Hello, old me.
One day in 2025, I suddenly remembered I had a Tumblr as a teenager.
I wondered what I had done with it : had I deleted it, or had I been merciful - or unconscious - and left it to rot ? I remembered that it had met with some potential attraction at the time. At the time. But what time are we talking about ? The chronological framework of his activity escaped me. Nevertheless, I thought I knew the Me of the Past well enough to guess that, thanks of her petty hubris from the audience she'd met during that lapse of time, she certainly hadn't suppressed it. So, on what was still a whim, I let my memory retrieve the login of the account, and then the magic began.
The first thing I did was to take oneself in the mouth Tumblr's new interface and direction. Once I had regained my bearings, I came up against this Me of the Past from August 2014 to June 2018.
I realized that my tastes hadn't necessarily changed; on the contrary, they had asserted themselves and, above all, become more refined. This Me from the Past, who thought she was unique in the gothic/alternative world, with black and white, edgy, dark bills, with atypical yet basic references that all the dumbass in the movement knew and liked so much. I saw her again, years later, discovering this fashion and aesthetic. My tastes were still the same by essence, but they took the path of the refinement and elegance, of the glamour and the beauty, of the humility with just the right amount of pride which makes her truly unique today. The young girl had become a woman, which wasn't easy because I was a real tomboy who only knew graphic t-shirts and skinny jeans. No skirt, no dress, no heels - today, most of my wardrobe is made up of dresses and heels.
And then I realized how far I'd come since abandoning this Tumblr blog, a reflection of this Me of the Past's personality, and at the same time I couldn't help but reminisce nostalgically about this same Tumblr, where I reposted black and white images exclusively because I was too dark, you know.
What I use to post/repost between 2014 and 2018.
I like both remembering the carefree existence of that period, and seeing how I've evolved since then. And I like what I've become, which is a good start. I'm not ashamed of who I was before, but I've become a better version of myself, and I intend to keep it that way. I'm now 26 years old, and got this Tumblr when I was 14 to 18. Now, I don't know what I should do with it : Continue it until the next abandonment ? Let's try to breathe new life into it. I don't know what direction to take it in, but if it takes off, so much the better, otherwise it will surely return to the nothingness from whence it came.
And you, have you found your You from the Past on Tumblr ? Did you leave it only to find it again years later, or have you placed yourself in its continuity without ever abandoning it ? Let's see if others like me will eat violently this dose of nostalgia.
