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— Memory Meme; Not Accepting
💛 - A memory that makes them feel angry
There isn’t much that will cause Chris to hold a grudge for a long time. He’s believing in second chances, in making up for mistakes from the past, be it the bad ones or even the worst ones. But there’s things that will push him to the edge, even if he’s not necessarily aware of why they do.
Nationality.
Japan isn’t the most open culture in some aspects. It’s not particuarly hate against foreigers but there’s a common bias in case you’re not purely Japanese.
And Chris wasn’t. Clearly, it was already written in his given name, in the shape of his face and the color of his skin. Surely, Chris always had Japanese features too and he spoke Japanese as well as other’s his age. But there were things he grew up with. Things that weren’t necessarily very Japanese but still somehow imporant to him. He had family overseas overall, and when he was younger, they spend a lot time actually visiting them whenever there was time to.
But there was still much time spent in school - and in elementary school, despite being surrounded by caring teachers, there were times when the cruelty of children hit Chris with full force and without any evident reason.
Mostly it was only small things that were forgotten within a few hours. Being the last to be picked in games in sports class, or being asked to clean the classroom by his own because his classmate had to leave early, only to be lingering by the nearby candy store with some other classmates.
Really, it wasn’t something that would get him to the stage of being aggressively angry, but it’s save to say, a lot of his memories from early childhood made him hold a grudge he never acted upon. All of this lies behind him for a long time now, but whenever Chris is in a dark place, they reach the surface and still hurt; and sometimes it makes him angry at the whole world too.