#summer healing

[medusamooon]

pure joy 🫶🏽

[medusamooon]

I just read about my Lilith placement and I am shocked 🫢

[inthemoodfor-luv]

Summer nights 🖤

That summer night of 2022

June 24th

Just Nai and I talking in her rooftop

Drinking a couple of beers, some cigs and pizza to complete the friends date

We talked like we haven't in a while and i needed it

I needed her

She listened to me I listened to her and a few tears appeared

But even with that, we laughed like we haven't in a while

We poured our hearts at the same time we drank from our glasses

Meanwhile we let our confessions of pain and dispair get involve in the smoke and get dragged by the wind of that chill night

I don't want to forget the night someone for the very first time understand me, me and my thoughts, my pain and fears

She's my biggest and only real support right now

Cause honestly if it wasn't for her, I've already unalive myself - just the truth

That summer night was healing

All thanks to the company and the friendship that has lasted twelve years and we surely go for many more

[medusamooon]

my partner and I took a nap and now we can’t sleep 🤪 Netflix it is!

[faithvixo]

I'm sorry to anyone that I haven't been really hanging out with this summer, really needed time to be at work and focusing on helping myself grow through summer, really needed it, love you ❤️

[mishigami]

the stress was worth it: starting my new job & savings plan tomorrow. i finally have clarity in every sector of my life. i know exactly what i want & how to get it. i’m grateful for friends who believe in me & remind me i have reasons to love myself. i’m grateful for having enough love for myself that i wanna get my shit together. i’m grateful for family forcing me to grow up & figure shit out. but also grateful for my grandparents who don’t do that tough love shit & treat me like the little bby i am. i’m grateful for past lovers highlighting what i don’t need. i’m grateful for time & the flexibility i had to clock out & sit or lay for weeks at a time to just think. i’m grateful for lugao. our vision. & this fresh start.

no more running away or falling into the traps i have before. i’m moving on.  

[indigo-mizu-blog]

Step One: Recognition

The moment I realized I hate myself was the moment that I began to love myself. Recognition is the first step to healing. I have reflected on some of the reasons why I don't like myself and all of them were either old images that I had of myself, small and insignificant issues or issues out of my control. Almost every reason was created by the way other people look at me. But now I'm trying to look in the mirror and actively love who I see. Although I have a long way to go, now I can stop making excuses and begin a true emotional and mental healing journey with myself.