#sugarcubethoughts

[optimisticforfun]

Wrapped around your finger with my hand around throat. All I want is you in the room with me with no where else to go but stay here and have fun.

[optimisticforfun]

I’ve been having the same daydream over and over lately, it’s a thought that I had a few month ago and I suppose I’m just playing it out again. 

[optimisticforfun]

The only person I have any desire to change is myself for myself and that's it.

[optimisticforfun]

I feel like sleeping for an entire week. My body is exhausted, my mind is exhausted and I could just use a long "nap".

[optimisticforfun]

A circle of friends will either elevate you or hold you back. Losers breed losers and as much as I don't like saying it, I feel like I'm the one being dragged down but because we have history I'm suppose to just be alright with it? Scan my "friends are dumbasses" card and let that be that? I don't think that makes much sense at all. It's not like I have a surplus of time on my hands, there is an limit that I'll never know how close I am to reaching. I don't want to be left in the dust just because we've always been a "crew". Now, I want to go back to where I want to be and will be met with protest because "we're friends!". I have friends that do infact elevate me and have their support which makes it that much easier to see who is who.

[optimisticforfun]

There will be a day where there isn't a pressure on my shoulders making me feel trapped. I know the root of the problem but of course it's easier to on paper. I need to work on it. Haha

[optimisticforfun]

It's a silent addiction that I have no intentions of getting help for, I will quietly indulge myself and think of its reality.

[optimisticforfun]

Put me in a room alone and I won’t care about the world that exists outside of it.