So like, for awhile now there's been some pondering happening with my pt, and my gyno because a lot of my symptoms don't line up with just fibroids. & we've been starting to all wonder if maybe I have endometriosis. Right now it's suspected because my symptoms - some line up with that diagnose as well. So with my upcoming lap my surgeon / gyno is going to look after he removes my fibroid. (Which is going to be a 3 hour procedure. and if he can't get them out thru lap, he said it'll become an open myomectomy - which is basically a c-section cut. & that one makes me worried about recovery cause we do know already I have musculoskeletal issues. *panic sae sounds*) I'm nervous for monday. and I've been flopping a bit with feelings. Like do I want them to find out whats wrong with me - yes. Do I want surgery to provide relief so I can feel more normals - yes. But also...I do feel that sense of drain they either might not find more wrong or they might find more wrong... if I make sense?
