Hiyaa :) For the ask game: 33, 34, 36 pls :D P.S : your writing is sooo gorgeous! Thank you so much for sharing it with us🥺 your latest fic was amazing as always..haha this is totally NOT coming from someone who's spent most of quarantine so far aggressively checking your ao3 to see if you had posted anything new (yanno, instead of doing uni work lol) anyway, point is, your writing is amazing and you have such a knack for feelings and characterisation! Hope you're doing ok in these tough times!
First of all, thank you SO MUCH for your kind words, I’m just ---- 😭😭😭 You cannot even comprehend how honoured I am that you were actually waiting for me to post something new! It’s so nice to hear your writing is desired! 😭 I’ll actually write a small, fun(ny) sequel to a hat, a horse (a Hyundai), and the will to ride this week so you’ll get some more of that world! I couldn’t stop thinking about those four idiots + Nat, so you’ll be getting them all together this time!!!
And, yes, I’m doing relatively okay? I mean I’m absolutely exhausted just from existing in this year but ain’t we all? Thanks for asking, though! I hope you’re doing well too! ❤️ ❤️ ❤️ ❤️
33. Have you ever stopped yourself from writing something? Why?
This can either be answered with “all the time” or “never” hahahha. I’ve definitely ‘stopped myself’ from writing down some ideas and just like randomly opening new WIP folders because if I don’t stop myself when ideas strike, I become overwhelmed with the number of unfinished things and just...not write anything in the end.
But when I truly, truly, want to write something, I never stop myself. I do sometimes have to stop myself from making it too angsty or too ridiculously hilarious because I operate in extremes, but other than that, when I really want to write something, I do. After a lot of procrastination and putting it off and general executive dysfunction, of course. We’re not neurotypical in this house.
34. Have you felt emotional while writing a scene before? What scene was it?
Answered more fully here, but short answer? ALL THE TIME! I am basically incapable of not being emotional while writing. Since I didn’t give an example in that ask, let’s just make this answer of mine obnoxiously long and let me cite this scene from a hat, a horse (a Hyundai), and the will to ride :
“Do you remember what she did to you?” Steve had been wondering.
“Bits and pieces, fragments, an actual memory here and there,” Bucky spoke when a big ship was stirring the water below them. “Her last name means tailor. She used to tell me nomen est omen. That she would tailor me to perfection. Cut me open and sew me back better.”
Steve closed his eyes, then dropped his head onto his hands, sighing. He was going to have sugar crystals in his beard, but he didn’t care. “You’re going to need so much therapy.”
Bucky laughed. “Yeah, yeah, I will.”
“I’m going to need so much therapy.” Steve rubbed his face, thankful that they hadn’t gotten donuts or he would have had jam all over his face by now. “Not because of you. Just in general.”
“You always did have many problems,” Bucky agreed readily. Too readily.
“The biggest of which is your smartass mouth.” Steve scowled at him from his dramatic posture.
Bucky laughed again and the air felt lighter, the sun rays stronger.
“I missed you so fucking much, Bucky,” Steve told him, not turning away, not hiding. “Every day.”
Bucky’s blue eyes met Steve’s under the blue Budapest sky. “I missed you, too, Stevie.”
When I say I was bawling, I mean BAWLING.
36. What fanfic of yours has the symbolism you’re proudest of?
Oh man...is there symbolism in any of my fics?😂 I just feel like there isn’t? Idk why, but I feel like my fics aren’t “high brow” enough to have symbolism. Maybe I just don’t know what symbolism actually is.
I will say, though, that two of my most poetic fics are The Sound of Silence (an angsty Drarry fic) and Troubled Water Running Cold (an angsty Stucky fic). They have the kind of imagery and atmosphere that I always crave to write, but they are also so painful that I had to literally emotionally recover after I’d written them. Which is also why I will not be writing anything like this for the foreseeable future hahahah
Thanks so, so much for being so lovely and for sending me this ask! I’m sorry that I wrote an entire novel in reply!
The questions are from this post!
