#swfy

[jadenmallows]

I struggle with the idea that once I am happy with my life, life somehow takes that happiness away and I am alone again.

[squidlet-rock]

Storm the Sky // Sin Will Find You

[jadenmallows]

I thought I was getting better I honestly did. But now I'm lying in bed trying to figure out what is wrong with me and why I'm never enough.

[jadenmallows]

I just want to be loved and hugged. I want to be told about all kinds of words of affirmation and assurances that you are mine, and I am only yours.

[jadenmallows]

Not being chosen hurts. Especially when you’re not chosen by someone you chose, someone you saw a future with, someone with whom you believed to have a really strong connection.

[jadenmallows]

The uncertainty of things changes us, but I realized that it makes me want to strive for more. Maybe because I believe in our true potential and not living up to it invites unpleasant emotions like fear and frustrations.

I know time flies so fast. That is why I  want us to run for it and reach for what we envisioned. I want to reach them all with you and see those beautiful smiles on your face in the end. Then, we will strive for more and more. I just want the best for us.

Things might change, and I am guilty of that too. But people aren’t perfect, and nearly everyone makes a few actions unconsciously that affect someone’s feelings. Maybe, I am just so assured that you will continue to offer love and acceptance, even if my choices and actions are not what you are expecting me to do. And I am such a fool to have that in mind without considering your feelings as well.

I am sorry for not being able to give you what you needed from me.

But most of all, I am sorry that I have changed.

At some point in our life, we will stumble, that is why it is a comfort to go hand in hand with someone you love. I'm starting to think this world is just a place for us to learn that we need each other more than we want to admit. Because I don’t know where to start and what to do if I am not with you. 

One thing is for sure. We are a team. And I will always be here for you. Just hold my hand for a while, we will make it in no time, and keep in mind that you have my heart forever.

[jadenmallows]

Remove people who keeps you awake at night questioning your worth. Don't ruin your peace of mind over unsure thoughts. Feel the energy and don't be scared to leave the table.

[jadenmallows]

I did not fall in love with you because I was lost, lonely,  broken, or needed to be fixed. I fell in love with you because… After getting to know you, and who you are, I wanted to make you a permanent part of my world. The places and scenery may change, but whether it is for 5 minutes or 50 years…I would have just been happy to have you in it.