#still exercising

[thetrekkiehasthephonebox]

current life update: listening to mildly calming yet upbeat video game music in an effort to regain some control over my mental state

[jessworkinprogress]

Day 276 (March 1, 2014)

Today I felt as if the energy was sucked out of me. It took everything within me to do the things that I had to do today. But I got what I needed to do accomplished so in the end things are fine I just need a good nights rest. Tomorrow I have a seven hour shift and then I have the next day off. I plan over the next 48 hours to get some school work done and to take care of myself a little bit. I also plan to have a movie/ dinner evening with one of my oldest friends in order to celebrate her birthday late. 

Today is day 219 of my work out goal. I know I did not mention it yesterday but trust me I still worked out. I feel a need to continue to workout everyday. I am so motivated to exercise for 1 whole year. This was something I did not think was possible this time last year. I am upset that my body is not showing the results of the effort I am putting my body through. I hope with my future doctors appointments will shed some light on why I am not losing weight. I hope afterwards the professionals can show me what I need to do to lose the over 50 lbs in order for me to be healthy. I the end I just do not want to deal with the medical issues that come with being over weight. I have a family history of heart disease and both my parents are diabetics. I also want to have a healthy body in order for me to have a healthy positive body image. I am tired of how my life is effected by my weight issues. I am still trying to drink water, I hopefully want to see the results said to be had with drinking large quantities of water.

I am just hoping to become a better person at the end of this personal journey. I do not know if the things I am doing will end up with that result. I am working so hard but right now my future looks uncertain. I wish I could have a crystal ball or a tarot card reading that could predict my future, but where is the fun in that. 

Good luck and best wishes.

Jess Rose

[actualjerseygirl]

You know what? I'm sick of feeling guilty for being hungry and eating. If I'm hungry, I'm gonna eat. I don't mean I'll gorge myself on every bad thing out there. But I'm always saying to myself, "I shouldn't eat. I've already eaten all the calories I should today." Fuck it! If my body says I'm hungry, I'm eating. No More Guilt!

[choitiiken]

Pretty Good Day~

Hmmmm i got to sleep in today which felt great. Then my friends and I went to the gym to get fit~ After that we went back to my place; ate some pizza and baked an EXTREMELY FLUFFY cake ^^ Oh and after that we went to this restaurant called Guppy Teahouse MAAAAN their shaved ice was DEL-I-CI-OUS w00t~ it was huge too even though we ordered a small =_= But anyways i had a pretty good day today. I dont want monday to come GRRRRRRR >:PPP Well that is all. How you guys doin'?