Jul 22, 2014
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I miss our monopoly houses and the freezing cold. How the bathroom was hella far so in the morning we had to run for it. How there was only two stalls and how when girls finished taking a shower they ran in their towels to their room trying not to be seen. Our silent time. Our group talks. The food. The cleaning. The bonding at night playing baby just smile. The hot chocolate. Our silent time. Looking out into the river. Chopping wood with doc. The californios. Our walk during silent time. Our mini rave the first night. Star gazing. Confessions. Playing apples to apples. Playing ping pong. Smiling for real. Crying my eyes out. Running from table to table hugging people. Washing. Playing I love my neighbor. Piano in the chapel. Ms Levine's laugh. Sitting on the floor around the candle in the dark. Wrapped up in blankets. Hugs. The fire. Throwing away pain and regrets. The music. And mostly my family I made and everything about it.
Dear God,
I'd like to pray for a few people who are my family: For Erick may he get better For Megan B. and her family For Megan A and her auntie For Julie and her family For Lou keep him strong For Troy And for the rest of TCB, everything will be okay fam. You're all in my prayers. Please God keep them safe and strong. Amen
After retreat I realized my mood has totally changed. I feel more me again . I'm always smiling at school and I'm on my workout grind again. I just feel good. I want to look good for me and I miss that feel of my smile on my face. On that upward smile! I swear I love my retreat family they helped me get this way and I can never be more greatful. I look forward to school everyday now! And I'm SOOO excited for my classes next semester they are about to be SOOOO fun! Whoot.
Being here is getting harder to do day by day. I can't wait to see my #teamcrybabies I need that smile on my face.
Retreat; October 26-28 2011
On repeat: keep holding on by avril lavigne
This past Thursday to Friday i went on a life changing experience with people who used to just be in my class and who came out being family and one of the most important people in my life. Going on this was such a blessing. These amazing and inspiring people taught me so much. They taught me to trust, love truly, and that everyone has a story. These group of people gave me so much strength. I cried so much during these past few days and I laughed just as much. Not once did I ever feel judged. The last day I cried the whole time, the bus ride was the worst because I was leaving I was leaving a place that gave me the peace, calm, and happiness I had been missing for a few months. The past few months in my life have been so hard for me and these people made me forget it all for a few days. I made me realize things and feel a connection I hadn't felt in a while. So many people could relate to each other and that was such an amazing yet tough experience. it's hard to put everything that this meant to me in words because no one will truly understand what it meant except those who shared it with me. I am so grateful for these people and for this opportunity. Every time someone asks me how retreat was I can do nothing but say it was intense but in reality it was life changing and to some people it may seem like i'm crazy but I don't care. I will remember this experience forever and if I sadly never talk to some of these people after the end of this year I will always have my memories of this time I will have the love I felt and the happiness that came with it. Thank you God for this I needed this so much, life has been so hard lately and they made it easier they made me stronger. I wish I could stop crying though because all I want to do is go back because being here is too painful. Escaping for a while was too nice to just be ripped from under me. All the memories from those days can make me cry for days. I miss you guys soo much. Thank you from the bottom of my heart you helped fix me up again and I will be forever and eternally grateful for that I just want to hug you all and be around our fire for one last time or looking out to the river, star gazing, getting ready to sleep in our monopoly houses or in our chapel all together again. I miss you.