and deepening kisses later he felt out of breath and drew back, panting but grinning shakily.Â
He lifted his arms as well as he could and the shifter quickly helped him undress, pulling off his shirt and then gently pushing him back and drawing his pants and underwear down and then off along with his socks. And then there he was â flushed, hard, and lying bare â as hungry red eyes raked over his body.
âBeautiful,â the wolf murmured before removing his own pants and freeing the erection that had been straining against it. Stilesâ eyes widened at seeing Derek fully hard. That was going to go inside him? He mightâve whimpered or maybe his scent was tinged with nervousness or fear because Derek paused to run those large hands along his sides (it felt even better than heâd imagined) and told him that it would be okay before guiding him over onto his belly.Â
With no hesitation the wolf parted his cheeks and started licking over his hole, circling or pushing at the muscle every few passes. No one had ever touched him sexually much less there â hell, he hadnât been touched at all in years by another person until the recent brief brushes from Derek â and Stiles was overwhelmed by both the physical sensation and his emotional reaction. The shifter reached up to rub his back and then took hold of ass with both hands once more, soon working his tongue inside. Stiles moaned in pleasure, but then another sudden chill reminded him of the situation.
âUh, as amazing as this is, you kinda gotta hurry it up, dude,â he got out between breaths. The wolf gave him another long lick before lifting his head and growling in frustration.
âI wanted to take my time with you if this ever happened. You deserve so much better thanâŠâ Derek trailed off and Stiles could feel that he was shaking his head.
âI appreciate that big guy and I promise that if this works you can, um, do that as long as you want another time.â Derek snorted.Â
âIâll hold you to that. Do you have anyââ
âIn that cabinet. The tall, thin bottle,â Stiles cut in, jerking his head in its direction. Heâd placed a simple preservation spell on it to keep the things inside lasting several times longer than they normally would. The wolf returned with the container of a clear gel, a curious look on his face. âAloe vera,â he explained. âI brought some plants with me fromâŠbefore. It grows in the greenhouse. Good for minor burns and injuries and, er, quite viscous and slippery.âÂ
Heeding the need for urgency, Derek immediately gathered some on his fingers and applied it to his entrance and Stiles tensed at its coolness. He made himself relax again, allowing a thick finger to slip inside.Â
âMore,â he gasped, rubbing himself against the bed. âIâveâŠused fingers before.â
âI know,â Derek rumbled, pushing a second digit inside. âIâve heard you.â
Stiles could feel himself turn bright red, which was really rather silly in his current position, but he couldnât help being somewhat mortified. How many times over the past several weeks, since the kiss that wasnât, had he brought himself off whispering the wolfâs name?
Derek chuckled and leaned down to kiss his left shoulder blade before going to nibble at his earlobe.Â
âI almost came to you a few times, my wolf going wild at how you clearly wanted us,â he whispered into Stilesâ ear, making him shiver. âBut I figured you had your reasons and fantasy doesnât always equal what one would actually do.âÂ
âDidnât want to scare you offâŠpressure you,â he said, panting.Â
âWell, Iâm not going anywhere,â Derek replied huskily. âAnd as for pressureâŠâ
The shifter got a bit more of the lubricant and added a third finger, stretching him wider than his own slender ones ever had. Reaching deeper than he could from those awkward angles.Â
âDerek!â Stiles cried out when he massaged that special spot within him.Â
âOne more,â the wolf crooned, pumping faster and spreading his fingers. âGo ahead and come. I want you nice and relaxed for my knot.â Stiles clenched involuntarily at the thought. Right, werewolf. An alpha werewolf. He felt Derekâs pinky enter him and it burned some. âYouâre doing so well.âÂ
Propped up a bit on his elbows Stiles rocked his hips, fucking himself back onto Derekâs hand and then forward to rub his dick on the mattress beneath him, moaning. On some of the forward thrusts he ground down in a circular motion for maximum friction. He was so close. Stiles heard the shifter spit and then a hand was sneaking under him to grasp his shaft. He whined, moving faster between the two palms and then he was coming, spasming around the appendages continuing to piston into him.Â
Mere moments into the afterglow yet another wave of cold and weakness wracked through him and he cried out again, this time in fear, as his upper chest, shoulders, and face hit the mattress. Stiles managed to turn his head to the side.
âPlease hurry!âÂ
âOkay, okay,â the wolf soothed, withdrawing fingers from his still clenching hole and shoving a pillow beneath him before shaking more globs of gel out to coat himself. The slick sounds made him flush in anticipation. He felt Derek get into position and the press of his cock against his rim. âDeep breath.â
Stiles did as instructed, bearing down and gasping as the groaning wolf pushed into him steadily until he was all the way in, filling him. Â
âFuck, youâre tight,â Derek hissed, pausing only a few seconds before grabbing him by the waist and beginning to thrust.Â
âFirst..time,â he said breathlessly, eyelids fluttering. It felt so good even lying there like a lump on a log, a doll for the werewolf to fuck. Derek growled again, a pleased sound, and Stiles grinned. âOh, you like hearing that, big guy?â
âYes,â the shifter answered before mouthing at the back of his neck and then down to his shoulder, fucking him harder. Faster. Stiles really hoped he survived so that he could actually participate next time, but if he was still going to die, well, what a way to go!
âGoing to knot you, bite you,â Derek warned a few minutes later.
His cock made a valiant effort, but it was still too soon to harden again. Then the second part of that statement sunk in it and he tensed with worry.Â
âNot that kind of Bite,â Derek added hastily. âMating bite. It wonât hurt you.â Stiles sighed in relief. âWell, you know, itâll probably hurt âcause teeth, butââ
âI know what you meant,â he replied with a soft chuckle before gasping again. Stiles could feel the shifterâs cock swelling, spreading him even wider than his palm had. Derek groaned, thrusting in sharp jerks, and draped over him. The pressure was continuing to grow and he whimpered, sensitive, as pleasure teetered on the edge of pain. Then the knot locked inside him and Derek began to howl. Stiles intentionally squeezed around him.
Sharp fangs clamped down between his neck and shoulder and he wailed, overwhelmed as new senses and amplified or mirrored sensations crashed into him. He was stuffed full and enveloped by a tight, hot passage milking him all at once. Power coursed through him, a renewed vigor flooding his veins and refilling his nearly empty well.Â
When it got to the point of overflowing he looked within and severed the muddy, leeching connection. Stiles made sure to locate and tear out all of its remnants as well, his now red-tinged silver magic immediately rushing in to heal the resultant damage. When he returned to the outside world he was hard again, Derek grinding his still pulsing knot against his prostate, continuing to come with teeth embedded in his flesh.Â
âItâs done,â he whispered just before a second mind-blowing, mind-melding, orgasm swept through him and he proceeded to pass the fuck out.
When Stiles came to he being was cradled in Derekâs arms and sitting sideways across his lap, the shifter upright on his bed with his back against the wall. As the last images of some truly strange and spectacular dreams slipped away, he yawned and stretched languidly. He was not only alive, but felt good. Stiles wiggled to look into the green eyes of the very awake werewolf.
âThank you,â he said earnestly, choking up. Derek nodded and swallowed thickly himself, taking one of Stilesâ hands in both of his and kissing it.Â
He noted that he was wearing his light robe and had obviously been cleaned up as he wasnât sticky or anything after their activities. Stiles blushed at the memory and received a light squeeze on the ass, causing him to make a squeaky sound and redden more.
âSo I guess I belong to you now, huh?â he said a few minutes later, curious and a bit uncertain, but not displeased with the situation. The part of him that was stubborn and contrary and so very independent grumbled a bit, but the rest of him was okay with the idea. He didnât think the wolf would abuse whatever power he now held over him.
âNo,â Derek replied, eyes crinkling at the corners. âWe belong to each other.â
âOh, like family?â
âYes, family. Mates. Pack.â
Stiles more than liked the sound of that just as he more than liked the werewolf. He was content to remain resting where he was for a while longer despite his not only returned, but increased strength â heâd have to give his new capabilities a whirl later â but felt a bit self-conscious as Derek continued to watch him intently with a serious, vulnerable expression. Gratitude. Reverence. Wonder, the new connection in his mind supplied. How cool was that?
âWhat?â he finally asked, kissing the wolfâs nose as a strong hand caressed his back. âYou look like youâre the one who almost died.âÂ
He said it teasingly, but Derek froze momentarily and then remained suspiciously silent. Stilesâ stomach dropped as his mind sharpened, rising from its nice, floaty haze.
âDerek?â The shifter eventually met his searching eyes. âWhat wouldâve happened to you if Iâd died?â
âThat close to the formation of the bond? I wouldâve followed you,â he answered quietly
Several emotions rushed through him, one after the other, before combining to make him a teary mess. Shock and gratitude for his choice. Anger and sorrow and guilt at the thought of Derek dying with him. For him. Elation that he mattered that much. Stiles swatted the wolfâs shoulder and then pulled him in for a kiss. He was bursting with the desire to express the depth of his feelings, but what came out was something else.
âAs soon as I get up Iâm sucking your dick, you idiot!â he exclaimed, scowling.Â
âUhâŠis that supposed to be a threat orâŠ?âÂ
Stiles tried to smack him again, but Derek grabbed his hand, laughing.Â
âI just hate the idea of you risking your life like that. Knowing you couldâve died for me.â
Derek shrugged.Â
âYou saved me. And more than that, you gave me a reason to live. An existence that's about more than mere survival. Kept me from starting to go feral and having to make a choice about that with only three shitty options.â The older man blushed and looked away. âYou mean a lot to me. Make me happy, which I no longer thought possible.â
Stiles felt stunned. He also recalled a conversation from a while back about the basics of being a werewolf.
âAm I your anchor?" he asked tentatively. Derek gave him an unimpressed look.Â
âObviously.âÂ
"You know, I liked it better when you were all 'Magus this' and 'Master that,'â he glared, crossing his arms.Â
"No you don't," the shifter replied matter-of-factly.Â
Stiles groaned in annoyance and Derek smirked. He flopped out of the werewolfâs lap and onto his stomach on the bed, resting his head on his stacked forearms and hiding his face. Moments later he felt a hand petting him on the back of the head before lightly squeezing his neck. Arousal flashed through him and he wiggled a bit, making an embarrassing little noise.Â
The hand then ran up and down his back and the wolf rumbled possessively, which made Stiles giggle a bit. It wasn't like there was anyone around to witness much less warrant such displays. Their only other companion was a deer and an apparently very straight one at that based on his antics during the last few rutting seasons.
Fingers went back to his neck again, stroking over his bite mark, and Stiles moaned even louder this time.Â
"Is that an invitation, mate?â Derek asked with a growl in his voice.Â
âYes, mate,â he replied, feeling a thrill at saying the word for the first time. He repeated his intention of sucking Derek off, but the stubborn werewolf said heâd made a prior promise. Before long Stiles was a writhing, begging mess and the werewolf was only satisfied once he came untouched from being eaten out alone.Â
He finally got his mouth on Derekâs cock once he recovered, having him sit up against the wall again, and did his best to get back at him. Stiles experimented with varying maneuvers of his tongue, lips, and hands and after learning some of what the responsive wolf liked most he gleefully teased him until the alphaâs hand shot out to hold his head in place, claws scraping lightly against his scalp. Stiles moaned at the action, his own cock leaking against his belly. Pausing to scent the air and receiving a jerky, eager nod, Derek began to thrust upward into his willing mouth until hot cum was coating his tongue and sliding down his throat.Â
Interesting, he thought, licking his lips afterward. It was no honey or tree sap, but definitely better than the godforsaken tea heâd been chugging yesterday. He fully intended to acquire a taste for it.
The mated pair spent their days much as they did before, but with the addition of regularly sparring and practicing finding or sneaking up on each other under a wide range of conditions. Not wanting to be at a disadvantage again, Stiles also worked on creating his own offensive spells and was able to make some actually effective defensive charms with his new abilities.Â
And then there was the sex, of course. The quick and dirty fucking and marathon lovemaking sessions and everything in between. Yeah, okay, so there were some major changes, but the plants in the greenhouse still needed tending and the seeds and nuts still needed grinding for flour and the clothes still needed washing, you know?
They built a larger home for the both of them, referred to as the Den, while maintaining their individual huts for those times when they needed space or simply wanted to work on something without disturbing the other. They also built a cob oven outside so they could bake crackers and dense, crumbly breads and granola from the dock seed, acorns, etc, instead of mostly using them to bulk up soups and stews, as breading, or to make a kind of gruel.Â
Larem finally got used to Derek even in his wolf form, the two of them actually cuddling together on occasion.Â
âIâm a disgrace to wolves,â the shifter muttered after the first time it happened.Â
âA very adorable disgrace,â Stiles said, attempting to console him before bursting into giggles.
âJust donât befriend any boars or game birds,â Derek growled, glaring and wagging a finger.
Summer slid into autumn and when Stiles came across a huge beehive nestled inside a tree trunk he was over the moon. Sap was just fine, but the converted nectar was on a whole other level and he knew exactly what he wanted to do with most of his bounty. After returning with the necessary supplies he smoked the bees out and used his power to keep any stragglers from reaching him, taking care to make sure the hive remained habitable and the queen unharmed. Stiles collected nearly 25 pounds of honey, leaving more than enough for the bees to get through the winter. Â
Over the years heâd tried fermenting various things, sometimes doing so unintentionally as well, with a wide range of results. He kept about a third of the honey for sweetening and the rest he used to make a handful of different one gallon batches of mead. The glass containers were left to gather wild yeast, stoppered with airlocks, and then placed in a warm, dark place to do their thing with periodic tending.
Derek told him that he had no idea what day it was or even what month it was for sure, but that fall always reminded him of his family whoâd made a big deal of the harvest celebrations between the equinox and the following full moon. Stiles had stopped paying attention to dates too for the most part, but was in the habit of marking a daily tally and so had the means of figuring it out if he so cared to. He later informed his wolf that it was September 27th.Â
Derek mentioned some other meaningful days from his past, including his birthday, which was on Christmas Day. Curious, his mate then asked when his birthday was and Stiles told him that it was April 8th, a couple months after they first met and a month or so before they got together. Derek frowned and said that he wish heâd known.Â
âWell my half birthday is coming up soon,â he replied, grinning.Â
Derek rolled his eyes, but prepared Stilesâ favorite meal for the event â roasted garlic and rosemary wild boar with honeyed parsnips â and worshipped his body all night, knotting him twice.
By the time Derek Day came around (Christmas was hard for both of them, especially Stiles, but Derekâs birthday they could do) most of the mead had been racked and was either aging or in secondary fermentation based on the alcohol content he was going for or the resiliency of the yeast. The rest they had already drank young.Â
All of it served its basic purpose of getting him tipsy (or more) and was drinkable at the least, but the blackberry melomel and the meadowsweet and dandelion petal metheglin were truly delicious. He gave a couple bottles of each to Derek as the first part of his 26th birthday gift. The wolf might not be able to get drunk, which Stiles vowed to remedy that one day, but he could enjoy the complex beverages all the same, sweet and semi-sweet respectively.
The second part of his gift was a rich cake-like dessert made with acorn flour, water, honey, boar grease, the last of the duck eggs from his new and improved preservation cooler, vanilla leaf, lavender, and salt, and baked in the cob oven. The third part was simply his mouth and ass, Stiles wearing a bow and everything. (Two bows actually, one around his neck and the other around his waist, made from berry-dyed woven foliage and scraps of fabric.)
On New Years Day he hitched the sled up to Larem once more to go exploring, but this time a massive black wolf trotted along side or ranged ahead to circle back around protectively. Another 5 weeks would mark a year since that fateful afternoon when his tiny world of two began to become a fuller, happier three. Brought him a companion who became a true friend and then even more. AÂ mate.
They stopped to eat lunch near an unfamiliar river â he marked its location on his map and made a note to return and try fishing when it was warmer â and Derek shifted back, pulling on the thick, winter clothing Stiles had packed for him. He unfolded a small metal tripod with a hook and set his small cookpot on it, filling it with the leftovers of last nightâs 3 meat and mushroom stew before placing kindling and dry chunks of wood underneath it to start a fire.Â
They sat on the sled and when their meal was bubbling nicely Stiles took some hay from a side bag, tossing it and a handful of acorns to the buck, and then ladled the stew into bowls. Two cups for him and three for the always hungrier wolf. They now had 10 fine spoons thanks to Derekâs superior wood-carving skills: the ladle,  3 other cooking/serving spoons, and 3 pairs for eating in different sizes. Afterwards he brought out an apple for each of them as well.
Derek watched as Larem happily munched on his and then turned to Stiles with a raised eyebrow.
âYou know, you never did tell me exactly how you ended up with him.â
âHuh, I guess not,â Stiles muttered, thinking back as the shifter took a bite of fruit. âI found him a few months after I came out here, around the end of fall four years ago. He wouldâve been around 2 1/2 then and one of his back legs had gotten broken somehow. I donât know whether he was still with his motherâs herd or with a young bachelorâs group until then and got left behind or if heâd been already going solo, but at any rate, he was alone and leaning against a tree. Larem was able to move around, but it was doubtful that he could cover enough ground to feed himself properly, especially with winter coming, and he definitely couldnât flee from any predators.â
Derek grunted in acknowledgment, tearing a huge chunk out of his apple.Â
âI considered eating him of course, but he was just so defenseless and looked at me with his big, curious eyes â heâd probably never seen a human before â and I just couldnât do it. Besides I was lonely and rather bored and figured he might be a good project whether just in the short term or something ongoing.Â
âI had a ton of apples from some trees I harvested a few weeks before and had brought several with me, so I threw him a couple before approaching. He seemed fairly trusting or at least hungry enough to override his fear and while he focused on a third one in my hand I got close and used my magic to make him unconscious so I could work on his leg. I set the bone as best I could and was able to speed the healing along just enough for it to hold if he bore weight on it. When he woke up he seemed pretty confused, but snapped out of it once I gave him the apple.âÂ
Stiles looked over to see Larem eyeing the red and green fruit he was currently holding and chuckled. He took out his knife and cut half of it into slices, tossing one to the buck.
âI got him to follow me home like this, giving him pieces of another three apples and eating one myself. Thankfully it wasnât too far away. I had some hay and other dried plant stuff meant for mulch and more apples of course, so he hung around.Â
âI brought rope with me when I moved out here as well; it took two long, slow and heavy trips before I had everything I wanted and where we live is a good ways further than my original shelter at the time. I can make bark cordage now, but frankly the synthetic stuff is stronger so itâs good that I had it. Anyway, I fashioned a harness and lead from some of it and decided I would keep him unless he truly seemed unhappy. I thought I might be able to train him to carry bags or drag stuff for me and, well, the restâ â he finished with a dramatic flourish â âis history!âÂ
Derek appeared suitably impressed with him and he smiled, throwing the rest of the slices to Larem.Â
âIâm pretty sure he kept me from going crazy too,â he added, biting into the remaining half apple. Derek gave him a look that said he wasnât too sure about that and Stiles rolled his eyes.
âAnd then you found me,â his mate said, eyes still sparkling with amusement.
âMmhmm,â Stiles hummed, nodding before swallowing his mouthful. âThree second chance strays: human, werewolf, and hart. Well, Larem was too young be a proper hart then, but heâs one now.â He gestured to the 6.5 year old buck. âItâs a much cooler term for you, right?â Â
Larem looked at him blankly and then snorted, turning and lying down on the patch of snow free ground under a tree now that food time was over. Derek laughed, leaning over to kiss him, and they fell back onto the sled. It was too cold to want to get naked out here, but he let his his knees fall open so that the alpha could lie between them and he could wrap his legs around him. They made out for a while, kissing and rubbing against each other through their layers.
Stiles didnât know what the future held; whether they would just stay out here until death did them part or if they would venture back to civilization at some point either to stay or just occasionally to procure the stuff they really couldnât get in the wild. Things made from metal and books and certain spices and medicines. Other company perhaps, strange as it now seemed.Â
Soft fabrics, at least for undergarments, when their clothes eventually wore down completely and couldnât be patched or sewn together into more shirts or pants or briefs with other usable scraps. He could make thread from nettles and other plant fibers, but it was very labor intensive to do garments from scratch, not to mention, well, scratchy. All leather all the time would be a bit much as well, especially in the warmer months, but Derek could certainly rock the look and took to making it from his larger kills. Â
What Stiles did know is that theyâd all saved each other and that heâd follow his mate anywhere. Based on the glint in the werewolfâs now red-ringed eyes and the love and arousal coursing down his bond that meant straight back to the Den to roll around naked. They hastily repacked their things and hitched the sled up to the annoyed deer, promising him additional, rarer goodies upon their return for interrupting his nap.Â
âLetâs go home!â he cried, getting into position and signaling for Larem to move. AÂ loud, sustained howl was let loose just ahead and Stiles grinned into the cold air rushing by with a heart full of warmth.Â
Larem. About to lose his antlers, sick of your shit.
put up your hands (say i donât wanna be in love)Â
Written for @sterekweekly for the prompt âmidnightâ.
Summary: Stiles had even made dessert, a (slightly lopsided) coconut rum cake, knowing Derek had a sweet tooth he would never admit to. A little more effort than Stiles would normally go to, but heâd figured if he couldnât push the boat out for their anniversary, then when could he? Teen | 2.3k
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Stiles counted along with the clock, the second hand ticking ever closer to twelve. Five, four, three, twoâŠ
Midnight.
Dinner had gone cold hours ago, the remains of his momâs lasagna a congealed mess in the dish at the centre of their table. Small, battery-operated tea lights that were barely aglow now. Pinpricks of light, like little fireflies surrounding a failed disaster of a dinner date. While Derek had never said anything about a disdain for open flames indoors, Stiles had thought it was better safe than sorry, and this was a nice compromise. Romantic atmosphere without the fire hazard or a mess of molten wax.
Heâd even made dessert, a (slightly lopsided) coconut rum cake, knowing Derek had a sweet tooth he would never admit to. A little more effort than Stiles would normally go to, but heâd figured if he couldnât push the boat out for their anniversary, then when could he?
But Derek hadnât come home at all.
Stiles finally dragged his eyes away from the clock and let his shoulders slump. He wasnât angry. It wasnât fair to blame Derek for being busy at work. Itâs not like Stiles had told him that he was going to try and do something special. Although Derek had promised heâd be home for dinner.
It wasnât a lie, Stiles told himself. Derek had obviously intended to come home on time. Something must have just come up. Something so clearly important that meant he couldnât even call. Right? Right.
He wasnât angry. He was just tired and a little bit humiliated. Clearly, heâd put a little moreânot value, that wasnât the right word, he knew Derek valued himâsentiment, yeah, behind their anniversary than was reciprocated. Which was, not fine, not even expected but it was⊠yeah. It was what it was.
Something ached deep in Stilesâ chest and the chair scraped back against the floor as he scooped up all of the tea lights in hands that were totally not shaking, fingers that were absolutely, completely steady as he found their off switches. He tossed them in the trash can and then, upon thinking about Derek potentially finding them, crumpled a few paper towels and stuffed them on top.
Dessert was still in the fridge and the lasagna joined it, carefully wrapped in foil. No point in letting it go to waste, maybe Derek could take it to the station tomorrow and share it with the Sheriff. It wasnât the healthiest of meals, but hey, his dad was allowed a cheat day every now and then, particularly when his son was suffering from a broken heart.
âOkay, enough,â Stiles muttered, waggling his fingers in front of his face. Broken heart, seriously? âYouâre being pathetic, Stiles. Itâs just freakinâ dinner. Derek loves you the other three hundred sixty four days of the year. There shouldnât be anything important about this one.â
Except, there kinda was? This marked a year to the day theyâd first admitted how great they could be together, and put their absolute trust in each other as their relationship had taken the next step. Stiles had just wanted to commemorate that. Even just seeing Derek for more than the ten minutes theyâd overlapped at breakfast, before Derekâs shift started. He refused to feel bad that he wanted a little more than that, just for today.
Weariness took over, and Stiles abandoned his cleaning up of the kitchen in favour of making his way to the bed he and Derek had shared for six months now. He stopped abruptly in the doorway and swayed, looking at the rumpled sheets and feeling his lip quiver. Suddenly, the thought of spending the night in their bed alone seemed like the most awful thing he could imagine. A shaky exhale left his lips, and then Stiles turned abruptly on his heel, bounding back down the stairs and snatching his keys from the sea glass bowl near the front door.
Roscoe seemed to know he wasnât in the mood for her games tonight, engine roaring to life at the simple flick of his wrist. He drove, trying to force the buzzing thoughts in his head to quieten down as he followed the trail of street lamps. Even under their glow, the world looked awash with grey. Colourless, lifeless, numb.
Stiles kind of knew the feeling.
He didnât really have a destination in mind, but when he found himself idling outside of his childhood home, he supposed heâd probably known where he was heading the whole time. The sight of the cruiser was both welcome and unwelcome, and Stiles rested his head against the steering wheel, taking a deep breath.
When he let himself in with a key he barely used anymore, he was greeted with the sight of his dad halfway out of the living room, summoned by the sound of the door.
âStiles? Itâs almost one in the morning, what the hell are you doing here?â
âDad,â Stiles choked, and then he was falling forward into strong arms, and tears were stinging his eyes but he wouldnât let them fall, he wouldnât cry. Not over this. He inhaled, long fingers grasping the back of his dadâs shirt, holding him tightly.
Distantly, Stiles registered that if his dad was still in uniform, he couldnât have been home long. His theory had been right. Something had cropped up on duty that kept both his dad and Derek later than planned. Usually, heâd be bugging one of them to find out what happened, but right now Stiles didnât care. Because he realized that if his dad was home, Derek was probably on his way too, and would discover Stilesâ absence at any moment.
âCan I just stay here tonight? Please?â He hated how soft and pleading his voice came out. Hated that he couldnât handle this like an adult and face his problems head on.
But his dad held him just that little bit tighter and Stiles could have wept with relief.
âOf course you can, son, you never have to ask. Didnât take your key, did I? The bedâs always made up for you.â He pulled back and his face went through three different expressions of reluctance before he asked, âYou break up with Derek?â
Stilesâ breath caught in his throat, and the words came out thickly. âNo.â He shook his head. âNo, of course not. I justâcan we not do this now, dad? Canât it be enough that Iâm mad at him right now and I want to stay here tonight?â
âOf course it can. Go on, get some sleep, kid.â
Stiles mumbled something that was both thanks and a goodnight and trudged his way up the stairs. The sheets didnât smell right, now heâd gotten used to the unscented fabric softener that Derek preferred, and they were a little musty from disuse. That, together with the rampant emotions thrumming in every part of his chest, suggested that sleep would be a long time coming.
But almost as soon as Stiles closed his eyes, the world faded to nothing.
 * * *Â
He wasnât sure what woke him up.
It was still dark, so he hadnât been asleep long. There was no clock by his bedside anymore, a reminder that this familiar bed wasnât where he should be waking up.
His eyes flicked to the window out of habit, and he watched as it began to close, slowly and silently. Stiles squinted blearily into the darkness, but he couldnât make out anything more than a shadow outside his window. But that was enough.
âDerek,â he whispered. The window stopped moving, little more than three inches between the sash and the sill. The silence was deafening, and for a moment Stiles held his breath, wondering if a reply would come at all.
âI was just making sure you were here.â Derekâs voice was quiet, and Stiles couldnât even convince himself that it was out of consideration for the late hour. Even beyond that, he could hear the misery in every syllable. âYou werenât supposed to wake up. I know you donât want to see me right now, but IâI just needed to know you were somewhere safe.â
Stiles sat up, wrapped the top blanket around himself and shuffled over to the window. He didnât open it, just sat on the floor, his cheek pressed to the jamb. He could feel the light presence of air drifting through the gap. It wasnât particularly cold, but Stiles shivered anyway.
âI should have left a note,â he said eventually. âIt wasnât my intention to make you worry.â
The reply that came was filled with bitterness and self-loathing. âI could say the same. I should have called. I should have been home,â Derek corrected himself. âI sawâI foundâIâm sorry.â
The words didnât heal the wounds the evening had left deep within Stilesâ chest, but they were a stepping stone. This was Derek reaching out, and now it was up to Stiles to meet him halfway. He reached up, fingers scrabbling as he pushed the window upwards, opening it fully. His motions were far less quiet than Derekâs, but he didnât care.
He shuffled back as one leg stepped inside the window, followed by another, and then Derekâs head ducked through. His face was drawn, visible even when half-shrouded in shadow. There was tension in every line of his body and he made no move to enter the room further, just hovered by the window as if he would be made to leave at any moment.
And hell if that didnât sweep the air from Stilesâ lungs. After all this time, Derek should never be unsure of his welcome. Not with him.
His fingers curled into the knee of Derekâs grey sweatpants and he tugged lightly enough to make his point clear. He acquiesced instantly, legs folding beneath him as they both settled on the floor. Even though Derek didnât need it, Stiles loosened his grip on the blanket and haphazardly threw a corner around Derekâs shoulders.
âI didnât forget.â When Stiles looked nonplussed, Derek clarified, âThe date. I know you think I did, but youâre wrong. Thereâs a card in the Camaro. It has a stupid pun on it. I thought it would make you laugh.â
It probably would have. Stiles would have been delighted at Derekâs attempt at humour. He would have probably had it framed, to hang in their bedroom for years to come.
âThat helps,â Stiles admitted. âBut it doesnât make everything better. I felt, no, I feel like an idiot for caring so much about this. And itâs ridiculous because I knew who you were when we got together. I didnât expect rose petals and candles and slow dancing. I just wanted to see you.â
Silence. Stiles knew heâd somehow said the wrong thing because he could feel the sadness rolling off Derek in waves.
âWhat did I say?â
âNothing.â
Stilesâ hand flew out and he flicked on the lamp. When his eyes recovered from the sudden flare of brightness, he squinted at Derek. âAre you actually pouting right now?â
âNo.â Derek raised his eyes to the ceiling petulantly, pursing his lips.
Stiles barked out a laugh and poked Derek in the bicep. âYou are totally pouting. What did I say? Tell me. You know I wonât quit until you do.â
âI could do all of that if thatâs what you wanted,â Derek ground out with no small amount of reluctance. âIt doesnât make me feel good when you say you donât expect me to do the whole romance thing.â
âYou literally just called it âthe whole romance thingâ, dude, that doesnât instil hope. And given that I canât even get you to show up for dinner when you agreed to it, why would I hold my breath for wooing?â
Derekâs eyes flashed blue, his hands curling into fists as he turned his guilt-ridden face away. Stiles closed his eyes. âIâm sorry. That was uncalled for. And I didnât mean it, really I didnât. Iâm just lashing out because Iâm embarrassed. You know you romanced the hell out of me when we started dating. That wasnât what I meant. I was trying to express that I didnât expect our anniversary to be a huge deal in general. I just wanted to acknowledge that it happened, because it was the day the world gave me you.â
Derek swallowed, and Stiles watched as the tension unfurled from his body. He idly picked at a stray string at the hem of his sweatpants, before clumsy fingers reached out and curled over Stilesâ. A peace offering, a gesture of forgiveness and a request for forgiveness of his own at the same time.
Stiles threaded their fingers together and held on tightly.
âYou already had me,â Derek said. He rubbed his thumb over Stilesâ knuckles. âFate or the universe or anything else had no part in it. I do like knowing thatâs how you see it, though.â
âHow do you see it?â
âI remember it as the day I realized that you were going to keep fighting at my side like you belonged there, and it first occurred to me that you did.â
The threat of tears stung Stilesâ eyes, and he raised their joined hands together to lightly brush his lips over the back of Derekâs hand.
âI love you.â
âYes,â Derek said, then cautiously added, âDoes that mean youâll come home?â
Stiles nodded, and pressed his forehead to Derekâs shoulder, basking in the warmth. âI was always coming home.â He cast a look over his shoulder at his childhood bed and sighed. âIâm not waking my dad up after his late night. Youâll have to squeeze in beside me and suffer in a single bed for one night.â
The smile that spread over Derekâs face was fond, genuine. Its sudden appearance made the ache in Stilesâ chest finally settle, even as his heart betrayed him and embarrassingly skipped a beat. He flushed, not even needing to look at Derek to know heâd heard it and the smile was widening into a dumb grin.
âStupid werewolf hearing,â Stiles huffed and slid back into his bed, making space for Derek to join him. âGet in the bed before I change my mind. And youâre buying me a nice dinner tomorrow. And donât think Iâve forgotten about my card, I want my dumb punny card, Derek.â
Derek kicked off his shoes, sliding under the covers and wrapping his arms around Stiles. Stiles wriggled closer, sighing as Derek pressed a gentle kiss to his neck, and then nuzzled the same spot sweetly.
âAnything you want,â he promised.
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He mouthed along the jawline, eyes closed, his entire focus on the feeling of the beard making his lips tingle and tickling his skin. When he reached the ear, he took a moment, pressed a featherlight kiss on the earlobe and let out a soft exhale. The shudder he got was the response he aimed for and he smiled to himself.
Stiles slowly shifted further down, making a stop at the neck next. The werewolf underneath him trembled as he nuzzled the sensitive area between ear and collarbone. He pressed his lips down and gently sucked, regretting that no matter how many hickeys he'd produce, none of them would stay to mark what was his.
Despite not being a wolf, Stiles was nearly as obsessed with smells as his boyfriend, and he took his sweet time of sniffing, licking and biting where he knew it'd drive his mate crazy.
Stiles was in no rush on this Sunday morning, although the sun was already high in the sky, shining through the blind windows of the loft.
Both men slept in late, exhausted after yesterday's fateful events.
The pack had been to Deaton's Den, a werewolf-friendly club on the outskirts of Beacon Hills. Although, considering the music being not that loud and the lack of flashing strobe lights to protect sensitive supernatural ears and eyes, it probably could be classified more as a pub than a club. It had been just like any other random Saturday night until one asshole hadn't taken Stiles' explicit 'no' for a no. He'd rather not think about what might have happened if Derek hadn't ripped the toilet cabin door off its hinges and stormed in like berserk, eyes red and beta shifted.
Stiles recalled the talk that had followed, a long overdue conversation where they finally admitted their feelings. In the john of Deaton's club of all places. Not quite the romantic scenery Stiles had dreamt of for years, but as soon as Derek had kissed him, the surroundings had become nonrelevant anyway.
They had spent the night together and with every caress, Derek had erased the touch of the other wolf. He was just so Derek in the best possible way. Possessive and yet careful, rough but also sweet and loving. It was the best sex Stiles ever had. Not that there was a long list of ex-lovers, but he was certain it couldn't get any better than that.
Except, it had been all about Stiles and now it was his turn to give everything back to his wolf. Finally, he got to worship that glorious body as it should be.
He squeezed those perfectly shaped pecs and stroked with his fingertips through the hair. Derek stiffened ever so slightly underneath him but made no move to stop him, so Stiles went on by kissing down to the chest, rubbing his nose through the black curls, trailing sweet pecks to the left nipple, where he gently nibbled the bud before he latched on and sucked.
His hands found their way up to the shoulders, relishing how broad, strong and toned they were. The biceps were next. So thick that Stiles would need both hands to wrap his fingers around them. Jesus Christ. They weren't just a show-off of Derek's strength. They were visible proof of his commitment to his alpha role, his dedication to protecting his pack, and his determination to push himself further every day. Stiles has never met anyone with more self-discipline than Derek.
His forearms told a different story, his wrists especially. They were delicate, just a little thicker than Stiles', and he couldn't help but think how that contrast was almost like an analogy for the man itself. Because Derek was more than just a mindless muscled hunk, and no matter how hard he tried to hide his sensitive side behind a wall of wit, sarcasm and rudeness, the pack knew better. They had seen him.
Stiles had seen him.
It's why he loved him.
That Derek's personality came in the form of a Greek God was just the best bonus. Well, Stiles surely won't complain about that.
He let go of the nipple and laid his head on the chest to listen to the heartbeat. Stiles' hands found Derek's and he intertwined their fingers, thumbs stroking lovingly over the back of his mates' hands. He felt hairs there, too, a soft down, and he smiled to himself.
With his eyes still closed, he just basked in the sunlight, warming his skin. And with the hot running werewolf underneath him, Stiles went lax. Yeah, he thought, this had to be the best place in the whole world right now.
After a moment of peaceful silence, he shifted and wanted to continue his exploration of Derek's body.
He buried his nose in the soft chest hair again and trailed slowly down south, making sure to tickle his wolf with his breath to make him squirm. The tiny sounds he got in return were beautiful.
The defined abs received some extra smooches before Stiles' tongue poked playfully into Derek's belly button. He felt the alpha dick twitching and Stiles glanced at it, seeing it hardening, and his mouth watered. He had always assumed Derek was big down there, but Jesus Christ. His still sore hole reminded him of how big his boyfriend was. Last night, he hadn't gotten a good look, but he certainly had felt every inch. Now though, he could finally get his visual fill of what had been the main star of his long-lasting fantasies.
Stiles couldnât wait to suck Derek off.
Until now, sex hadn't been the purpose of his caress. It had been more of a taking in, mapping out. Feeling. Reassuring himself that this was happening, that he and Derek were together. As, like, a couple. Who did couply things like lazing around in bed on a Sunday morning and rubbing their naked bodies against each other.
Now that he saw Derek getting hard, he smelled his heady scent of growing arousal and also the remains of last night's jizz which they only wiped away with Derek's undershirt in post-coital bliss... now Stiles wanted more.
Fuck, that thick cock and the heavy balls, framed by a wild patch of black hairs, were like a piece of art.
He let go of Derek's hands and shuffled on all fours to get in a better position.
"You don't have to," cut Derek's voice through his thoughts.
He sounded tense, and Stiles' dreamy bubble burst with one heartbeat. He blinker and looked up to check in with his mate, expecting to meet warm green-hazel eyes, but Derek stared at the ceiling instead.
He seemed uncomfortable.
From one second to another, Stiles' insecurities kicked in because all the time he had thought, Derek would enjoy this just as much as he did, but that was not the case.
"You don't want me to?" he blurted out and hated how unsure he sounded.
Maybe Derek had second thoughts. Maybe Derek regretted last night's actions. Maybe he wanted to go back to being just friends.
Stiles couldn't do that. It wasn't an option for him. Not after last night.
It'd crush him. The mere thought of it made his stomach churn.
Derek lifted his head and finally looked at him. "Don't be daft, idiot!" he said, almost annoyed, and Stiles wanted to sob in relief.
Never had he been happier to get insulted.
"Course I want it." Derek hesitated and bit his lip. His head flopped back on the pillow and he let out a sigh. "I'm just too lazy to get up."
Stiles tilted his head and frowned. "Get up?" Had he missed something?
"You know to..." Derek flailed his arms in the general direction of his crotch.
The frown on Stiles' forehead deepened. "No?" he said carefully. "I don't know, actually?" He peered at the cock, wondering what Derek meant.
"Get ready!" the wolf finally spit out, exasperated.
Oh?
Oh.
"Oh," Stiles said intelligently and his body went burning hot in one second. "Hey, yeah, okay. I just wanted to blow you, dude, but if you want anal, yep, that's fine, Mini-Me is totally up for that, too." Derek abruptly sat up, while Stiles went on rambling. "I didn't know you'd bottom, what with the alpha thing and all, but fucking hell, yeah. Okay. Fair warning though, this might be just a quickie because, Jesus, have you seen your ass..." Stiles shook his head and sucked in a breath, leaking precum from just the sheer imagination of fucking Derek. Fucking hell. "God, I dunno how long I can hold back-"
Derek slammed a hand right across Stiles' mouth and everything he wanted to add ended in a muffled noise. They stared at each other with wide eyes.
"First of all," Derek said and raised his pointer. "Don't call me dude. Especially not when you're talking about us having sex. What the hell is wrong with you, Stiles." His eyebrows underlined the seriousness of his words.
Stiles nodded frantically. He totally could do that. There were better pet names available anyway like Boo-Boo or-
"Second," Derek interrupted his train of thought and slowly released Stiles' mouth from his grip. "I didn't mean get ready for anal." He gave Stiles a stern look, and just hearing the word anal coming out of Derek Hale's mouth, made Stiles giggle.
"What did you mean then?"
That uncomfortable expression was back on the wolfâs face. He pulled a face as if he had licked a lemon. "You know, like, shaving."
Stiles stared at him, dumbfounded. "Okay, but you don't have to." He briefly looked down at Derek's now flaccid dick and the bush of dark curls. "If it makes you feel better then yeah, I understand, but you really don't have to because of me."
"You don't mind?!" Derek sounded surprised.
"Uh, no?" Stiles smiled at him. "I like your hot, sexy wolfy body just like it is."
Something, an emotion Stiles couldn't place, flashed over Derek's face before he shifted his expression to neutral again. And then he quickly turned away, averting Stiles' eye.
That's when the penny dropped. "Oh my God, someone said something to you in the past, didn't they?" As soon as he said the words out loud, he was sure he was right.
Stiles had a good guess of which of the three girlfriends would be the one who gave Derek the complex about his hair. He didn't say her name out loud, it wasn't necessary. Fuck, did he hate her so much right now.
He put his hand on Derek's jaw and gently turned his head back to look at him. The wolf's face was stoic as ever, but his eyes betrayed him. "I'm not her, Der." Stiles leaned in and kissed him softly. "I love you, everything of you."
Derek's breath hitched.
"Too early?" Stiles bit his lip.
Damn, they only got together about 9 hours ago. But still, it felt right. Stiles loved Derek for fucking years.
"Stiles." Derek looked like he wanted to say more, but nothing came out of his mouth and he looked almost pained. Instead, a low whine escaped his throat.
Stiles rested his forehead against his boyfriend's. "It's okay," he whispered, and he truly meant it. "Can we go back to where I tried to make you feel good?" he asked seductively. "Let me show you, how much I love your body?" He pulled back, wriggled his eyebrows and started grinning.
Derek snorted. God, Stiles loved the sound of his laugh, loved how Derek closed his eyes briefly, scrunched his nose and showed his bunny teeth. He'd make Derek laugh a lot more in the future, Stiles secretly vowed to himself.
Stiles did show Derek how much he loved his body.
Twice.
Derek let Stiles top a week later. It was the first time he bottomed. Both weren't virgins by any means, but so many things they were about to explore together.