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[crushnebula]

8.9.17 - yie pt. 2

J was wearing a blue-striped polo today he looked so cute and casual aw.

we had a mini quiz bee today. when our group answered wrong and he gave us a point, i told him that we weren't supposed to have a point. he actually looked happy when i said that haha. honesty is the best policy HAHA. but aye, another cute day.

:)) M

[crushnebula]

psa ! hello

hey all! little self-promo heh

i have a marvel/writing blog up and it's @emberoos !

i'll be posting mcu stuff and i might be writing blurbs there soon soo if you're a fan of those u can follow. if u want. i'm not forcing u or anything. just if u want.

ok that's all i hope you're all okay :)

[crushnebula]

¡PSA!

royalblueinfatuation >>> crushnebula

[crushnebula]

lemme just kinda be emotional here - 10.13.17

hello!! ok so it's been a long time since i posted here. not much has happened tbh hahaha. but as the title says, i’m gonna turn emo here.

ok disclaimer: i’m going to sound a bit sick, because of the situation that i’ll be saying. but yes, i’ll stick by my ideas and opinions and continue with it.

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i kinda want to have a really sad moment with j. ok it’s weird but i just want to experience it (?). like you know that if you really want to get to know a person you have to experience the difficulties too. i wanna cry and talk about a problem with him. it’s really weird omg.

that’s short but yeah i just wanted to get it out there.

[crushnebula]

spur-of-the-moment life update pt. 2 (9.22.17)

henlo so imma be talking about j here. since i basically just messed my own plan of just talking about the both of them in my last post. aNyWAys.

so j has been cute lately, as always.

side note: i hate how i keep on calling him cute, it's weird for me tbh but he just really is... i'm going to regret this when i'm older tbh hahahaha.

so there's this consultations thing in school where you ask your teacher about your standing, how you're doing in class, and so on. gahdamn it was nOT LIKE THAT. basically my teachers just told me to compute my own grades. wtf you sayin i'm asking you not me.

anyways, so when i went to j, he was just at the back of our classroom, doing something with his papers. when i came up to him he looked so awkward, like he was preparing for a long speech. i swear, this man has more awkwardness in his body than i have blood cells. legit.

once i started talking he looked like he was going to say the same thing as my previous teachers did, and that's what happened. he was literally at the edge of his seat, just leaning on the desk connected to the chair for support. and he was actually stuttering, i swear. i mean i'm not hating him for it, it just kinda bothers me since teachers should be the one taking initiative, not the other way around. i totally respect him if he's really like that, i do. and i hope to break that awkward barrier between us through the year. hopefully. :)

[crushnebula]

spur-of-the-moment life update pt. 1 (9.22.17)

hello thereeee i’ve been gone for too long ahahah sorry about that.

anyways so life’s been good lately, aside from my non-existent love life i’m fine. finals are happening and that’s getting me up in the morning. friends are as amazing as ever, i’m so blessed to have them tbh. group projects are biting me in the ass, but when you’re the only one good in graphic design in the group you gotta make do with what you have and work.

so, life aside (when does it ever leave me though), i’m gonna talk about seeing e after such a long time.

but wait,

we didn’t interact,

i just saw him.

like he was coming from a walkway near where i was having training (yep i do a sport) and he was with his students. i was heading to the bathroom to change with a friend then i suddenly saw him. i asked my friend, “is that e. over there. walking. there.” and she confirmed it. i was so shook i didn’t realize that i accidentally left my friend whoops. so i came back for her and that’s when it happened, we had eye contact, or so i thought. it wasn’t clear if we really did have eye contact but i looked at him while he was facing in my direction so he must have seen me at some point in his peripheral vision.

i should have said hi. but then i wouldn’t know what to say next. we haven't talked personally for six months, that’s half a year. i might just embarrass myself when i speak to him, at a loss for words.

right then and there, i realized that i genuinely miss him. i really do.

i miss his how his eyes light up when we talk about a certain season finale of a show.

i miss how he smiles at a comment i made about his choice of words.

i miss how he looks at me whenever we throw corny jokes at each other.

i miss how it felt like being beside him, being in his presence, being there with him.

i miss him.

p.s.: ah and, he was wearing my favorite outfit of his that time too