The Definition of a Fling
Chapter 21 - Chapter 22 - Chapter 23
I Never Regretted Meeting You
By the time Amber woke up, TJ was still napping. She hugged and greeted Cyrus before going out to get something to eat. Everyone was hungry, but someone had to stay with TJ in case he woke up. Cyrus ended up volunteering to stay since he had spent the least time there and the most time in the cafeteria.
So there he was, sitting next to TJ resting in the hospital bed. He found it hard not to gaze at the boy and study his faint freckles. His long eyelashes. His poor busted lips.
He wanted to kiss them better.
Cyrus continued to stare at TJ’s peaceful expression until he began to stir. Cyrus arose in panic. TJ let out a slight groan as he turned his head towards Cyrus. He eventually fluttered his eyes open. TJ raised his eyebrows in shock. Cyrus stood frozen in place. All of a sudden, the fears of TJ still hating him came back to haunt him. TJ slowly sat up on the bed, then looked down at his hands.
Too much silence for Cyrus to bear. He stepped forward, causing TJ to turn his head towards him.
“How are you feeling?” Cyrus whispered, fearing to speak louder. TJ rubbed his right knuckles as he looked down again.
“O-Okay,” TJ croaked. Hearing the hoarseness of his voice was all it took for Cyrus to start crying. TJ looked up at Cyrus just in time to see a silent tear roll down his cheek. That broke him.
“I’m so sorry. For everything. You did not deserve this at all,” Cyrus continued to cry, causing his voice to break.
“You have nothing to be sorry for. This was not your fault,” TJ reassured.
“I just can’t help but feel like I contributed to this. I feel like somehow it’s my fault.”
“Hey no, come here,” TJ whispered raspily, extending his hand out. Cyrus gently took it and was brought closer. “I don’t blame you for anything. This was all my doing-”
“No do not blame yourself! You were knocked out by your own father for fucks sake this was in no way your fault!”
“Okay obviously my dad’s the one to blame,” TJ forced a chuckle but immediately regretted it. He winced at the shock of pain.
“Fuck TJ,” Cyrus cursed, rubbing TJ’s back with his free hand.
“No, TJ. You’re not okay. You’re in pain. You’ve experienced years of internalized homophobia stacked upon physical and mental abuse. How are you really okay?” TJ looked away from Cyrus, trying and failing not to cry. He ended up shaking his head.
“I’ve never been okay. There was no such thing as being okay. I guess I will never know what being okay actually is,” TJ sniffed and used his hospital gown to wipe his cheeks. Cyrus reached out to wipe the rest of the tears off with his thumb.
“Don’t say that. You will.” Cyrus cupped TJ’s cheek, grabbing his attention. “TJ, there is nothing stopping you from being yourself now. You’re surrounded by people who love you for who you are...I love you for who you are..” Cyrus bit his lip timidly. His hand still caressed TJ’s cheek as he waited for his response. TJ closed his eyes.
“Cy…” TJ muttered under his breath.
“I’m sorry.. I was stupid. I should’ve known better.”
“Cyrus,” TJ grabbed a hold of Cyrus’ hands. He pulled him closer to where their eyes were inches apart. “I regret a lot of things. I regret how...our relationship..went down. I regret the choices I made when we were together..” TJ cleared his throat, desperate for what was left of his voice. “Cyrus I never regretted meeting you. I never will. It sucks that we had to go through all of this but...that night at the club, when I first saw you. It was the best night I’ve ever had.”
“I’m so sorry,” Cyrus let out a sob as he fell into TJ’s arms. TJ huffed as he felt a little pain from the sudden hug. He still consoled Cyrus, wrapping his arms around him as tight as he could.
“No I’m sorry. I should have never said those things to you...I still want to be with you.” Cyrus moved up from TJ’s shoulder so he could look at him. TJ stared back, sneaking quick glances of his lips. Cyrus seemed to notice though, as he cupped his cheeks once again. TJ moved his arms down to Cyrus’ lower back gently pulling him closer. Cyrus was sitting on the bed by now.
He leaned in closer. He gazed into his green eyes that were once clouded with darkness. They twinkled with desperation.
“I really want to kiss you,” TJ breathed out.
“Me too.” Cyrus rubbed his thumb against TJ’s cheek, leaning in even closer so that their lips were barely centimeters apart. TJ shut his eyes. He pulled Cyrus towards him one last time.
Their lips fell into place. What started off as soft and slow escalated into a deep and longing kiss. Warmth immediately spread throughout their bodies. Cyrus could feel TJ’s heart beat against their chests. TJ gently bit Cyrus’ lip, making him giggle. Both of them ended up laughing as they continued to kiss some more. They were both happy, in love, and there was nothing that could ruin it for them.
Then Marty opened the door and walked in on them.
“What the hell dude?!” TJ’s voice cracked.
Andi popped up behind Marty and smirked at Cyrus. If Cyrus was not blushing before, he certainly was then.
“Damn squeaky, I just came here to chill. Didn’t expect to walk into a chick-flick,” Marty pulled out his phone and sat on one of the guest chairs. Andi crossed her arms with an amused expression.
“What are you laughing at?” TJ raised an eyebrow at Andi.
Note: one! more! chapter! tonight! also yay the angst is over! maybe!
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