#sunshineflowerchild7

[sunshineflowerchild7]

thinking of names for my little one. staying in bed way too late. are you moving yet, or is that just gas? other not so random thoughts : the ups and downs to living up on a mountain an hour drive from a very small town. the fact that my pregnancy will be mostly covered and hopefully i can get a midwife to help me with a water birth. though im not so sure if the hospital has anything like that. i really want to have my child at home, but as of right now ill either be housse sitting until my due date or moving back to MI and finding a place... theres still time but by no means is the money flowing in as well as we had expected.

[sunshineflowerchild7]

You made us spicy veggies over rice and it tasted sooo good but my tummy said no. Blaaauck! I wish you could understand where I'm coming from these days. I'm not making shit up so I don't have to work. I just am trying to listen to my body, and I need time to heal and be strong before the baby arrives.

[sunshineflowerchild7]

I've been living out here for months. What now? What comes next? Should I dismiss how horrible you are to me when you get upset, I really don't mind you having feelings of sadness and anger it's a good thing in fact! But when you start hurting me because you're angry at a situation it's not okay. And then you turn around and say "I really do love you" well fuck man "do you?" Because your treating me like shit. I am questioning your love for me. I need me to be safe.

[sunshineflowerchild7]

It's been awhile since I've checked in. I couldn't have ever guessed my life would be what it is now even I few months ago. Since I've met Kenny my life has taken a spin. I'm unsure of what my future holds. A house, some animals, lots of cacti, children, hard work, playing and being silly every single day until the day I die.

[sunshineflowerchild7]

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[sunshineflowerchild7]

So I've been on the road since... Tuesday night? Strange things are happening. I may be insane or I may be insane :p I hope this feeling of new events never gets old. And what am I doing? What have I been doing in my life so far to prepare myself for all that is happening? How can I better myself?