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Let your heart follow the truth you claim.
He squinted. He wasn't sure what that was supposed to entail. His heart told him to give the old man a chance. But having joined Torres in Syndicate matters had only made his shadow that much longer in the eyes of his fellow Legends. Even Che didn't seem to trust him anymore. It wasn't like he could blame them, but what was he supposed to do? All his life, all he'd wished for was to be wanted. And now that he had a shot at it, no one wanted him to have it? It wasn't fair.
Obi had a way with words that made Octane furious. So slow and careful, just the right cadence; things that made Octane want to plow ahead with impatient words of his own, but somehow he couldn't, not with Obi, such a showman that he could hold Octane's attention even with the most boring of accounts.
At the heart of it he knew it was because he valued Obi's viewpoint; apart from all their differences, Obi too knew what it was like to be unwanted. Octane had always been jealous of his supportive parents, but the rest of Boreas had never wanted anything to do with the child borne of a curse. No matter what Obi tried to do to make things right, it seemed it might always be that way.
"Yeah," he answered weakly, visibly uncomfortable. "Yeah, that-- that shadow stuff."
Some of the defensive tension ebbed from his body, leaving him feeling wobbly. Usually he had to keep his guard up - the only other person he tended to confide in was Che, and sometimes she could be as scathing as Torres. Octane was lucky at all that Obi chose to be kind to him now, given the circumstances, especially after Torres had usurped their plans for the new Apex venue and all but splintered Obi's relationship with Boreas irreparably.
"Always a lot of things chasing me." His gaze flitted away again, couldn't handle the warmth in Obi's eyes, as if he could see something in Octane that needed it. He was fine. He was fine. "But I'm faster than all of them."



















