After I fed the cats and made my morning coffee I decided to make some iced tea for the day. That is very normal, it is something I do pretty much daily. So, while my coffee cup sat on the Keurig waiting for me to take it in hand and enjoy, I filled the kettle and reached up to grab the Lousianne, and I looked around at the kitchen, feeling pleasure in the clean floor (because I had run the Rumba late last night) and was not picking up little granules from the floor on my soles. I took out 3 family-size bags, wrapped the little tags together and placed them in the pitcher. Screeecccccchh.
At this point I notice that one of the bags has come apart on one side, at the staple. thereby dumping teagrounds in the pitcher, and (I notice as I take a step back) all over the floor in front of the stove, where I am standing. Thus forcing me to notice all the little granules, or TEAGROUNDS I am now picking up on the soles of my feet. ARGH!!
Of course, I stop all I am doing and sweep up the tea, off the floor, before I can even begin my day with coffee
So this brings up the question, as I retrieve the coffee I have not even had a sip off of yet: Do I REALLY make up my own world, as I move through it as the Matrix mindset suggests? Oooooor are there little gremlins haunting my day to ensure that every little step is a trial? and an assault on my senses?
Lately, I have begun to call this 'RESISTANCE'.
The new agers seem to think I have implemented these little instances to sabotage my every movement and prevent my smooth sailing through the surf of my life, minute by minute.
The religiousity-ers suggest that dark forces are assailing us in the minutae of our daily life to sway us from focusing on God or forcing us to focus on God, whichever way the current trend seems to run, and which also seems to depend on the denomination or sect of each viewpoint. The point of which seems to be a constant battle between good and evil. Or Our higher and lower selves.
And these are the thoughts in which I now begin my day. Talking tea.
I think I need a Shepherds Chapel , now, because I am trying to align these thoughts (or doubts) within my new mindset and In this grand new awakening that has me focused more on gratitude and abundance than lack and need. and resistance to my smooth sailing throughout this magical world I always believed to exist.
What say you? Any insight into the teagrounds on my nice clean floor?
Or, as I notice when the tea has steeped and I now find 4 teabags in the pitcher rather than the three I chose to include, was that an ancestor alerting me to the fact that there were too many bags and I didn't need them all? You know, before I replaced the broken bag with a new one?
DO NOT BE ALARMED! It’s just Emily from my top secret blog because top secret things ya know O: (if you guys still don’t know who I am then check your facebook cuz I’m friends with all of you, and look for an Emily that follows you on tumblr) (also, Jazzy, you know who I am xD )
I was tagged by fickle-my-tancy (cute new profile picture yo)
Rules: once you’ve been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 92 truths about you. At the end choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you.
I tag: p0p-pvnk, teagrounds, yesthisistrash, pieceofkarsynn, and twindaggers (mwahaha)
1 - last beverage: Water, because I’m a party animal
2- last phone call: I really have no idea O.O probably one of my parents honestly xD
3 - last text message: from mah friend Sevaun
4 - last song you listened to: Slipped Away by Avril Lavigne (Avril is life)
5 - last time you cried: last night O.O or never o: take your pick
HAVE YOU EVER
6 - dated someone twice: yesh I have
7 - been cheated on: yes indeedy, probably deservingly honestly
8 - kissed someone and regretted it: yeah mahn
9 - lost someone special: yes I have Dx
10 - been depressed: I’ve had Depression my whole life so I’m just gonna leave that hangin there
11- been drunk and threw up: nope, I don’t drink and never will
12- THREE FAVORITE COLOURS: cerulean (go ahead, google it, your life will be changed FOREVER), black, and, idk. Does Silver count as a color? Or maybe crimson?
IN THE LAST YEAR, YOU HAVE
15 - made a new friend: YESH many much friends
16 - fallen out of love: nope o:
17 - laughed until you cried: actually, surprisingly yes
18 - met someone who changed you: yis
19 - found out who your true friends are: well, I found out that sometimes family members completely shut you out of their life after you stop letting them walk all over you. Sorry for thinking we were family for the entire 19 years of my life so far?
20 - found out someone was talking about you: oh goodness I hope not
21 - kissed anyone you follow/follows you: technically?
22 - how many people do you know in real life that you follow/follows you on tumblr: UM 3
24 - do you have any pets: all of my pets are imaginary
25 - do you want to change your name: Dude I woulda in the past but my name’s kinda growin on me ya know
26 - what did you do for your last birthday: I went to my friend’s graduation shindig which was also a combo 3 people’s b-day party AND someone’s engagement party; It was mucho fun with lots of cake
27 - what time did you wake up today: the ONE day I don’t check the clock Dx 1-1:30ish pm
28 - what were you doing at midnight last night: organizing my music because I’m super cool
29 - name something you CANNOT wait for: something I’m excited for? Meeting some people, seeing some people again (also if one of them ends up being who I’m supposed to spend my life with, that’d be great, thanks)
30 - last time you saw your mother: yesterday
31 - what is one thing you wish you could change about your life: I would’ve done a better job of standing up for people instead of being afraid for myself
32 - what are you listening to right now: Alice by Avril Lavigne. Seriously guys, my music is on shuffle
33 - have you ever talked to a person named Tom: Yes I have xD
34 - what’s getting on your nerves right now: the internet in my room SUCKS and there’s a visitor here .-. go to better internet but have to get dressed and then interact with people? HA no
35 - most visited website: I don’t know O.O probably tumblr or Facebook or Pinterest
36 - blood type: dragon, true story
37 - nickname: Emmy, Em, Spark, hey you (not the last one anymore really)
38 - relationship status: I am a pringle and ready to single. wait
39 - zodiac sign: Gemini but I honestly don’t match a lot of the stuff that’s been going around so we could maybe say I just haven’t been discovered yet XD
40 - pronouns: she, her, and the almighty dragon queen (usually the last one)
41 - elementary: Lake Hazel Elementary, Desert Sage Elementary
42 - high school: Mountain View High School
43 - college: you too, tumblr?! no gosh darnit
44 - hair colour: dark brown
45 - long or short: long ish?
46 - height: 5′10ish
47 - do you have a crush on someone: aw mahn I love and care about some people but crush? nah mahn
48 - what do you like about yourself: my heart is the size of Mars, so besides the fact that my heart makes me float around in space, that’s pretty rad o: also I like to think I’m pretty darn good at writing and art
49 - random fact: um, Lights Bokan used to have the name Valerie Anne (MY MIDDLE NAME IS ANNE) Poxleitner until she got into the music biz o: she went by Lights and discovered there was a band called Lights so she couldn’t keep that name unless it was her legal name. She got her name legally changed to Lights o: Also she married Beau Bokan from blessthefall which has pretty rad music too, and they have a lil’ girl named Rocket
50 - tattoos: nope o:
51 - righty or lefty: righty
52 - first surgery: NOTHING O:
53 - first piercing: I don’t have any xD
54 - first best friend: this dude named Brian. We are secret spies for Cebar and are trying to take down DJ
55 - first sport you enjoyed: I’ve always loved so many sports Dx probably Soccer or Basketball
56 - first vacation: family reunion to Colorado
58 - first pair of trainers: uh like I know that
RIGHT NOW
59- eating: nothing DX I’m so hungry but there are people over
60 - drinking: air o.o as soon as I get something it’s gonna be water though, cuz I’m a daredevil ya know
61 - I’m about to: play Patapon on mah PSP until the visitor leaves and then I’m gonna eat breakfast XD
62 - listening to: Running With The Boys by Lights!!!! She’s my favorite artist in the universe
63 - waiting for: the people I care about to be happy
64 - want kids: someday maybe
65 - get married: yeah I’d like to marry someone some day, but tumblr, I just don’t feel that way about you
66 - career: I am a dragon
WHICH IS BETTER
67 - lips or eyes: uh idk Dx personality?
68 - hugs or kisses: hugs for sure
69 - shorter or taller: taller guys, shorter girls
70 - older or younger: my age or older guys, my age or younger girls
71 - romantic or spontaneous: Romantic o: dude my anxiety will be so angry at both of us if big things are sprung on me DX
72 - nice stomach or nice arms: I’m gonna go with nice personality, the invisible third option
73 - sensitive or loud: somebody who is sensitive but who can also be loud at the appropriate moments, ie: screaming competitions
74 - hook-up or relationship: relationship all the way, I don’t hook up
75 - trouble maker or hesitant: dude if you’re a trouble maker and I’m in love with you, I can guarantee that my heart is hurting. please no
HAVE YOU EVER
76 - kissed a stranger: no o.o
77 - drank hard liquor: nope, and never going to
78 - lost glasses/contacts: no, thankfully xD
79 - sex on first date: nope
80 - broke someones heart: unfortunately:/
81 - had your own heart broken: yeah, unfortunately as well
82 - been arrested: no, big surprise, I know xD
83 - turned someone down: yes, a couple people .-. also, let me just throw this out there: If you ask someone out as a joke and laugh about it with your friends, shame on youuu
84 - cried when someone died: yeah, I miss you guys <3
85 - fallen for a friend: yesh yesh yesh oopsie
DO YOU BELIEVE IN
86 - yourself: most of the time ^-^
87 - miracles: definitely
88 - love at first sight: maybe if you’re predestined to be together like soulmates or something and your soul remembers them?
89 - heaven: yesh O:
90 - Santa Claus: I AM SANTA o:
91 - kiss on first date: no o:
92 - angels: yesh
