#steve..

[coldgayes-blog]

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[glass--pyramids]

Tonight..

I knew it. I knew I'd feel so bad for hitting all the soft-spots when I was arguing with you.. I was so upset, I knew I'd feel hurt afterward but I let my anger take over and I didn't stop myself. We aren't friends anymore and I feel so.. strange. Like something that was so terribly important was just gone.. vanished and disappeared. And it was. You left with those last words.. and I can't even begin to explain how broken I felt afterward. Crying, swearing, wanting to just yell at everyone in my way and punch a wall.

But now i know how it feels, after wondering for so long. How couples get in fights, and even though it can get to the worst level they still love each other and are still together. We aren't a couple, and I'm pretty sure either you don't love me anymore or you just hate me.. but I know what it's like now. No matter how much it hurts your feelings can't just change.

So I'm sorry. So sorry, I can't even explain how much I want to be friends with you again. I still love you, so, so much, it's unbelievable. After 2 and a half months, of liking you, and a year and a half of knowing you, and I feel broken by not being your friend. I know I should be telling you this, but I can't. I know you deleted my number already and we're not friends on Facebook. I'd tell you in person but we don't have school until Tuesday. So.. I'm sorry. I love you. Still.