Last day of work
Yesterday was my last day at a toxic company.
How do I feel about it? Well, relieved and sad. Because there is 1 colleague that believes what I do. But the company just so screwed up and messed up. Illegal work, lies, inexperience, shady, scary, pride.
Yet, all I can do is walk away and never look back. I felt so crushed, exhausted. I even rejected a job offer.
You must be thinking, what is she thinking? You are right. What am I thinking? I was afraid. I don't want to jump job anymore. I lost my first job because of this horrible covid situation. Then went for my second job due to peer pressure and family pressure. It is never about what I like but it is always about what others think is best for me, that moment. Then this toxic job is because my second job were mundane and no career growth or purpose. But this toxic job, is so toxic that I left during my probation. How crazy it is right?
Because of the first job landed into one thing and another. Yet, I am never rested. I felt so dead, so numb, so much fear. But who knows what I am going through? Only God knows what I felt inside while a few knows what I go through.