Confused
That feeling you get where you want to be adventurous and something out of the ordinary but then you figure that what's driving you is because you're trying to get over a break up
Honestly, I want to be friendly and slightly flirty again (you know, like brush of the arm, patting backs of my male friends, etc.). I want to have a non-serious fling with someone of the opposite gender because I'm feeling lonely and would like someone to cuddle with and be close to while still keeping that small thrill of flirting but I think it's only because I miss everything like that when I was in a relationship.
And if you think about it, it's pretty unfair for the other party if I straight up and said that I never meant for anything to get serious. Heck, I might be disappointed in myself if he goes with someone else because I said we weren't serious (hypothetically).
It's really cold and lonely. And I know I shouldn't get into those kinds of attitudes because it's too soon for me (after 6 months or so, I still don't feel like I've "moved on").
Okay, I have crushes but not a serious one yet. And I don't have plans on pursuing them at the moment.
Sigh, I'm an adult. I should do anything I want while considering the consequences.
And this is a sign that I'm still not in the right state of mind for another serious/non-serious romance.
I miss him. I miss our stability. I miss our intimacy. I miss being warm.
I'm so confused, grahhhh...
I feel unafraid to start a new romance but I might be overestimating my ability to handle heartbreaks...
Dear paperfrays,
Just a little longer, okay?
-paperfrays