sup?
see no real point in hiding it but at the same time it’s not exactly the kind of topic you just slap into people’s faces out of nowhere so figure I’ll just put it here, can just link it to people if they ask what’s up with me rather than doing the good old ‘oh nothing let me distract you with a joke and dodge the subject’ -routine
so I’ve been too sick to really even keep my daily happy candy cocktail down for a while now and it’s starting to show - it’s not that I’m sad per se, I have lots of things to be happy about and I realize that and am thankful for it, always
simply put there’s just something malfunctioning with the chemicals in my brain and that makes me miserable and exhausted. I have some options for it that I’m pursuing but when combined with everything else ailing me it’s just not an easy undertaking
I’m tired, very, very tired, and with the way my head is right now everything seems pointless and hollow - BUT logically I know that’s not true and it’s just my sickness making me think those thoughts, and knowing that is what assures me that I’m going to be fine
this is not meant to be a mopey or whiny post and I do hope it doesn’t come off like that, I’m leaving this here just because I think that if you care enough about me to read this, then you deserve to know what’s going on - or hell, even if you were just curious for no good reason, that’s fine too. curiosity should be a more celebrated trait
ANYWAY, I am fine in the sense that this is nothing new, I know how to handle this, and I know it’s not an eternal state of being - I just am low on power, and that makes everything from washing my hair to eating to talking to getting out of bed a little more difficult than it should be
be good, be kind, have fun ❤️️