#tangly stuff

[bat-poet]

Nineteen, summer,

wearing a dress you remember bright lights far above the dark pulled close

a city that I can't claim a cigarette at the top of the steps

I should feel small but you hold my hand when we walk through the fountain

we run without stopping to look

in the fluorescent light we catch each other for a breath

the clothing racks keep quiet for a kiss I keep quiet.

We end up back here,

in his strange apartment, they have gone to bed

I am lying awake

I have crept onto the balcony the moon hangs huge over the park

I could almost catch it.

[bat-poet]

fsda;ghklhkflgj;hsds;kljgadls;fgjdkls;

she dyed her hair blue and and sjgdkls;fjsdkl

how act like normal human???

how words, sentences??

I was all I'm gonna be confident and friendly and awesome but then she was all BASHFUL and so that made ME all bashful or maybe I am just always bashful around her I justf jsdklg;hsdklfj

but I think it was friendly-bashful and not ew-you're-a-horrible-human-get-away-bashful I think so that's probably good, right??gsdjklf

Aaaaaaaahhhhhhhhh I did not get enough sleep last night to deal with this fjsdk;lghdskfj and our friend who she's rooming with was all "come over whenever!" so I did and then it was just her there unpacking and I fjsdklfjdsklfjds

helphelp how do feelings?? Idon'tknowhowIfeelIdon'tknowwhatIwantthisistoomuchohmy

BUT CUTE, THOUGH

jfksdl;ahgkldsfdsgdksfldsjkfljdsklfjklsdjkj I might be having people overload. I need time to adjust to interacting with people who are not my family! And so many all at once! It has been FOUR AND A HALF MONTHS.

okay calm okay I need to eat O K A Y whew

[bat-poet]

I keep thinking that we're done talking and then she says ANOTHER WHOLE THING. This is how conversations work. Yes.

[bat-poet]

GUESS WHO INITIATED A WHOLE CONVERSATION?

me.

awyeah.

normal interactions.

talkin' bout things.

casual casual.

[bat-poet]

Okay here is what she wrote: "I love you more than you love Christmas. Your present will be late in the mail... kind of like extended X-mas?"

And here is my response: "Christmas ain't got nuthin' on you, silly! Extended X-mas sounds like a great thing! So great that it may happen with your present too...extended Christmas-Birthday Super Holiday?" (her birthday is Christmas Eve...)

PLEASE GRADE MY FLIRTING ABILITIES ON A SCALE FROM 1-10 THANK U VER. MUCH

[bat-poet]

It's nofair how am I supposed to be not all sad and missing you and pathetic when I still get crazy heart-poundy reactions to the minimalest of our minimal interactions?

[bat-poet]

*sighsigh*

[bat-poet]

Listening to The Rainbow Connection and talking to you is just the best the best the best.