Sunshine Request
So apparently my two best friends now hate each other. One is on the other side of the world with makes it easy for me not to choose sides. Not to mention the fact that I don't want to know what the fight is about even though eventually I will.
I think I know what it might be about and that scares me because if its about what I think its about they will hate each other for a long time because what is a life decision to one is a betrayal to the other. And while one has the right to decide, the other feels her rights are trampled and there is no easy solution to that. In this case, avoidance is my cowardly stance.
I feel like I lost my ability to smile this morning and I had gone back to homeostasis before, I am back to retraining my muscles on how to turn up.
And my stomach feels queasy, I am no longer hungry, I feel anxious and trapped but don't want to go out. I need some sunshine, someone give me hope and sunshine.