Prep: this weekend I got my hands on 2 silver plated candlesticks to replace the glass bowls the originally stood in. They were from an antique centre where a local witch has a stall so I picked up more frankincense, candles and a gorgeous opalite pendant for my mother. She also had a 100mm ‘quartz’ ball for £22! Buuuut I took one look at it and I knew it was glass. Bit of a disappointment as my ball is roughly 70mm but no matter. The candlesticks were a steal and Barrett specifies silver candlesticks so that’s one step closer to staying true to the formula.
I also took to wearing all gold jewellery in my possession, that being a gold and onyx signet ring and a gold chain. Gold being the metal of the sun I thought it would be appropriate and again at the suggestion of @vlm242ov23 it was a natural and perfect choice to make. Considering my success the previous week I’m making any and every association with the sun as I can get. I also played a NASA recording of the sound of the sun (which is quite disconcerting) on a continuous loop. Again I employed the sound of a Robin Williams stand up routine in the hopes of garnering the attention of Tzadtzikiel.
No major variation in preparation. I tried to replicate all procedures I took last week.
Rather annoyingly my mother has had plumbers in the house this week and I know for a fact they had entered the room and moved the position of my crystal, which I spent some time positioning to ensure the facets and inner flaws were not entiterly visible, just meaning that it was positioned so it was at the angle of perfect clarity. And they moved it. So not best pleased. But I digress, I chose not to spend what time I had repositioning it.
As a side note I allow very few people to enter my room, so when strangers decide to traipse in and out and meddle with ritual set up it really really angers me. I dread to think what else they decided to meddle with. I abhor rudeness.
I feel there is no need to expand on the actual conducting of the ritual, as previously stated I didn’t add anything to what I’ve usually been doing and I tend to follow Barrett’s words verbatim. So if those inquisitive few wish to know, just read the source material.
So I finished the orations and sat down, gazing heavily and calling out several times. Considering the success I’ve been having I specifically requested for the spirit Tzadtzikiel to make its presence known through a clear visible manifestation in the crystal. Specifically light phenomena or visions of any form. Again I have no serious desire for Tzadtzikiel to carry out any major tasks or pacts, I just want a clearer picture of whom I’m conversing with. I had a physical manifestation months ago, not through the Trimethius method but a largely improvised celestial evocation. It certainly worked as both myself and my mother saw largely the same manifestation at separate times. Choosing to appear as a vast green mist, with unmistakable wings, if anything Tzadtzikiel chose to appear like an atypical seraph, albeit not entirely tangible, less physical and more shifting and mist-like. And green, obviously.
So it was my intentions for Tzadtzikiel to do this again, but within the crystal, I desired a strong physical manifestation and this was my demand.
Oddly enough the candle to my left was misbehaving. Again no open windows, no interior draft and the right candle wasn’t flickering as intensely as the left. This could and probably is an entirely mundane thing, I’m not considering a flickering candle to be proof of anything, it was just curious that it was behaving in such a way.
I’d certainly say I did achieve what I requested, but not quite in the way I imagined. Within the crystal I saw the distinct shape of the pentagram. Very very very curious. However it did not last long, and the shape disappeared.
Another odd manifestation of note was that above the crystal appeared to be a very small black flame, just slightly above the ball, hovering for fleeting moments.
Something along the lines of that. Just a pure black flame, very small yet very solid. Unfortunately this manifestation didn’t last long, and again dissolved quickly. Curious considering I requested an apparition WITHIN the crystal not outside of it. It was curious all around this evening.
Other than the manifestation of the pentagram and the fleeting appearance of a black flame there is nothing of great importance to note. I’m not dismissing what I’ve encountered, but it just seemed to occur in a way I was not entirely expecting. Naturally I’m not expecting a full physical entity within the crystal, this is only my third week in what will be years of experimentation. So really I’m overjoyed that I’m having such results. This is truly a powerful form of evocation.
I gave my thanks unto the spirit and satisfied with what I had encountered I ended the session. I admit that I am incredibly tired and had no desire to have a prolonged ceremony. Very lazy of me as a magician, but I am only human and need to rest up.
In brief conclusion I am extremely pleased, yet slightly befuddled. Tzadtzikiel requires so much research and experimentation into, so next week I may consider communicating with another celestial spirit. Perhaps I need to leave Tzadtzikiel be, if this spirit is truly my HGA as I thoroughly believe, perhaps it’ll be best to not be so intrusive and find out as much about the spirit as possible. Some mysteries are best left alone.
I truly don’t know, I believe I’m looking for more tangible results and my thinking is that if I evoke a pre-recorded celestial with a known sigil and all appropriate planetary information then I can’t fail. I’m certainly not saying I’m failing, just a gut feeling that I need to move on temporarily. Get better at Trithemius Work with more ‘well known’ spirits then return to Tzadtzikiel when I’m better at this practise. And out of everything I’ve learned within my brief years of existence on this little earth its this; trust your gut.
I shall decide which celestial to work with imminently.
