Prompts from last week’s work prompts on the Fendersfanatics discord server: words that inspired: ghost, trembling and moonlight.
He wasn’t meant to see it, the way Fenris’s hands trembled after he staggered out of the ghostly in between he traveled during battle. Even now he was like a ghost, taking longer to return fully to this world. Gauntlet covered hands clenched into fists quickly, undoubtedly to stifle the shaking, but Anders had seen it. As Fenris solidified he bowed his head, a cascade of silver in the moonlight obscuring much of his face in shadow save for a frown.
“It’s getting worse. Why didn’t you tell me?” Anders couldn’t hold the anger from his voice as he tried to catch his breath. The anger was easier than the worry that chilled him more than the Fereldan winter around them.
Anders flipped his staff to his back with a practiced grace that belied the ache in his old bones. His voice was stark in the stillness of the battle's end. The dead bandits lay silent and all that could be heard was wind in the pines and breath of the two old men as it clouded the air where they stood in the now bloodied snow. It had been the first of the year and with the moons so full Anders had talked Fenris into a stroll despite the chill.
“It’s just the cold”, Fenris said. Once upon a time the smoothness of the lie would have satisfied Anders but he knew better now.
“Like Void it is, you should have told me!”, Anders said. His frost-numbed hands found blood slick metal and without even needing to look, found the hidden leather straps to release a gauntlet- and then he held nothing, air pushed from his lungs as his back met the trunk of a tree. Fenris’s eyes were wide, his hand still outstretched, before he cast his gaze to the scarlet snow at their feet. Fenris didn’t look old, like many elves the years did not mark him as sharply as humans and his hair had always been white for as long as Anders had known him. In that moment thought, in that moment he looked aged, as if the weight of his years had suddenly crushed him.
Anders would not have it.
“Not the first time you’ve pushed me into a tree, though I did prefer the last time,”Anders wheezed and pushed himself up with a reassuring smile. The reminder of their last anniversary did not stir a smile from his taciturn love.
“I’m sorry, I-,” Fenris started.
“I know”, Anders interrupted. His hands longed to reach out, his tongue to argue for a thorough examination right here, but time had tempered his impulsivity. Time with his husband had taught him and he knew better now. He stepped towards Fenris slowly.
“I should have asked before I grabbed you. I’m sorry,”Anders said and slowly touched the fingertips of one hand to the gaps in Fenris’s gauntlet. “I won’t do that again without asking, but could you take them off? I’d like to hold your hand the rest of the walk home”.
Fenris was very still in that way that Anders could never be. Anders could hear the cawing of a crow in the distance as he rolled his lip between his teeth.
“It might not be safe if there are more of them,” the elf said.
“I’ll take the chance if you will. Call me foolish if you will, it’s true enough. I’m a fool for you”, Anders said.
Fenris looked up and his eyes were soft. He silently undid his gauntlet and hung them from his belt. His hand warmed Anders as they walked along the path in the forest and Anders didn’t mention the tremors he felt. There would be time enough for that discussion later when they were warm in their cottage. Right now he was just going to enjoy a walk with his husband in the moonlight.