Feeling motivated and stuck
at the same time. as I progress through the grieving process, i become more and more glad that shifting is real. and I am able to cope with the horribly difficult challenges im facing by knowing that at the end of the day, all of this is just a learning experience, and soon I will shift to a reality where i no longer have to deal with this.
I cry and I mourn and I yearn for the warmth of my lover. but in the back of my mind, I know that it will pass and I will hold her again. the concept of shifting has become almost instinctual.
to me, this is a good sign, and yet, I cannot shake the impatience. if I can be with her again, why not now? and it becomes frustrating to think about.
but then, I think, I can be with her now. i'm able to do that. I have all the knowledge i need to shift. so why haven't I? and I dont have an answer for that.
I truly feel like i am so close to where I want to be. but I need to finalize it. how in the world do I do that?