#subthoughts

[shakerz-ur-breakerz]

🌅 Good morning Ibiza!

After a night of deep rest, there’s nothing like a sunrise with these two pups 🐾 to bring things back to what matters.

We welcome the first light with open arms and wagging tails,

feeling all the love and unity this journey is about.

One sunrise, One love

Carry that PLUR energy into the day! ✌🏻🧡🙏🏻🦁🫡

[shakerz-ur-breakerz]

[kookiemonster221]

So here’s the thing… I’ve met someone?

And he’s mentoring me right now, and he’s being so kind and patient with me. Its a lot to get into.

Im exploring a part of myself I never thought id ever do. I thought id just be on this site and never really meet anyone.

He’s a little pushy in the right way, and I am a little anxious and apprehensive. Am I really ready to start thus journey for myself? Idk.

Either way, hopefully it will be okay and I don’t get hurt again.

If I get hurt here it will break me in ways that im not even ready for yet. So I need to be careful.

The age difference is also significant. Its almost 20 years. At least he’s far away and in another country it makes me feel a little safer. But he eases up on me a lot and he’s very patient and talks a lot and helps me see into his mind.

Thats what I love about it though?

He’s not just learning about me; he’s learning my mind and how I think and how I react to things.

I did my first session last night and it was kind of incredible.

He says its refreshing how eager i am and how willing i am to try. So. I just hope things stay okay. I don’t want to get hurt. I should take care of some things first. I have another long day tomorrow.

Oh I also felt really sick earlier??? It wasn’t from not eating. In fact I felt and still feel no hunger. Wonder if I’ve just been so wound up that finally letting go completely in one session alone just kind of messed things up a little bit. Hopefully.

[roseblossom19]

Im not supposed to be posting but i just discovered sensory deprivation and i want it. I need headphones and a good blindfold now 😅🥺