Apr 15
that feeling when you're searching for sourcemates and you find one. same bodily age, looking for for the same things you are, etc. but they're anti endo. so i have to sigh and go home.
#sua fictive#alnst fictive#she's mizi too#the only other person i found who fit had mizi low in their kinlist and was deactivated#like#i find a mizi fictkin and she seems awesome#but she's anti non traumagenic systems#and im just sitting here#like im sorry#you can hate me all you want#i deserve to be hated for what i did to you#i don't know how you still love me#i was so selfish#i shouldn't have died like that. i shouldn't have left you behind#but i just#i don't understand why being endo is the problem here#vent ish