“Survivor’s guilt” fill for the Bad Things Happen Bingo, Flynn&Noah (yeah, I’m serious), set in this verse.
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Turning on the news was probably a mistake.
(Then again, his judgement hasn’t been too sound lately, has it?)
It isn’t at all surprising that they’d try to pin their deaths on him, but it had somehow not really occurred to him before now. Maybe because his head is a total mess.
Seeing Iris and Lorena’s smiling faces, frozen in a stolen picture that used to sit on the fireplace in their home, is a punch in the gut. Reading the headlines and hearing the reporters explain how he had some kind of fit and murdered them both makes him want to throw up.
He doesn’t have the good sense to turn off the TV, and he listens until he has to push himself on his feet, dragging himself to the bathroom – and trashing half the furniture in the process – so that he doesn’t throw up on the floor what little food is in his stomach.
He doesn’t bother changing his shirt or brushing his teeth afterwards, and he only goes back to the couch, retrieving his ever-present kitchen knife – that had ended up stuck between the cushions in his rush to get up – and Lucy’s journal.
This is his third read already, but his attention span is what it is these days, and he’s pretty sure he doesn’t yet have a complete grasp on all that insanity.
(They could be lies. They could be meant to be a distraction to make him go insane, or get him killed while trying to execute some desperate plan.)
(If it might get him his family back, it’s always a risk worth taking.)
(What good does his survival do anyway, if he doesn’t at least take down the bastards?)
Noah knows to knock two and then three times before letting himself in. Garcia might just throw the kitchen knife at him if he ever forgot.
With his story apparently all over the news, Garcia doesn’t really expect him to come anymore.
(At most, he expects a bunch of cops to show up, and he doesn’t know what he’d do then. It would be ridiculously easy to get himself shot, with a kitchen knife at hand and the murder of his family on his shoulders.)
Surprisingly enough, there’s two knocks, followed by three, and Noah lets himself in like there’s nothing out of the ordinary.
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