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WILLOW | 정원

p: idol!Jungwon x non idol!gn reader g: fluff

warnings! fear of being seen or getting caught (?)

note: this is inspired by the song willow by Taylor Swift<3 (also thought abt this while showering when willow played in my phone lmfao) enjoyy

Dating someone who was an idol wasn't something easy and we'd always have to be careful to not get caught, because people could end everything so easily that didn't let us relax for a moment if we decided to go out to the convenience store.

I wasn't an idol myself but just a student, already graduated from high school and the person who I got involved with being an idol was my boyfriend. Yang Jungwon was his name, is his name and I'm glad to be able to call him my boyfriend; because he's a really nice person himself. We met some time ago but that doesn't matter, because no matter the ways we ended up together.

Knowing Jungwon as a really straight and responsible person, I couldn't believe how he asked me to be his girlfriend, knowing how hard it was for him to date someone in the industry he was in. He said he'd take any risks to be with me even if he knew he could get fired for doing so, and I couldn't contradict him because it would've been useless at this time, also because I'm in love with him too. Our relationship is worth the risk. Jungwon was chill about going out together, always being careful of course, but I couldn't say the same about myself as I'd get scared of someone catching us and ruining Jungwon's career. I have to admit that sometimes I was just overthinking about the what if's but Jungwon is always there to bring me back to earth and calm me down.

"Which one do you want? Jake hyung told me this one's really good" Jungwon pointed the chocolate ice cream inside the refrigerator, I was struggling in choosing an ice cream because all of them looked good "Mhm.. okay I'll get that one" I said before grabbing the ice cream Jungwon told me Jake had recommended him, I was going to give it a try. We went to pay for everything we had grabbed and soon we were walking back home, hand in hand. I couldn't help but turn around or look for someone around when we were walking, making Jungwon confused by my sudden behavior "Is something wrong?" He asked as we walked "No no" I said trying to convince him, but I knew I couldn't because we knew each other really well "Tell me what is it, is something on?" Jungwon asked me again, the only difference that this time he stopped walking and looked at me "I don't want someone to see you walking around with me... you know if someone sees us and then takes pictures and then posts them you'll-" "Hey hey... it's okay, no one will see us because it's almost 2 am and I don't think someone would be around with a camera wanting to take pictures, would they?" He asked me with a tinge of playfulness in the end to try to calm me down, maybe that was what I needed, some reassurance and his silly jokes "Okay~" I said smiling as we started walking again but before I could hold his hand, he started to run away making me go behind him "Hey!" I shouted as I followed him until he slowed down and started walking normally again. He wrapped his arm around my shoulder and I looked up at him "Why did you run away?" "I don't know but it was funny seeing how you tried to catch up" Jungwon said and I chuckled shaking my head softly at his actions. Then I realized that he had his arm around my shoulder instead of holding my hand, looking up with a pout I heard him chuckle as if he already knew why I was looking him like that, maybe he did know "Why? Do you want me to hold your hand again?" He asked me and I nodded almost instantly, cringing at the way I'd agree at whatever Jungwon would say or ask. "Okay, whatever you say~" I heard him say before grabbing my hand and intertwining his fingers with mine as we walked together with slow steps because we didn't have a reason to rush anything, we were together and that was enough for the both of us.

"Didn't you want to watch this one? Last week you told me you were looking forward to do so" Jungwon asked me as we sat together on our bed, full of snacks as we decided to have a movie night "Ah yes! I totally forgot about that, let's watch it!" I said excitedly, getting comfortable as I opened a pack of chips and started to eat while Jungwon played the movie on the tv. I don't know if I was tired or what but I ended up falling asleep after watching half of the movie, maybe it was because I was all cuddled up next to Jungwon as he'd rub circles in my back as we watched the movie. Or maybe because the movie turned out to be more boring than I had expected making me fall asleep without even finishing it.

I felt movement behind me before the mattress sank and making me recognize that it was Jungwon who was moving behind me. Before I could turn around, I felt his arms wrapping around me while pulling me to feel his chest behind my back. Trying to wash my sleepiness away, I turned around and saw Jungwon still awake looking down at me "Did I wake you up?" He asked me softly, bringing me closer to him "Yes.." I said, chuckling at my own words and before he could apologize, I talked "But it's okay, don't worry... I fell asleep while we were watching the movie, right?" I asked, seeing how Jungwon's eyes were turning into half crescents as his smile was growing too; remembering the moment I had fallen asleep "Yes.. you fell asleep but to be honest, the movie was a bit boring" he said and I laughed softly "It was, but you weren't helping either.." I smiled as I said this, referring to the way he was almost lulling me to sleep as we sat together watching the tv "I know... but you know it's already a habit of mine already~" he said, chuckling softly and I swore I wanted to keep this moment forever with me; his smile, the sound of his chuckle and the way he was holding me right now.

I smiled before hugging him closer and leaning my face in his neck, feeling how he kissed my head "I love you, rest well my love" I heard him whisper softly in my ear, careful to not talk loudly "I love you too, won.. good night" I said, already falling asleep in his arms. Jungwon whispered some more things but I couldn't understand what he said, maybe I'd ask him tomorrow...

💌゜・。。

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‧₊˚ daydreaming | 성훈

p: popular!Sunghoon x shy!fem reader g: classmates to lovers, fluff

warnings! kinda slowburn? Also reader loves chem (sorry not sorry y'all LMAO), long writing!

a/n: based off the song Daydreaming by Ariana Grande<3 last post before indefinite hiatus..

The first day I arrived to school, my attention was caught by a pretty boy of dark black hair and a face perfectly painted by multiple moles in different areas of, not only his face but, his body too. I could never talk to him, he was hella popular and I don't think he'd like to talk to someone like me, a random girl who came this year.

I wasn't completely lonely, I had a friend named Mi-Ju, she told me a bit more about Sunghoon. Things like he had a younger sister, he used to be an ice skater and a lot more things that just made me admire and feel more interested in him.

"You're going to create a hole in his back if you continue staring at him like that" I heard Mi-Ju say and I just rolled my eyes, I was looking at Sunghoon from our table at lunch with my chin on top of my hand "It's not like that..." I said and looked away from him after 5 minutes of staring at him to start eating "Have you heard about the History project?" "History project?! What?!" I looked at Mi-Ju, almost as if something tragic had happened "Yeah... Mrs Kim told us about it last class, we don't have to bring anything she just told us about it to... I don't know, be ready?" She said and I let out a sigh, feeling less worried about it "The thing is that it's in pairs but we won't be able to choose our partners... She'll choose them" "Really? Mrs Kim is always like that... it's no fun literally..." I said and went back to eating before going to our history class.

"Okay class, I'll start naming your partners for this project. When I finish naming all of you, then you can see how you'll organize to do this" the teacher said and everyone stayed silent "So, the pairs will be Areum and Haerin" "Yeonhan and Mi-Ju" "Sunghoon and ___" "Jeonmi and..." wait... I was paired with Sunghoon?! I turned around to look at Mi-Ju but instead of finding her eyes, I found Sunghoon's which were already looking at me beforehand "Alright, those are the pairings for this project. Good luck and remember to bring it in two weeks".

I sighed nervously as I stood up and walked to Sunghoon's desk, thinking on how I was going to deal with him and having to talk to him for two weeks, was this good or bad? "Hey Sunghoon..." I said and swallowed nervously, looking at him before looking to the ground "Hey.. ___" I heard him say and I didn't know what else to say "Do you wanna sit down?" Sunghoon asked me and I nodded, sitting next to him feeling pretty awkward. "So... how do we start this project?" He asked as he looked through his notebook "Uhm I think the teacher said that we should choose a chapter from the book and make a poster about it and the main topics" I said as I grabbed my history book and started to flip through the pages "Do you have any chapter in mind? Also, sorry. Today I forgot my history book so if you don't mind, can we share your book?" "Oh? Yeah no problem about that. Honestly I have one chapter in mind but we can decide which one together, does that sound right?" I asked softly, not believing the way I started to talk to him so normally and confidently "Yeah I'm okay with that" Sunghoon said and we started the project.

"How's it going with Sunghoon?" Mi-Ju asked me, nudging my shoulder playfully before we sat down for lunch. It has been a week since the history project started and my little conversations with Sunghoon, about the project, started too. "What do you mean? It's going good, we're always working on the project so..." I said smiling as I started to eat. I was talking to Mi-Ju when I felt a tap on my shoulder, turning around I couldn't believe that Sunghoon was there looking at me "Yes?" I mumbled softly "Uhm... Would you like to.. meet me after school to grab something?" He asked me and I was speechless "To continue the project! Yeah..." Sunghoon added and I chuckled as he sounded nervous, something new for me to see "Sure" I said smiling at him before he walked away.

"What was that?!" Mi-Ju asked and I giggled to myself, burying my face in my arms "I don't know but I'm so happy right now" "Yeah of course you are, your crush asked you out after school.." Mi-Ju said as she ate her lunch "He didn't ask me out! He said it was to finish the project!" I said, looking over at her before she eyed me "You know very well that it's more like a date rather a study session or whatever... He even said it himself but added the project part to sound more subtle" "Whatever.." I said and looked down at my food, smiling to myself.

"Why did I say that?! Oh my god I'm so dumb" Sunghoon said and bumped his head on the table as Jake patted his shoulder "It wasn't that bad by the way you say you did it... a study session? It's not that bad" Jungwon said, eating his lunch as he looked over at Sunghoon "I could've just gone and asked her on a proper date instead of a "study session"! I don't know why I was so nervous..." Sunghoon groaned "Maybe because you like her?" Ni-ki butted in, playing some games in his phone while he listened to Sunghoon's rambling "I don't-" "Yes you do, Sunghoon" everyone in the table said in unison, glancing at him before he bumped his head on the table again.

Sitting down next to Sunghoon in one of the cafe's table I started to take out all my books and things we were going to need to complete the project "Did you bring your book today?" I asked Sunghoon jokingly as I looked over at him "Yeah I did..." he said before chuckling lightly, cute.

"Let me walk you home, ___" I heard Sunghoon say as we walked out from the café after finishing the history project, a week before the day we had to hand it in "What?" I couldn't believe my ears in that moment "Yeah... Would you be comfortable with me walking you home?" He asked again and I smiled softly, nodding at his words "Yes..". We were walking together when suddenly little drops started to fall, slowly turning into a light rain "Oh.." I said as we realized it had started to rain "It's okay, I have an umbrella in my backpack" I said before taking out a small umbrella, it was more likely to be an individual umbrella due to the size but Sunghoon didn't mind about that as we shared it. It was awkward, definitely. But gladly my apartment wasn't far away from where we were and minutes after we arrived there "Thank you for walking me home, Sunghoon" I said smiling at him "No problem" he said and he was about to walk away under the rain when I stopped him, grabbing his arm softly "You can have my umbrella, I can't let you walk home under the rain" "Really?" "Yeah" I said chuckling "How can I repay you?" Sunghoon asked me and I shrugged, smiling "Giving it back?" I said and we both laughed "I don't know, but don't worry. Make sure to arrive safely and then we'll talk about that" I said and Sunghoon nodded, he waved before he started to walk away with my umbrella.

"And so I gave it to him!" I told Mi-Ju as we were on a phone call "Oh my god, I swear you're making smoother moves than him!" She said and I laughed "It's okay, I don't think he even likes me" I said and laid down on my bed, talking to Mi-Ju for a while more.

The next day I was in my locker when I saw my umbrella with a note and candies beside it, how did it end up inside my locker? I don't remember giving Sunghoon my locker keys. I grabbed the note and read it, smiling to myself as I grabbed the umbrella and put it inside my backpack again. I noticed that the candies were also one of my favorites, how did he know? Maybe it was a consequence and I was just overthinking about it, but how did he manage to put the umbrella and the candies inside my locker?

"Did you pass the chemistry exam?" Mi-Ju was talking with Ni-ki when I walked to her, she smiled and introduced Ni-ki to me as one of Sunghoon's friend "No I didn't" Ni-ki said, chuckling to himself "But the subject is so boring!" He added and I gasped, as a person who loved chemistry "What? Chemistry? Boring? Oh my god-" I said and Mi-Ju only laughed as I argued with Ni-ki. "Ni-ki? ___? What are you doing here?" A voice asked and Mi-Ju gasped "You forgot about me!" "Oh yeah sorry" I looked up and saw Sunghoon, it was weird to see him talk to Mi-Ju so confidently? "Hey" I said and Sunghoon turned to me, smiling "What were you talking about?" He asked again and Ni-ki told him about how he failed his chemistry exam. "___?" Sunghoon asked quietly and I looked at him, Mi-Ju and Ni-ki were busy arguing about something else so they weren't paying attention "Yeah?" I replied simply, waiting for him to talk "Would you like to go out after school to discuss about the project?" He asked me and I almost bursted out laughing, but I got the idea of his suggestion "Okay... even if we already finished the project?" I asked smiling playfully at him as he chuckled to himself, nodding "Yeah, even if we already finished it".

And that's how it was the last week before handing in the project. Sunghoon would ask me to go out after school to talk about the project, when we just went out to eat or walk around. It was sweet, indeed, but it left me confused. Did he want something else with me? If not then why was he doing this?

"Sunghoon?" I asked softly, as we walked together back to my apartment after spending another afternoon together "Yeah?" He replied "Why are you doing this?" "Asking you out after school?" And I was surprised by the way he already knew the point of my question "Yes.." I waited for his reply, but instead heard him chuckle "Because I like you" "What?" I asked again, not believing what he had said. We stopped walking and stood looking at each other "I like you, ___" Sunghoon said, looking down "But I didn't know a better way of asking you out apart from saying it was to study.." he said and I chuckled softly, I looked up at him "I like you too, Sunghoon... I've liked you for a long time" I admitted and he sighed before grabbing my hand "I'm sorry for making you wait" "It's okay, we're ending up together anyways?" I chuckled and he nodded, bringing me closer "We are" Sunghoon said and brought his hand to hold my cheek before connecting our lips together in a soft kiss.

✦゜・。。

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I NEVER EXISTED | 희승

p: non idol!heeseung x fem!oc reader g: angst, lovers to strangers (idk if that's even a trope but idgaf 😁)

warnings! break up, cheating, rumors, cursing

note: so this would be like a complete turn to my other Heeseung post Attention, this is connected to that story and it marks like the end of the relationship between Haeun and Heeseung. Enjoy ;)

This writing doesn't belong to the nwjns series!!

Also this is inspired by the song "I never existed" by Chase Atlantic!

I never expected to feel so happy with someone like Haeun, she was so sweet and loving with me that I felt as if I had met the love of my life. Although Haeun didn't want us to be public, I understood and didn't think much of it because maybe she didn't feel prepared to let everybody know about our relationship but there was something that made me feel strange, the fact that Haeun would ignore my existence whenever we were at school. I didn't expect her to act as a couple if we weren't public but I didn't expect her to ignore me either.

The other day at school I heard some girls talking about Haeun being in a relationship, with someone that wasn't me. I decided to ignore them because after all they were just rumors and because they didn't know about me and her, right?

But to be honest, those words wouldn't go out of my mind to the point I'd start to overanalyze every single thing Haeun said or did. Was I toxic for that? I wished I wasn't, but sadly I felt as if I couldn't fully trust Haeun after hearing those rumors, I felt somewhat influenced by them. I thought that I should talk to her about it and clear every thought or wrong idea, we shouldn't hide anything from us.

Sitting on the couch beside Haeun I was using my phone, and thought of that moment as the perfect one to ask her about the rumors that I had heard some weeks ago "Haeun?" "Mhm" I called her but she didn't look up from her phone, I didn't want to look toxic so I just continued with what I wanted to say "You know, some weeks ago I heard a rumor... About you dating someone else, that wasn't me..." I said and instantly felt Haeun snapping her head up to look at me, I could feel her tense too. I saw that she started to look around, avoiding my eyes "Where did you hear that?" Haeun asked, slightly nervous if you asked me "I heard it while I was walking down the school hallways, I don't remember who said that but I just remember that someone said it. I'm hoping that isn't true" I said and Haeun played with her hoodie's sleeves, she sighed and looked at me. She held my hands and looked at me "Well, that isn't true... I couldn't date anyone else but you, Hee" Haeun reached her hand up to my cheek and kissed me softly, making me forget about what we were talking about as she pulled me in for not one or two but many kisses. Back then, I believed Haeun's words because I trusted her.

Two weeks after our little conversation about those rumors, I started to think about them even more frequently; due to Haeun's actions. Suddenly we stopped hanging out so much as Haeun said she had homework or she had set up meetings with her friends, strange. Or when Haeun wouldn't answer to my calling while she's on the phone, texting a "friend", who apparently makes her smile a lot. I started to get suspicious by her actions, were the rumors true? Because if they were, that'd explain the reason why she didn't want us to go public. I noticed the distancing between me and Haeun since then, she wouldn't text me more than a good morning text or a I'm busy text if I asked her to go out or just call her. I couldn't even see Haeun as we could never "match" with our schedules, I wouldn't even see her at school anymore even if when I saw her she wouldn't even look at me because at school as if never existed for her.

"Hey Haeun, wanna go out to grab something after school?" 16:08

"Hello, no I'm busy" 16:49

"oh okay, we'll go out another day :)" 16:52 ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤseen

That's how our conversations would go, we wouldn't call each other from stupid cheesy nicknames but our names. Haeun wasn't texting me anymore either but when she replied she took some time to answer and wouldn't even try to keep the conversation going. I was confused and annoyed at her, even angry. Angry because Haeun wouldn't text me and she wouldn't even talk to me, I started to doubt if we were still together. I felt as if my trust in her had disappeared completely because Haeun didn't even care if I told her something, I'd be welcomed with a seen if I decided to text her and I was sick and tired of it. I was wondering if she still loved me.

Yesterday I saw Haeun in the school hallways with Yeonhan, he was our senior and they were walking together. I saw Haeun with her arm locked with his and when she saw me, she only smiled and I swore I would curse her in her face for that. Didn't I exist to Haeun for her to ignore me like that? I thought we were together... I guess we weren't. That told me the probably reason why she would act as if we didn't know each other in public.

I received a text from one of the girls of my class, I didn't know her but she texted me to talk about Haeun and that might be the reason why I didn't question or care much about their identity. The girl knew about me and Haeun, and that Haeun was with someone else. She told me that Haeun was dating this boy named Yeonhan and that she didn't want to be public because of him and because Yeonhan didn't know that I was with Haeun. I was angry and disappointed, how could this happen? I never saw Haeun as this type of girl, if I knew about this I wouldn't have dated her. Why did I put my eye on someone like her? Did this mean that she never felt anything for me?

Knocking on her apartment's door I waited for Haeun to appear, because I wanted an explanation from her. I waited and when the door opened I could only see Yeonhan in front of me, hilarious because she was "busy", apparently he was the one who kept her busy for me not to come over when I asked her if I could do so.

"Uh Heeseung?" He asked, weirded out by my presence "Who is it Yeon?" I heard a female voice ask before going beside Yeonhan and looking in front of her, it was Haeun the owner of the voice; of course "So Yeon huh?" I asked, chuckling dryly "What are you doing here Heeseung?" Haeun asked, sounding slightly annoyed, her tone sounding amusing to me "Why are you asking? I'm your boyfriend, you shouldn't ask me that" I said, knowing well of the presence of Yeonhan beside her "Your boyfriend, Haeun? What is he talking about? I'm your boyfriend" Yeonhan said, looking at Haeun. I was enjoying this deep inside, knowing that Yeonhan didn't know about me was funny because Haeun never told him. "L-let me explain" she panicked and I laughed, making the couple in front of me look at me "Let me explain, Haeun" I said and Haeun swallowed hard "Yeonhan... I think you didn't know but I was in a relationship with Haeun until... Five minutes ago? I don't know because if I knew she was with you, I wouldn't have ever dated her" "Oh is that it, Haeun?" Yeonhan asked Haeun, and she looked away. I was loving this so much, even if it sounded evil, she deserved this "I think I should leave you two to talk about this, after all I'm not your boyfriend anymore Haeun, right?" I asked, and took a peek at her face. I tattooed her expression deep in my mind. I looked up and sighed, I turned around to walk away. "Does this explain why you didn't want us to be public and why you ignored me at school?!" I shouted as I walked away, smirking as I saw her and Yeonhan still standing in her door. On my way back home I thought about all of this situation, was this our final break up? Because I felt as if we had broken up a long while ago.

"Heeseung, can we talk? Please"

"Oh now is when you text me? After you had fucked everything up?"

"I know but I'm sorry, please let's meet to talk this out"

"Talk about what? Just go on and tell them, all of your friends and Yeonhan, that I never existed, as you did before when we were "together"

Maybe that could help you look less worse than you are right now if someone knew about what you did with me and Yeonhan"

"I'm so sorry Hee"

"You shouldn't be calling me that and you know it, Haeun"

"I know, I'm sorry"

"I don't care if you're sorry or not, what's done is done. I hope I never see you again"

I laughed at the way Haeun was looking for my forgiveness after what she had done, she could have at least used a quarter of her brain before and could've told me about this and be sorry. But right now? It's useless. The word "us" with her is useless, because there wasn't an us between me and her not when there was someone else already.

‽゜・。。

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try again | sjy

p: idol!Jake x non idol!fem reader g: angst & fluff

warnings! slight cursing, doubting about themselves..

note: this post is dedicated to @bellaloveschae (aka my lifeline) and has a fragment of the song "Bulls in the Bronx" by Pierce The Veil 🫶🏻

Being known only because I was Jake's "something" wasn't pleasant for me. I had met Jake two months ago and since then he told me how he was interested on me but that he didn't want to be anything serious yet, I thought about that as something childish but agreed into staying in the middle of friends and a couple, some would call it friends with benefits but we weren't something like that and it felt worse for me.

Walking through the school hallways before going to class I could hear Jake and some friends talking, they were just joking around until I heard a female voice; soo-jin's voice, she was one of my classmates. I decided to stay silent, trying to catch something they might say.

"And Jake... Are you dating someone?" Soo-jin asked, I already knew it was her, the sound of her voice was one that I had gotten used to.

"Nah..." I could hear him say and chuckle after.

"What do you mean bro?! Everyone knows that you're in something with ___!" One of his friends butted in the conversation.

"Oh are you...?" Soo-jin asked again.

"Yeah... Kind of" Jake answered, but he didn't sound really sure about it

"Nah Jake you'll break that girl's heart for sure! Decide if you want to be something or not dude!"

His friend was right, his words had hurt my heart just a little bit...

"It's hard, but I'll see what I'm gonna do okay!" Jake said and I felt as if I was some kind of thing that he had to deal with. It wasn't supposed to be like that, was it?

I didn't feel really well after hearing Jake talking about me with his friends, it hurt me because I thought that he would take what we had as something more serious. I was confused too, if he wasn't sure of what he wanted why'd he start something?

A week after hearing that conversation I started to distance a bit from Jake and everything that involved him, making him wonder if he had done something wrong. Walking back to my classroom after going to the toilet I heard my name being called from behind me, I turned around and saw Jake looking at me from afar.

"___!" Jake shouted and I started to feel nervous when he began to approach me, there wasn't anyone around us as it was class time; which made me feel more under pressure. "Is something on? You've been acting weird this last week..." He said and I looked away denying with my head softly "No, everything's alright" I lied. I noticed the way Jake frowned and reached his hand to hold my arm, I felt his gaze analyzing every part of my face "Are you sure?" He asked again, in a lower tone "Yeah" I said, looking away. I heard Jake sigh "If everything's alright look at me into my eyes and tell me that again" he said and I cursed myself mentally because I knew he'd do this. I didn't want to face him so I finally gave up, looking away trying to find the right words "You know Jake... I don't think that we should continue this "something" thing" I said and avoided his eyes, I heard Jake gasp slightly "What? Why? So suddenly?" He bombarded me with questions "Yeah... I don't think we should do this if you're not fully sure of your feelings..." I said and remembered the fact that I had to go back to my classroom "But ___, you-" "It isn't that hard to understand Jake, I don't want to continue this, the end" I said and walked away before entering my classroom without looking back or waiting for an answer from Jake; because I didn't want to hear anything from him, either good or bad.

After my conversation, and ending of my "relationship", with Jake, I wouldn't see him around much; or at least I'd try not to. I didn't want to face him because I had grown to not wanting to face my own problems, Jake being one of them now because of our last words. I didn't know if I wanted, or needed, to talk with him about this but it seemed as if he did want to talk about it because I'd avoid him, but he'd appear again everywhere.

"please.. don't take this out of me..."

" 'cause you're the only thing-" ding

On my way back home from school I was listening to music, quietly singing some parts of the songs that would play until I received a notification. I took out my phone and saw that Jake had texted me wanting to meet so we could "talk". Ignoring his text, I put my phone inside my school's blazer pocket and continued my way back home while looking around and humming to the songs from time to time, I wasn't in the mood to talk with Jake because I knew that he'd ruin it, somehow... Or at least that's what I wanted to believe..

"Ah I'm finally here" I mumbled as I entered my apartment, taking off my shoes before completely entering. I looked around trying to find my dog Simba, I smiled as I saw him getting down from my couch and over to me, jumping and moving around my feet. I smiled as I picked him up, laughing as he licked my face. Suddenly a knock on my door could be heard, putting Simba down I walked to the door. Opening the door I saw him, Jake. I wanted to bury myself a hundred meters underground by seeing him standing in front of me.

"Hey, ___" Jake said in an awkward tone, of course he'd feel awkward. I felt awkward too.

"Hey, Jake. What are you doing here?" I asked, looking away from him as I had gotten used to do ever since I met him and his piercing gaze.

"You know why I'm here, ___" He said, going straight to the point, fuck.

"Why did you end everything like that the other day?" Jake didn't let me answer when he talked again, I swallowed hard and I tried to bring the words out of my head.

"Because, as I said, if you weren't sure if you liked me or wanted to be with me then you shouldn't have started this "something" thing, you know?" I said, looking at his chest as I didn't feel confident enough to look into his eyes. I heard him sigh again, bringing his hand to move his hair out of his face.

"___, you know... It wasn't that I didn't know if I liked you or not, because I do but I doubted if I was enough for you..." He admitted in a low tone, catching me off guard "You know that I've got that stupid little fame of being a player, I didn't want you to see me like that or think of me like that... I wanted to experience something with you but I didn't feel good enough to be with you... I feel as if I didn't deserve you, because I don't.." I couldn't believe Jake's words, was this some kind of joke? "What are you talking about, Jake?" I asked, clearly not fully believing his words "I'm being honest, ___. I feel that I don't deserve to be with someone like you..." He said "Jake I like you and well, maybe what people say can affect you or me but if you're saying that you didn't want me to see you the way everyone sees you, then the only thing I can say is that we can try it.... Try to be together, I trust you" I said and felt Jake hugging me "Thank you, ___" he said and I hugged him back "I'm really grateful for this... I won't give you up, I'll show you that I can be better than what people says, I-" "Jake, I don't care what people might say or think about you. I want you to be yourself with me. We'll trust each other, okay?" I said and held his face in my hands, finally looking into his eyes for the first time in days. Jake nodded and I smiled, I felt him grab my waist gently as he looked at me unsurely. I chuckled and nodded as he finally rested his hand on my waist "Are you okay with this?" He asked, referring to his hand around me and I nodded. "And about this..?" Jake asked and before I could say anything the only thing I could feel were his lips on mine. Moving my hands away from his face but resting them on his jaw, the kiss went by. It wasn't rushed but slow and calm, Jake brought me closer to him as we continued kissing. We finally separated and I could see a smile on his lips as he looked at me making me chuckle softly "I'm okay with that" I said and Jake looked at me questioningly "What?" "You asked me if I was okay with you kissing me, I am okay with it" I said and heard him laugh and I swore I could melt by the sound of his laugh, smiling I pulled away from him and took his hand. "Do you have anything to do?" "Apart from a big pile of homework... No, why?" Jake smiled and I laughed at his words and lazy attitude "We can watch something here and maybe order food too?" I asked as I smiled, I saw Jake smile too as he nodded towards me "Okay... Let's do that~" he said and I chuckled, pulling him inside my apartment so we could start our movies afternoon.

In the end, it was good to talk everything out with Jake and I'm glad that he reached out to me first, because knowing myself I wouldn't have dared to even approach him in the beginning.

🎧゜・。。

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new jeans ($15,03) | sim jaeyun

p: non idol! jake x fem!reader g: strangers to lovers (couldn't expand it)

warnings! Slight cursing, reader is called Eunji, super short!!

note: last part from the nwjns series! you'll find the mlist here, enjoy!

Walking around the recently opened mall I spotted an interesting shop, wanting to see what they had on display I walked closer. Taking a look at the different clothes they sold, my eyes spotted a pair of jeans. The piece of clothing seemed made for me, I was already imagining myself styling it and the model was perfect- "oh- I'm sorry, I wasn't watching where I was walking" a manly voice said beside me. Looking up I saw a young boy, around my age, looking down at me. Soon snapping back to reality I noticed how the boy was still looking at me, waiting for an answer "Oh it's okay, don't worry" I said and the boy vowed slightly. I brushed off any thoughts and entered the shop, I walked around it, soon spotting the pair of jeans I had seen before coming inside the shop. I smiled to myself as I brought my hand to grab the hanger, but instead, I felt a hand over mine; looking beside me I saw the same boy who had bumped into me some minutes ago "You again?" I said, chuckling softly. I saw the boy blushing before moving his hand away from mine, I heard him clear his throat before chuckling softly too "haha... Yeah" he said, still a bit awkward. I smiled and then looked at the pair of jeans, which would have caught the attention of both me and the boy. "Were you thinking of getting them?" I asked, taking out the piece of clothing from the hanger. The boy nodded and I smiled "We can ask for it on the counter" I said and the boy nodded, looking away, cute. Wait what?

We walked to the counter and I handed the pair of jeans to the woman behind it "How much is it?" I asked, giving her a kind smile. The woman typed in her computer's keyboard and scanned the jeans' barcode "It's $15,03" the woman said and I nodded smiling "But... There's only one of this left in stock, the restock will be around a month or two" the cashier said and my smile quickly dropped, I turned to look at the boy beside me "Uh.. you can have it" I said and extended the piece of clothing in his direction, the boy shook his head and smiled. He pushed my hands to my chest, with the jeans too "No, it's okay. It's going to be better if you keep it" I thought for a second and then I shook my head again in refusal "No, I can look at another shop. Keep it" I said and pushed the jeans to his chest again, he sighed "Okay, I'll keep them only if you give me your number" I saw him show a playful smirk towards me, feeling my cheeks reddening I nodded "alright, you can have it" I said while avoiding eye contact.

"So... Eunji?" He asked while smiling at me, I nodded as I looked to to the recently contact added in my phone. "You're Jake?" I asked as I finally looked up from my phone, I saw the boy in front of me nod with a smile. Jake moved closer and kissed my cheek in a swift movement, I couldn't stop the blush to creep up my cheeks as he did so "Maybe I can lend you the jeans from time to time if I may have a date with you?" He asked while keeping the eye contact, I chuckled and looked away "More? You want my number and a date to keep those jeans?" I didn't know where did that confidence come from but it did, I heard Jake chuckle "Maybe I wouldn't be asking you so much if you weren't so pretty... Or so interesting.." he said and I choked on my own saliva after he had come closer and tugged a strand of hair behind my ear. Why was he so smooth with every action? "Sure" I said, I couldn't say anything else due to the effect his actions had on me. How could a complete stranger have such strong effect on me?

"Then it's done, I'll text you when and where we're meeting. Until then, see you, Eunji" Jake waved before walking away, this was a completely new experience to me but I'll make sure of making it count.

👖゜・。。

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leave b4 u love me! | 선우

p: non idol!Sunoo x non idol!gn reader g: angst, best friends to strangers

warnings! unrequited love, Jungwon is mentioned

a/n: listen to leave before you love me by Jonas brothers y'all

"Come on Sunoo! We'll be late!" I shouted from the front door of Sunoo's house "Okay okay!" He shouted back before walking rapidly my way "You take so long to get ready" I mumbled as we walked out from his place and walked down the streets to visit a new café nearby, which I wanted to go since it opened "Don't say that! You take your time too!" Sunoo said as he checked his hair in a little mirror he had brought before going out "Anyways, aren't you excited to see the new café? I heard that it has really good food and furniture!" I said as we walked together "I have to see it to believe it.." he said and I rolled my eyes "Yeah wait until we arrive and you'll believe it"

"I'd like to have a cinnamon roll with a latte, please" Sunoo told the waiter as she wrote down our orders, after she had left I turned to Sunoo smiling "The place is really nice, right? and there aren't many people today, gladly" I said as I looked around before looking at him again, I chuckled when Sunoo suddenly rolled his eyes at my remark on the good decoration of the place "I guess it's good" he said and I hit his shoulder playfully "Admit that you like it c'mon!" "It's well decorated but I don't love it" he said and it was my turn to roll my eyes "Think what you want to think, I do love this place". After a while of talking our orders arrived and we started to eat, the food was really good too and I got Sunoo to admit that.

"It wasn't that bad in the end" Sunoo said as we walked back home "See?! It was a really good and cozy café! The food was amazing too!" I said happily, remembering the quality of the food "Why do you like it so much? It's just a café..." I heard him say and I shook my head "You wouldn't understand.." I said smiling to the front while we walked and I could hear Sunoo scoff at my words.

I went out from my classroom and walked to my locker to put my books back inside before going home, today was a busy day. Walking to the school entrance I felt someone holding my arm, turning around I saw Sunoo smiling down at me "Hey Sun" I said as I stopped walking and turned all my attention to him "Hey, wanna go to the café we went last time?" I was stunned by his question, I thought he didn't like the café that much to invite me again "Really? If you say so, then yes!" I chuckled and grabbed his hand before pulling him forward to walk out from school but I felt him tense by this and so I let go of his hand when I felt him holding my hand again "I'm okay with that, you just caught me off guard" Sunoo said and I chuckled "I thought you didn't like it".

One week after I was studying in the library when suddenly Sunoo entered and sat next to me, weird because he wouldn't step a meter close to this place "Hey ___" he greeted me and I looked at him weirded out "What are you doing here? You don't study here? Do you even study?" I bombarded him with questions because it was really weird to see him here and with school books "Oh my- I can't even step in this place that you'll make all for those questions, just let me be.." I heard him say as he put all his books and opened his notebooks, to study, apparently. "If you say so, I'll let you be... maybe you'll pass the upcoming exams.." Sunoo gasped "Stop right there, ___" he said and I laughed, focusing on my own books shortly after.

"Do you like someone?" Sunoo asked me as we sat on my bed, our study session long forgotten as he had gotten bored and wanted to go to my place instead "Not really, I'm not looking for being in a relationship right now... how about you? Is there someone you like?" I asked, nudging Sunoo's shoulder playfully "Maybe... but I'm not sure if they'd like me back, I heard that they didn't like anyone" he said nervously, I smiled at him and patted his shoulder "Don't worry! try to make a move and make them fall in love" I said, chuckling softly as I tried to encourage him to get closer to his crush "Yeah I should try that..." he mumbled softly before turning to use his phone again.

Some days passed after our conversation about who we liked and I was noticing a change in Sunoo's behavior, and I was scared. I was starting to think he liked me, for the way he acted and treated me, which was different to the way he treated me some weeks ago before our conversation. I was scared because if he did like me, I wasn't going to be able to reciprocate those feelings, I only saw Sunoo as my best friend and even as my brother... I didn't see him differently and I didn't want to change my way of seeing him, but I didn't want to end what we had because of his feelings.. Was it my fault to not like him back? Even if I wasn't sure if he did like me, it seemed like it. Should I ask him if he likes me? I'm so confused right now...

"So what are you planning to do today, ___?" Silence... "___?" .... "Uhm earth to ___!" And I came back to reality "O-oh... sorry, what did you say?" I asked Sunoo, I was deep in thought thinking about what I decided to do today, I didn't want to give Sunoo fake hopes to be with me... because there weren't any possibilities for him to be with me, because he did like me. Last Tuesday I was sat next to Jungwon and I couldn't keep it in and just asked him about it, and he said that Sunoo did like me. "I was asking you if you had something planned to do today.." Sunoo said and I shook my head, looking at him, maybe this was the moment to tell him "No no, I don't have anything planned" I said and I saw him smile at me "Perfect then, let's go to the café you like" "Okay~!" I said and we started to walk to the café, I was scared to reach there and have to tell him everything... I didn't want to end everything just yet.

"You look pretty today, ___" why did he have to do this? "Thank you" I said softly, looking down at my cup of coffee, avoiding his gaze. "___, you know, lately I've been feeling different and I've started to feel something new with you. I started to see you as something more than my best friend, and I realized that I wanted you to-" "don't. Please... don't continue that sentence" I said, still looking down because I wouldn't dare to look into his eyes without crying "What?" "I can't... I can't reciprocate your feelings Sun..." Sunoo sighed softly, moving awkwardly in his seat "___ it's okay-" "No it's not, I didn't want you to give you false hopes.. I'm sorry, I'll leave" I couldn't stand being there for a minute longer, I was breaking inside. "What? No no! We can talk this out.." Sunoo held my arm, not letting me go just yet "Sunoo, it's the best if I leave before you love me" I said softly, looking at his hand holding my arm slowly letting it go "It's way too late for that, ___" "But you know I can't love you back, Sun" "Why?" "Because you're my best friend, my brother, I can't see you differently and I didn't want anything else but a relationship like that Sun, friends" I said and turned my head to the front before walking away, he didn't stop me this time... I guess Sunoo did let me go this time.

🌛゜・。。

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bad idea, right? | 제이크

p: ex!Jake x gn!reader g: bad boy Jake x "good" girl/boy reader

warnings! cursing, toxic relationship and behavior, reader has a sister, mentions of alcohol and getting drunk, reader can't move on and can't see the truth about everything that had happened.

note: this is inspired by the song "bad idea, right?" By Olivia Rodrigo! enjoyy

"He totally ruined you ___! How can you think you still have feelings for him?!" My friend Eun-seok shouted at me "I'm not sure! But I think I still have feelings... it's okay, they'll go away" I said, and I couldn't even believe my own words that I already knew Eun-seok and the rest of my friends were glaring at me "Okay, do whatever you want ___, I just don't want you to get all messed up again... he's not a good person for you" I nodded at her words, she was right but something was bringing me back to him, Jake.

Me and Jake were in a relationship some months ago, but he cheated on me with one of his "friends". I couldn't get over him yet, yes I know he cheated on me but maybe there's still a little possibility of him and me coming back together again? Maybe...

While I was hanging out with my friends at one of their houses, I received a text and it was Jake.

"See me tonight?" 19:23pm

I swear that my heart skipped a beat by seeing his name popping out, and my eyes almost popped out too when I realized that he wanted to meet again. I was with all my friends but they weren't paying attention at what I was doing, should I say yes? Is it a bad idea? They don't have to know where I'm going... fuck it it's fine.

"Yeah, where?" 19:32pm

"Ugh my sister has a problem at home... I have to go check on her" I groaned, trying to build up a lie to my friends so they didn't know where I was going... because if they knew I was meeting Jake, they'd kill me right away, and I don't even know why I'm meeting him anyways. "Really? Uh can't your parents go and do something for her?" "Nah you stupid, they're abroad!" I said and my friends laughed, after a while I finally went out and was on my way to meet Jake... it's a bad idea, right?

I didn't know how but suddenly it was 8am in the morning and I was in his house and more specifically in his sheets, yeah Jake's sheets. When did I end in his bed? Why was I even sleeping next to him? Fuck.

"___ not this again..."

"oh yeah that's totally your sister!"

"thank you for being honest!"

"I can't believe it..."

The room had some beer cans scattered around and I could already get the idea of what had happened last night, and why my friend's group chat was full of texts of them cursing at me... and it was because I had accidentally sent a picture of me and Jake in his bed last night, the best thing is that I can't even remember when I did that! I'm all fucked up right now, really fucked up.

Trying to not wake Jake up, I got up from his bed and walked to the bathroom. I felt disgusted with my own reflection but tried to freshen up a bit before having to face the reality... once again.

"___? Are you in the bathroom?" Fuck "Uh yeah" I mumbled, cursing myself at the way I sounded so dumb "Oh okay, can we talk after you get out?" Fuck, fuck, fuck... why would he want to talk? "Sure" I said, I was going to run away at any moment.

"I'm sorry for what I did, can I have a second chance?" "I'll need some time to think about that.." "it's okay, take your time and tell me" Jake wanted a second chance and he regretted what he did... I knew he wasn't such a bad person after all, but I did need time to think about everything and to let my friends curse at me for meeting him last night.

"Why did you meet him again ___?"

"You know that he's your ex!"

"He asked me to meet up! And hell yeah! I know that he's my ex but I only see him as a friend!" That was the biggest lie I've ever said because I was rethinking the idea of getting back together with him. My friends weren't sure about my answer and I wasn't sure either, but what was I supposed to do? "Hey ___... I don't know if you'll like this but check Jake's stories.." quickly grabbing my phone I checked his profile and saw the exact thing I didn't want to see, or to admit that would happen, because it was a picture of him with another girl... and they weren't exactly acting like friends in that picture because they were kissing, should I feel sad about this? Even after our break up and multiple toxic moments by Jake? My brain was going crazy, too much was going on and I didn't even know what I wanted to believe.

"___ you should stop!" And once again I was with all my friends, all of them shouting at me because I saw Jake... again "I know I should stop... but I can't!" I said because, truly, I didn't know what was making me go back to him after everything he had done to me "You always say that and can't go a week without saying "I met Jake again..." I swear you're only going back to him and without a proper reason why!" Eun-seok said "This is not good for you and your mental health, ___" another friend said, already feeling ashamed of me and the way I couldn't move on "It's okay, I'll try to move on. I've seen much hotter men after seeing him so it's okay" "___!" My friend Haerin shouted at me "What now?!" "How can you think about seeing more people when you can't even move on from your toxic ex?!" She shouted at me, and I didn't know the reason why. "Just let me be okay? I'll see what I'll do with this!"

"You're a lost case, ___." and it was true because I was stuck with him, knowing it was ruining me.

I wanted to open my eyes but I couldn't, I couldn't run away from him because I'd always go back to him and his toxic but oh so addicting personality and beautiful face, even if the real person behind those looks wasn't good for me.

💭゜・。。

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bro idk what's going on but my posts haven't been receiving that much support this last week like tf 😭

btw I'll post in some days, bc i have an already written post so I'll see when it's best to post it