Thank you God for getting me to Payday again. But of course being a human being after saying this I'm going to complain about something.
For the third time someone with a quarter of the experience that I have has been made my department head. This has happened so many times now that I don't even know why I expect otherwise or I let it get to me.
I think they look at me and see that I am feeble on the outside so they assume I am mentally feeble too and give me the least amount of responsibility they can.
At this point I don't care it's an advantage because I don't have to do that much work but of course my ego takes a hit every time. The people that used to treat me as equals or no longer working there. Except for one person and when we work together she was so controlling and mean sometimes that I couldn't work with her. Now that we are not working directly together we're best buddies and she's literally the only person left now that treats me like a contemporary and appear. I swear to God the rest of them treat me like I am one of the students.
When I was diagnosed with autism it was over the summer. And I came back very happy and excited and let the principal know that I had gotten a diagnosis and because I was happy with it. However that principle did nothing but use it against me and now that principle is a superintendent. Albeit in our district do we have 13 superintendents for us in town of 9,000 people. So yeah there's that. When I told the principal what I did, I did it as a way of hopefully explaining why I had bad memory lapses at work and why I had had to meltdowns because of the other department head yelling at me constantly. And I thought they would say oh okay you have autism will that make sense we will it try to keep you away from those triggers.
Nope they have spent the last 5 years using it against me.
So my advice is, if you hope to be looked at as a fellow contemporary and an adult at work do not let anyone know you have autism. Don't even say anything about being on the spectrum because they hear the autism word and they think helpless.
Mask up like it is Halloween boys and girls, because if you are working at a school, they will help an autistic child but an autistic adult gets thrown to the wolves.
