seasons change
At a strange time in my life right now. Things are changing, for the better, for good. It feels deserved, strange in a way, unexpected and also out of nowhere. It feels as though every single day is a new challenge, one I have no choice but to take. It's not like I want to avoid it, but it does feel quite abnormal given the past 6 months of my life. I got a job, I officially have a job, but it feels surreal, I'm not sure how, why, but it feels out of place for now. Mayeb it's the stangeness of change, maybe it's the seasonal depression finally letting me breathe, maybe it's part of my grief fading away and me being able to just exist that I'm still not very familiar with, but it feels like every emotion all at once, somehow a hurricane in my head, in my body, sirens going off all at the same time. Is it bad to miss the simplicity of life? Is it bad to reminice about a time in life where I didn't know any better? Is it wrong to want a calmer body, and mind? I don't think so...