#tbi diary

[puppygirlsrituals]

I WANNA CRY lol my rabbi just texted me to check on me since ive been on the mi shebeirach list for a couple weeks and havent been able to make it to service :') he is so sweet and i feel so cared for

[puppygirlsrituals]

ears feel uncomfortable and i wonder is this brain thing? then walk to the bathroom and almost fall into wall. yeah brain thing. dizzy means brain thing

[puppygirlsrituals]

In response to the out of control emptions post: a lot of it comes with time and practice, but I find that it helps to learn to identify the strong emotions as how they feel in your body rather than something that needs your immediate reaction. It gives you a moment to pause and ask yourself "wait, why am I feeling sad/angry/etc? Would reacting this be helpful to anyone?" and with practice you learn to recognise when it's neurological and you need to take a few moments to cool off, or when it's normal and proportional. It's not perfect but it helps

THANK YOU BLESS YOU. this is very helpful because i am MOSTLY feeling my emotions in my body lately. i will keep this in mind and practice it as much as i can. thank you so so much, this is not my first brain injury and the loss of control has been hard to deal with emotionally. i appreciate this so much 🩷

[puppygirlsrituals]

im still working on the idea of being Extremely Visibly physically disabled, hopefully temporarily but we have no idea what my disability will look like through recovery. ive let go of a lot of embarrassment about being disabled- and i have to immediately pick up that work again with new symptoms. i cant lie and say im not nervous to see people again. its probably because the symptoms seem So obvious right now. my wobble is very very visible and my walking is distinctly Injured

[puppygirlsrituals]

i think its really important for people to know: if you get a brain injury, be prepared for whatever routine youre in to Go Out The Fucking Window. i was taking 2 hour morning walks at 6 am with my partner and a cup of coffee so we could go watch the ducks and geese. however immediately after getting injured i have slept for 12 hours every day except today and i havent been back on a walk yet because i cant stand straight or walk without wobbling

[puppygirlsrituals]

6 days into concussion recovery. a lot of things have improved but i have a terrible wobble that my partner has lovingly termed "flamingo-ing" but honestly i think i look more like a duck crossing the road, the way my head bobs

[puppygirlsrituals]

its getting easier. its still hard, but its getting easier

[puppygirlsrituals]

MAN i was getting motivated and getting ready to fix my shit. and now all i can do is focus on recovery. doing everything i can to get through the day and hoping that i wake up with some improvement