would you ever perform on stage (singing/dancing/etc)?
i did once.......a dark time in middle school........
it was a dark and stormy night. it was the school-wide talent show. i stood on the gym stage, looking over at my peers in a shirt that said “girl power” in sequins and pants that were probably one size too tight. “halo” by rihanna pulses through the shitty school speakers from my homemade CD. the beat is really strong so i move to it. according to my friends, it looked like i was being shocked on the leg and it would ripple up my body. basically a mild muscle spasm but full-bodied. rihanna starts singing, so do i. my voice is super high, pre-puberty, screechy, and thankfully hidden by the speakers being so loud. a terrible 3 minutes of halo continues and my voice breaks more than 90 times. halo ends and i’m out of breath. everyone looks not impressed but claps anyway. i run offstage and think i did ok. until i saw the video of me doing it. it really did look like i was spasming.
it haunts me.











