deep down I know I am a nihilist deep down i know I am an anarchist
I know that there is a part of me that wishes to worship chaos I know that every part of me seeks nothing but balance
zen
kaos
balance
I am dirt living breathing beautiful dirt meant for seeds to be planted built, constructed, by/for nature,
a
carbon robot programmed to think compute act I have too many contradicting components, my mind begs me to make the wrong decisions when my calculating components cannot find a distinctive outcome to any and all situation.
I know that the earth is a single cell. i know that we are insignificant. and I know that we are everything I know that my mind alone holds everything all of the secrets and all that exists within everything. I know that every human being holds everything their own beautiful and distinctive everything and I know that I am a human and I know the the earth is only a single cell I know it like a nun knows god
because I know people who have spoken to god and I believe them yet I know that god does not exist which is so, so beautiful.