#t___t;

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Annnnnd they just laid off over half of the company where I work today. I was one of the lucky ones, but once I saw that HR was there, I knew some shit was going down. Goddamn. 

I’m going to yank the fuck out my mental health leave. No way.

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I found out today I was an additional 1.2k in debt for Burt’s medical bills. Thankfully, they put me on a payment plan.

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I honestly thought that the last time my ex and I talked, I was able to shake him off a bit so I could heal. Him commenting on my FB proved that I apparently didn’t. I’m kind of shocked. He still checks my profile, apparently. 

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I was so upset for whatever reasons that I just called my family, just to kind of cry over the phone.

It was worth it. 

I finally told my dad the whole story as to why we broke up.

And you know what, he was a comfort. Whenever I told him how the ex told me there was a loss of attraction when I got sick on the birth control...

...I could hear my Dad’s heart breaking on the other end. His voice gave his heart away and it was so sad to hear. If that’s how it made my Dad feel, then I can only assume that’s how it would feel if my (future) kids told me someone they loved said that to them.

...it’s heartbreaking, the more I think about it. It wasn’t my fucking fault, the man is a douchebag for saying that or the equivalent of that...my dad was just infuriated and said that I deserve someone who loves me for who I am for what I am, and that even when I’m sick, they’ll love me anyways. 

What kills me is that I can’t determine whether or not this was him talking, stress--or, at the end--the stimulants to help him lose weight

I honestly don’t know and can’t tell

I guess if I were to ever get back with the ex, I’d tell him there’d be some changes he’d have to live with: 1) I don’t fight, I discuss and I cry sometimes -- deal with it 2) I’m sorry if my body doesn’t live up to your pornstar expectations 3) you’re 30+. If you don’t know your limits now, you’re just fucking stupid and/or a budding alcoholic. And if the budding alcoholic statement is true, I don’t want to see you.

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I don’t know if my heart is just hurting from the depression that’s been killing me over the last few months or I’ve just hit a milestone...or both.

Just unfollowed the ex’s posts on FB so that I stop worrying, stop obsessing. It turns out that on the day I decide to do this, he decided to change his status to single which, while inevitable, hurt. I kind of talked with his mom again about everything...my resolve gave out and I cried about it. I guess I was putting on a brave face before. 

I feel like I’ve made a mistake. The feeling’s not going away. It’s been since June and it’s not going away. 

I still love him. He still contacts me, we still see each other, but my heart hurts. I’m trying so hard to keep it cool, to move on, to let him go, let him be stupid, let him grow, and you know what? 

It’s a special kind of torture. 

I just want to sleep until May, then see what happens. I hate this non-stop feeling of absolute pain. At least when I was depressed I was basically numb. Now, I’m feeling everything all the time and it’s just not going away. It should go away now, right?

Why is it taking so long? I can hardly function. Very rarely are days are good, others, like today, aren’t. I hate feeling so messed up and in limbo. This was not a clean break and I don’t like it. 

I don’t know what to do either.

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Got a “I’m falling asleep lemme talk to you” call from the BF

Poor bud’s been up for 48 hrs running on 3 hrs sleep and feels like crap

GET SOME SLEEP SIR

YOUR RIBS WON’T HEAL WELL IF YOU DON’T

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My poor babe of a roommate came in nearly crying because her cramps were so bad this round...

Aww, honey, oh my god *prepares massive gift basket filled with heating pads, ibuprofen, tampons, and chocolate* 

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57. Underwear sets

"Okay… boxers or briefs?" He wasn’t meaning to talk to the stranger that happened to be right there but it sounded like it since he was facing them while holding up the different pair.