HIS WORDS HIT HER LIKE DAGGERS THROWN HIGH–SPEED, BUT THEY WEREN’T UNDESERVED. going into whatever she and noam had originally agreed to, that was supposed to be the be all end all for them; nothing more, nothing less. though, unfortunately for saraya, noam felt otherwise. he felt for her and that was the biggest mistake he could’ve ever made. her track record was less than stellar with men and women and she never intended to hurt the slightly younger male ( hence their arrangement ) but that’s exactly what she did in the process. denial hit her hard at that point, forcing her to believe there was no sort of underlying emotion toward him aside from lust–—–an enormous lie. they parted, she knew he still felt the same and she still tried not to. after so long, it was clear the heart wanted what the heart wanted.
“ i know you have... ” deep chocolate orbs focused themselves on the ground beneath vans clad feet, desperate to avoid any and all eye contact. that was another one of her fatal flaws; even when she wanted to admit she was wrong, admit that she felt for someone, her body language told otherwise or clammed up with paralyzing fear. “ i’ve been trying t’ figure out what th’ bloody hell i’m goin’ on about these days. i thought tha’ not bein’ wif you or not bein’ wif what you expected outta this would solve everyfin’ and i was wrong. it turns out t’ be impossible t’ run from what you want wifout bein’ miserable–—–no matter how much you wanna deny you even want it. ”