Saw that you're taking prompts and if you want, what about 22) "Did you just hiss at me?" with Fenris and Anders? ;) (loved the one you wrote for tearsofwinter!)
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First off, THANK YOU!!! Aaah @tearsofwinter was the first to prompt me so I feel like I didnât do a good enough job on the first drabble. Like I was super rusty??? But Iâm glad someone liked it enough to send me a prompt due to it!!! So thank you again!
Usual: âidk if this is what youâre looking forâ (b/c I imagined it being funny before itâŚdidnât turn out funny) + âthis is too long for a drabbleâ
No seriously, I kind of feel I should start posting these to AO3 at this rate.Â
Verse: Modern-AU with magic
Misc notes: Pre-fenders to potential fenders; mentions of tranquility (regarding Karl); Anders+insecurity issues/self-loathing/probs other things; Fenris gets beaten up by Pounce a few times (bites and scratches); everyone is an asshole (Iâm watching someone play DA2 and I was kinda reminded thatâŚeveryone shits on Anders. A lot)
Link to ao3 chapter: here.
âI never hated you.â
All these years and the stupid mage decided to simply announce that tidbit of information (okay it wasnât that simple but that would be another story)? Fenris found he was not only in disbelief but annoyed. All the wasted time spent hating on someone who did not even hate you in return! âRight, you never hated me.â He made sure to sound extra dry in his response.Â
âBelieve whatever you wish. I already know the same canât be said for you towards me.âÂ
That part Fenris knew he could not argue with. The seething burning sensation he felt every time the mage spoke was proof enough. ExceptâŚ
Maker, Anders did not seem so bad when you know he wasnât hating you. Still annoying though. If Anders spoke the truth then everything that came out of his mouth sounded less like a personal attack.Â
What followed soon after for Fenris was guilt.Â
Why verbally attack someone who does not hate you? It suddenly seemed wrong to talk down to Anders when seeing the mage look away in hurt (along with anger), and retort with his own string of ugly words. Now the elf only felt like the bad guy. Say something mean and someoneâs feelings gets hurt. Go figure. But it was how it always was. Thatâs just what they did. Why change it now?Â
Fenris sought comfort from the quips Anders received from the others. A little from Aveline, mostly regarding the amount of work Anders and other mages put on her and other cops with all the meet-ups and protests; and Isabela making light of said-protests. It didnât make Fenris feel alone when he decided to give Anders a hard time. The guilt didnât go away though. If anything it got worse and his friends, well, now they just seemed a littleâŚtoo mean. Sure, Fenris knew no one here was an angel but youâre not supposed think everyoneâs suddenly worse either. The look of shame and hurt on the mageâs face became hard not to notice every time someone took a jab at his plight. It was all in good fun wasnât it? Anders took it too seriously anyway, and it only brought everyoneâs mood down so theyâre just changing topicsâŚright? So Fenris didnât stop. Heâll keep hating the mage like always (maybe with a little less intensity). It was better this way, to keep everything the same as it was.Â
Anders had confessed his feelings to Hawke. The news tightened something within Fenris, though the elf wasnât sure what it was. A different tightening feeling occurred right after the first when it became evident Hawke did not return said-feelings. Everyone seemed to have understood that Anders needed some space and didnât comment of his absence from game night.Â
That only seemed to apply for the first few times.Â
Now Anders needed to âget over it.â The mage missed so many nights since the whole thing with Hawke. It was only one excuse or another: âsorry, I have a rally to go to,â âsorry, I volunteered at the shelter,â âsorry, I volunteered at the downtown clinic,â âsorry I donât have a lot of money right now.âÂ
âIâll go talk to him.â Hawke was either foolish or the only brave one here. But who could judge when no one opposed the decision?Â
Anders showed up to the next game night, and things seemingly went back to normal. Just as it should be, and just how Fenris liked it.Â
âMy cousinâs in town for about a month,â Hawke announced one day in game night, after Anders left. âProbably wonât be seeing Anders for a bit.âÂ
âWhat? And they donât come to see little olâ me?â Isabela feigned offense, âBut I supposed they have always been fond of Anders. Oh well. I suppose thatâs for the best though.â
âMm? Whyâs that, Izzy?â Merrill asked in curiosity.Â
âThe two have always gotten along. Anders always seemed very happy around them. He seemsâŚvery down lately. He could use some cheering up.â Â
Fenris concluded there mightâve been some truth to that. He only met this Amell family member once, only for the sake of introductions. They were a mage though. It didnât take long for them to show an obvious distaste for Fenris the moment he expressed his own strong opinions on mage matters. It was no wonder they got along with Anders. Whatever. It wasnât his business. If anything, Fenris might feel his own form of distaste. This visit ruined the routine Fenris grew accustomed too. Game nights without Anders feltâŚdifferent.Â
During the monthâs stay, Fenris often saw Anders out at night with cousin-Amell in the streets of Hightown from his apartment window. Anders never goes to Hightown without good reason, and especially not doing so at night, while smiling and laughing as he walked. Hawke was never with them and no one seemed to see Anders at all during most of this month (alone at least). It was always a curious sight whenever Fenris caught Anders out and about during the busy night with someone that wasnât part of their main group, looking as happy as he was. Has Anders never smile or laugh? Well of course he had! But it wasâŚdifferent here somehow. More joyous. More genuineâŚ
The guilt still hasnât left.The guilt also got worse (again) when Anders resumed his regular attendance to game night again, indicating Hawkeâs cousin had left. Fenris never saw Anders smile and laugh like that since the last time he watched the pair pass his apartment window. Now every chuckle and grin Anders displayed only seemed to disconnect Fenris from the reality he was viewing. It seemed wrong. Was Anders not happy? Was he not having fun? After all, why bother coming at all if youâre so damn miserable?
Fenris could not bring himself to say anything when Anders showed up one night with a small cut on his forehead. Fenris knew he usually did say something, mostly along the lines of the mage being his usual foolish self. It wasnât the first time, nor was it the last, that Anders would show up with minor injuries from his protests and rallies for mage rights, and sometimes even elf rights. Anders never seemed to have enough mana for himself. It seemed silly to ask, not that Fenris ever did, but if one was not healing yourself and you still run out of manaâŚthen how much healing was required?Â
âYou seem broodier than usual.âÂ
Fenris sighed. Figured Varric would be the first to notice. At least the dwarf had some decency to bring it up after everyone left for the night. âAm I?âÂ
âSure. A bit quieter so it throws off your whole brooding thing a bit. Too depressing, not even charm. Did karma come around to bite you in the ass?âÂ
Maybe. Perhaps. Fenris wasnât sure. âIt is just the mage. Why must he show up as rugged and disheveled as he is every time? If he is so tired he should just not come at all.âÂ
âWell, you gotta remember he did not show up at all. You donât justâŚnot show up when Hawke prefers it.âÂ
Ah. Right. Hawke dragged Anders back.Â
âRightâŚperhaps I am the tired one. I have had some difficulty sleeping recently.â Guilt apparently made it difficult to rest up wellâŚ
âBlondie may help you with that. Well, depends how professional you want of a diagnosis. I can give you sleeping pills if needed. Blondie justâŚadvised I do not offer it as a first resort. But we all know how you are with him, so I just wonât mention this to him and let you get by without him breathing down your back over it. But just say the word and I can get you some!â
âThank you, Varric. I will think about it.âÂ
âTake it easy on him if you see him though. Blondie seems to be having it rough lately. Well, rougher, anyway.âÂ
Fenris vaguely recalled where Anders lived. He never had a reason to really go see him (and that goes for all the places Anders frequented). Maker, it was disgusting. The streets were littered, the buildings looked old and worn, the roads were unfixed, and Fenris couldâve sworn there was a dead animal somewhere with every corner he turned. He had known this man for years and he could never fathom how Anders could stand living in this part of Kirkwall. Last he checked, Anders was a bloody doctor. What kind of doctor earned less money thanâŚliterally everyone else in the group? That guilt feeling started coming back againâŚ
Fenris eventually spotted the mage standing next to a bus stop. No time like the present. He swiftly approached and touched Andersâs shoulder for his attention. Fenris swore he barely touched the man, but just from mere brush against the hoodie he heard a terribly threatening hiss, and withdrew his hand immediately. Anders turned slightly and took out an earbud.Â
âDid you just hiss at me?â Fenris questioned before Anders could say anything.Â
Anders only looked at him in confusion. âDid I what?â Anders looked down before even waiting for Fenris to repeat the question. âOh Pounce, whatâs the matter?âÂ
As Anders lifted the bottom portion of his hoodie up, Fenris spotted an orange ball of fluff. That hoodie was already ugly when he first saw it, but Fenris wasnât sure if the little built-in pouch holding a cat made it better or worseâŚ
âAre you scared? Itâs alright, I wonât let Fenris hurt you~â Fenris had never heard Anders us such a childish tone to talk. Nor had he ever seen Anders nuzzle and kiss a cat with such love and affection. âThere, there. Thatâs it, Pounce. Itâs alright. No need to feel scared.â Maker, this man adored his catâŚÂ
Upon calming the cat down (though Anders still cuddled him), Anders finally paid his attention to Fenris again. âIs there a reason youâre waiting on me?â
âErmâŚyes. Varric recommended I go to you for suggestions. I have had some trouble sleeping as of late.â
âOh, now you seek out a mageâs help? TchâŚâ
âAs Iâve stated before: magic has its uses. Now will you make use of it?â
âRight, rightâŚâ Anders muttered without looking at Fenris. He sighed as he gestured down the street they were on. âCome on, my place isnât that far from here.â
As they walked, Fenris saw the bus pass them. Anders didnât say anything.Â
Anders placed a small jar on the counter that held oddly colored leaves inside. âTake this before you sleep. Stay off your phone though. After a couple of days, tell me how it is and if you have any allergic reactions to them. You donât need to chew it. Just drink down a leaf with water. It doesnât have a taste so it shouldnât be difficult.âÂ
Fenris looked curiously at the item. âThatâs it?â and no magic?
âYeah. Itâs natural. Nothing like those over the counter stuff. Which I guess are fine for the short term, but not if you need to rely on them. Hopefully itâs just a passing thing, but might as well get used to this stuff if it works for you. Just in case.âÂ
âI seeâŚâ Fenris picked up the jar. The leaves looked thin and loose enough to just drink down. âYou are not going to ask questions on my change of sleep problems?âÂ
âI would, but I figured you donât like telling me anything. So I decided to not waste both of our time and just give you what you wanted.âÂ
âRightâŚand what are you charging?â
âJust take it. I can always get more.â
The guilt came back. âI do not wish to owe a mage anything.â Okay, that may have came out wrong.Â
âTch, fine. Just throw in a few sovereigns to the clinic or animal shelter. Or both.â
The guilt got worse. Fenris resisted pointing out the ripping wallpaper, the table with a wobbly leg, the dripping sink, and the too-easily-to-break door. He was afraid to sit down or lean on anything in fear of breaking it.Â
âIâŚshall thenâŚâ It was the only response he could think of.Â
âAlright. Well if thatâs all there is. You can go. Pounce and I are taking a stroll to the grocery store.âÂ
And what? Buy bread and feed it to the geese? Okay Anders might actually do thatâŚ
Anders looked around for the cat. Fenris saw the orange tabby on the floor on his side of the counter licking his paws. He reached down to retrieve him for Anders, just out as an act of being nice. The cat hissed and without warning, the claws came down on the hand that reached for him. Fenris yelped as he pulled his hand back.Â
âPounce! No!â Anders quickly picked up the tabby. âBad, Pounce! You do not attack people like that!â he used a scolding tone, though it was probably as ineffective as scolding a child. Anders sighed as he readjusted his grip on Pounce while approaching Fenris. âIâm sorry about Pounce. HeâŚdoesnât like most people. Do you need something for that?âÂ
Fenris could see the claw marks on his fingers. âNo. It is nothing.â he tucked his hand into his pocket and resisted the urge to hiss himself as it the pressure stung. âSo you are to say that beast is picky with his company?âÂ
âWell I guess soâŚIâm not sure what it is. Pounce seems to hate everyone. Except the Amell family. Well, Carverâs the exception. Oh but he adores Hawke.â Anders chuckled as he nuzzled Pounce. It was the first time Fenris recalled seeing such a warm smile since Hawkeâs cousin was over. Was a cat always this effective for Anders?Â
âOh yeah, Anders loves his cat,â Hawke said when Fenris approached them the next day. âThe cat loves him too from what I can tell of cats. Which isnât much I guess.â
âI was informed thisâŚSer PounceâŚis rather fond of you.â
âOh yeah,â Hawke laughed in-between drinks, âItâs really funny. Maybe Iâm just good with animals. Pounce likes Bethany too though, and myself of course. And umâŚmy cousin, and their lover. Pounce absolutely hates Carver thoughâŚand others I assume. Anders says weâre the only ones he recalled Pounce liked. Us and Karl.âÂ
âKarl?â
âOh, you remember. Andersâs old lover. The one who got turned Tranquil despite passing his Harrowing. That big case a few years ago.â The case that the mages lost, and justice was never served. Fenris never really thought much about it, but being reminded of that case only made him feelâŚbad.Â
ââŚAnd you are saying you never had to change the catâs opinion of you?â Fenris asked instead of delving further into the negative feelings.Â
âI mean I guess? Well, Pounce didnât like me right away. Probably because Iâm a stranger. But he warmed up to me. Sort of around the same time Anders did.â
Fenris blinked curiously. âAnders was swift to like you though.â
âYeah, and so was Pounce!âÂ
There was no way. It canât be.
âI wish to see your cat.â Fenris announced to Anders as he stood before the manâs apartment door.Â
ââŚWhy?â Anders put himself before the door frame, guarding the entrance.Â
âIâm interested in cats.â
There was a flicker of interest in Andersâs eyes. âIâŚsuppose you can come see him. I guess itâs not a bad sign if you want to see him even after he attacked you.âÂ
Anders let Fenris in and the elf searched for the orange tabby. Pounce was laying in the sunlight coming in through the window. Fenris only got a chance to kneel down beside him before Pounce woke and immediately got his claws into Fenrisâs jeans. He immediately felt the sting in his kneesâŚ
Fenris came by again later that same week. This time he brought a cat treat for Pounce. He offered the food on the floor and tried to push the little treat closer. Pounce sniffed it for a moment but promptly ignored it.Â
âStrange. He usually eats anything you give him,â Anders noted out loud, watching from behind the elf. Fenris tried pushing the treat in front of Pounceâs path again but before he could pull his hand away, Pounce, well, pounced. WellâŚat least he can make up a story to why his knuckles bledâŚ
Fenris came by again by the start of the next week. This time, he handed Anders a box of pizza. âI had some from work. Brought it in case you were interested.â Fenris didnât say more as he went to scan for the cat. Pounce was on the couch this time and watched the strange exchange between Anders and Fenris.Â
âUmâŚthanksâŚ?â despite the confusion, Anders didnât want to complain about the free food and happily hummed as he started getting out a plate for himself. Fenris went over and knelt before Pounce who eyed the elf with intent. Carefully, Fenris slipped the treat before the cat. Pounce sniffed it before taking the treat into his mouth. After Pounce finished, Fenris offered his (bandaged up) hand to the cat. Pounce didnât look aggressive. Taking that as a good sign, Fenris tried to pet the head like how Anders would do it. Before he even touched the fur, Pounce bit his finger.Â
Fenris stopped by once again. This time, he handed Anders a new box of bandaids and a new bottle of disinfection. Both acting as a replacement for taking up all the supplies from Anders. Fenris found he was able to pet Pounceâs head today, but only for a moment. Pounce bit him again when he felt he was being pet for too long.Â
Another day Fenris came by with nothing. But he did mention the silly cat shirt Anders wore was charmingly funnyâŚin its own way. He caught a small smile from the mage, and Fenris found he was able to pet the catâs head a bit longer than five seconds before he started hearing a growling sort of noise and he retreated his hand before he got attacked again.Â
And thatâs how it went. Fenris visited at the rate that it would be considered âoftenâ to a lot people. He would bring over food for himself and Anders sometimes. Anders seemed to always be hungry. One time he brought a movie that he felt Anders might enjoy (he did. It involved cats). Otherwise, he offered some words. Nothing too out there. Just a nice compliment here and there. âWhy is your hair not up today? No, it is fine. But perhaps you should wear your hair down more often-if that is something you like,â âYou make good cookies. The children would like them,â âNo, keep the movie if you like it so much.âÂ
Slowly, Pounce seemed to accept his presence. Not completely, as even at Pounceâs most patient days, Fenris had walked out with a new scratch on his skin. Anders always apologized for them, even when there was nothing Fenris felt that needed to be apologized for.Â
Finally, by the end of the month, Fenris was able to get his hand to start from the top of Pounceâs head and down his back without being attacked.Â
âHmm, wow, I think Pounce is warming up to you. Your effort is pulling through! Iâm so happy that Pounce gets a new friend!â Anders sounded proud, as if Pounce was a childâŚ
Fenris stood and went over to the kitchen counter were Anders was pouring tea for the two of them. âDid Hawke have as much trouble?âÂ
âNot really,â Anders flushed slightly, âHawke isâŚHawke. Theyâre a bit irresistibleâŚâÂ
ââŚwhy Hawke?â Fenris dared to ask and Anders froze in mid-pouring. He stopped and put down the hot water as he eyed Fenris suspiciously.Â
âWhat do you mean?â
âYou know what I mean. The cause of your temporary absence.â
Anders shrugged and went on to pour into the next cup. âWhatâs there to say? Hawkeâs nice.âÂ
âNiceâŚâ
âNice,â Anders stressed.Â
ââŚThatâs it?âÂ
âWhat else do I need?â Anders put down the water and took out the teabags.Â
Compassion, listening skills, supportive, probably at least likes cats, and appreciate each otherâs interests, just to list a few.Â
âI assumed more than justâŚnice.â Fenris replied with instead.Â
Anders shrugged as he pushed a cup towards Fenris. âI canât expect my lover to be perfect. No need to be picky. I donât have much to offer anywayâŚand I know Iâm annoying and such.â
Fenris swallowed, feeling more and more uncomfortable whenever Anders talked down on himself like that. âThat is a dangerous mindset, Mage. Anyone can be nice. Many have for the sake of saving face.âÂ
âYeah but you can usually tell when they want something in return or not. You eventually start to pick up that stuff. HawkeâŚHawkeâs kind. TheyâŚreally listen to meâŚâÂ
Fenris felt his brow twitch. âMageâŚhas no one mentioned to you that you need to raise your standards?âÂ
âWhy would they tell me that?â
Fenris had to resist smacking himself in frustration. âThat aside, Mage. If you are so good at telling when someoneâs trying to trick you, then what is my purpose for feeding you?â
âYou want to see Pounce, what else?â Anders gestured to the cat.Â
Fenris stared. âWhy do you not assume I wish to see you?â
âWhy would you want to see someone you hate?âÂ
ââŚMaybe you are not so hatable.â Maker it shouldnât have come out so easily. But it did become rather difficult to hate someone who eagerly wanted his cat, never mind himself, to make a new friend.Â
âHeh, right, sure. Iâll take that as a compliment.âÂ
ââŚyou do not believe me.â Fenris stated matter of factly.Â
Anders raised a brow. âYouâre trying to convince me you do not hate me?â
âShould I try harder?â
âSee!â Anders pointed with accusation, âYouâre never serious with me! Itâs always hatred or sarcasm!â
Fenris glanced over at Pounce. The cat looked like he was staring into his soulâŚ
âIâŚdid not mean offense. I apologize.â
âYouâŚapologizeâŚ?â Anders looked away in discomfort. âIâŚthatâsâŚnice of youâŚI guessâŚumâŚthanksâŚ?âÂ
Fenris just hoped that Anders (possibly) believed him. For now. Mostly because Fenris could not remember why he hated this man anymore.Â
Fenris wasnât sure what to do. He had spent over a month seeing Anders and Pounce, most of that time spent trying to befriend the cat. It was meant to be an experiment, a way to put out the growing curiosity. He didnât think Pounce would actually respond the way he did. Before he knew it, he got carried away with it.Â
But now Anders seemed almost content being in the elfâs presence, excited even, on some days. He expressed a similar shy smile that he used to have when around Hawke. Fenris froze in his thoughts. Oh noâŚ
Fenris ran his hands through his hair. Okay, so maybe there is a possibility he accidentally made Anders have more-than-friendship-based-feelings for him now butâŚa part of him felt he should still be liked beyond just being nice! Did he even do anything especially nice? Sure he knew he fed Anders on some days. There was also the minor compliments of course. There was the time he brought over a used, but large, jacket for Anders upon noticing Andersâs current one was getting too worn down. Fenris couldâve sworn Anders used the same jacket during winter and he was fairly confident the one he owned was warmer. It got difficult to get Anders to (eventually) accept it.
Okay so that was one nice thing he went out of his way to do. ONE! Or maybe two if one counted the time he shared his wine with Anders one night at the Hanged Man.Â
This was trouble, and bad, andâŚprobably something to be expected after all the acts he had done to appease Pounce. OrâŚappease Pounce forâŚAnders? Fenris wasnât sure anymore.Â
If there was anything he was sure about now it was that Anders didnât eat enough. The only time heâs ever caught Anders with food was when he was the one giving Anders the food! He also knew Anders didnât splurge on many luxuries except for the cat. Pounce was spoiled rotten. It wasnât hard to notice the soft cat bed looked a bit too new in comparison to Andersâs mattress that looked like it was sagging from the one time Fenris went into the mageâs bedroom. Fenris also knew Anders cared (too much in Fenrisâs opinion). There was always someone to help, always something to fight for, and always some poor animal to save from the rain.Â
Just thinking about it felt like it was too muchâŚBut as Fenris felt his heart ache at the thought of Anders constantly moving through life like this, he knew he too cared a bit too much. Maybe he was more sure than he originally thought.Â
Game night came once again, and Fenris waited outside the Hanged Man for Anders to arrive. He almost expected Anders to give a look of suspicion butâŚnot as of late. If Pounce approved a person, it somehow spelled âgoodâ in Andersâs mind. When Anders arrived, he looked surprised, and then looked away with a tint of red on his face. Fenris felt the insides of his chest getting particularly warm as well. Maybe not enough things were said between them, but avoiding it now wouldnât do.Â
âUmâŚis there a reason youâre out hereâŚ?â Anders looked ready to enter, but Fenris didnât budge from the entrance.Â
âI was waiting for you.â
ââŚoh. UmâŚIâm here? Whatâs going on? Am I in trouble for being a big bad mage?âÂ
Fenris sighed and closed the distance between them. Anders stiffened as the other got closer. Fenris felt his heart pound a bit too loud for his liking, but he had a feeling Anders might be feeling it just as a bad. Or worse. With a shake of his head, Fenris tried to meet with Andersâs gaze. Anders only persisted to not look at him. Not wanting to push his discomfort, Fenris stopped and let a momentâs pause pass before speaking. ââŚDo you wish to have coffee with me sometime?âÂ
Andersâs head snapped up. ââŚWhat?âÂ
âDo you wish to have coffee with me sometime?â he repeated patiently.Â
He couldâve sworn Andersâs face changed color as he tried to get out a response. âWh-What?! Wait, a-are you inferring something? Wait, is this a joke? Because if it is, itâs not a very funny one you know!âÂ
âIt is not a joke.â
Anders only folded his arms in disbelief.Â
Fenris continued. âIâŚknow I am not the most ideal-â
âWhat?!â Anders exclaimed, cutting in, âFenris, youâre like one of the most desirable bachelors in all of Kirkwall!âÂ
Fenris blinked. This was news to him. Never lessâŚÂ âIt does not change my question for you.âÂ
ââŚBut you can do better than me!â Â
âI fail to see how that relates to what you want in regards to my question.âÂ
Anders fell silent, looking rather torn.Â
Fenris sighed again as his heart started to ache once more. âAs I saidâŚI know I may not be the mostâŚideal person. I have treated you badly, and I do not know if I ever truly apologized for it. I would not hold it against you for saying no. I amâŚprepared for it. You deserve someone who will treat you well.âÂ
âNot reallyâŚâ Anders let out an empty laugh as his hand wiped at his eyes. âHehâŚwhâŚwhat am I supposed to say to that, Fenris? IâŚI donât know, I justâŚâ
âSay whatever you fe-â
âItâs not that simple!â Anders suddenly exclaimed. âOf course I want to! I justâŚdonât want to disappoint youâŚHeh, I mean, I hear that Iâm rather good at that! Disappointment. Being a mage does that you know. I often disappoint people without even having to open my mouth usually.â
âWell whoever suggested such a thing is wrong,â Fenris stated harshly. Anders dropped the forceful smile he just put on. âThis is not about everyone else and they will think. Itâs about you and your happiness, and whether or not you feel I am capable of helping in providing some of it. This is not about Kirkwall, or Hawke, or mages, or any of whatever you think has to do with who âdeservesâ what! Just once, can you do that? For yourself?âÂ
Fenris wasnât sure what kind of look Anders was giving him. He had never seen it before. The mage looked confused, and something else. Maybe he was in thought as he tried to decipher what was said. Fenris couldnât blame him. He wasnât sure if many people expressed such a thing to Anders before this moment.Â
Anders fiddled with his hands, and looked away again. âI canâŚtry.â Anders finally replied quietly.Â
âThat is all I ask from you. Regardless of how you wish to answer me. Just know that there is more to me than just simple acts of kindness. Believe me when I say: I may disappoint you before you could ever disappoint me.â Â
âNever,â Anders shook his head. Fenris could see how much the mage genuinely believed that. âI thinkâŚone cup of coffee wouldnât hurt.â And Fenris saw a small smile on the otherâs face.Â
It was almost a relief to Fenris. He never really saw himself as nice, but it was a rather good trait. And he could always show he had other qualities to like, at least, he had hoped he did. Like Anders, Fenris decided he had to at least try to bring those good qualities out. If not for his own sake, then for Andersâs.Â
It was the least Fenris felt he could do for him.Â












