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Can I come to the wedding?

Yes, you can be our witness

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Make or Break

Well, talked to my boyfriend and we've pretty much hit make or break point. I laid it on the line: where I stand with our relationship. How I don't feel appreciated or that he cares. How I still don't know how to interact with his family and don't feel that will get easy any time soon. (Sorry, Auntie* is cool and very nice, but I don't need her to mother me and it rubs me wrong). How I'm not quite happy (it could be my depression acting up, though). That I can no longer wait for "I'm working on it"s in regards to our problems. And we'll see where it goes. I honestly don't know if our problems are purely circumstantial (we have had a shit ton of difficult shit come up since we started dating), our mutual mental health issues (he has clinical depression and ADHD; I have bipolar II and anxiety), those combined, or we're just plain old not meant to be. Sometimes it feels led like we love each other and more like we're two desperate, lonely people clinging to each other, afraid of being alone and too tired to try again. (Can you tell I'm cynical?) I know that if we do, I'll probably break from dating and get back into poly and sex work. (I was poly right before dating him and I've been considering getting back into some aspects of sex work for a while). In the end, I guess we'll see. He's going to try to take care of his stuff, I take care of mine, and see if anything gets better.

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I'm mad at my boyfriend again. He takes me to his place so we can study, even though I told him that I need to go home and go to sleep because I'm exhausted and I have to get up for work at 5am. And whenever we go to his place, we get stuck there for hours just talking to his family. And here we are, an hour later, waiting for his brother's girlfriend to come over for birthday dinner and presents... This is when I wanted to be in bed, asleep. And I am pissed.

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The Flower of Death

Blooming in the fertile soil of my love for you.. The flower of life grows strong and beautiful . My life is that flower that you planted and watered with your love and you are the sun . Without you it would wither and decay and return to the soil . Ending as my life would.

When you are hurt, or tortured or abused another flower grows , the flower of death.. growing in the soil of mindless rage and endless hate. It grows but is not alive, it is the very meaning of death. Killing everything around it.

You are my life You are more than my life You are the universe You are more than the universe When you are hurt.. the oceans of love turn to oceans of hate. I would say that when you hurt I hurt too but that is a lie, in that spot where the flowers grew, when you hurt I die.

- Kevin Woo

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Words Are Meaningless

  Words are meaningless

to contain my love for you..

emotions and feelings that

flow within my heart don’t  fit into

the tiny characters on this page. 

Oceans of love, stirring and moving

with powerful undercurrents

and storms raging on the surface.

Simple combinations of letters

can’t hold their overwhelming

majesty

  Nevertheless,

here I am.. trying to contain them..

trying to make you see the infinite with

the finite

trying to make you feel  eternity with the

tools of the temporary and transient.

Words are meaningless but I will use them

anyway.

    I’ll use these small instruments to cut out

my heart and place it

on the page.

So you might get a sense of the ocean

from these tiny drops of water.

So you might know that

when I say  ‘I love you’

There’s an ocean

underneath.

  -          Kevin Woo

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♥ x ∞ (I'm in love with you times infinity)

Send ❤ for a lusty/loving/affectionate message

[text] My Teddy. I walked outside and it was so cold, I was freezing all day at work. All I could think about is how warm your arms are when you hold me. Whether it's your human form or wolf form, you're my warmth and I always look for you to keep me warm. Hurry safely back home to me

Send ✘ for an unsent text

[text] I just found the cutest present for you, I can't wait to give it you, I can just see your face now. I bet you can't guess what it is

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☀ x infinity

-smug-

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*loves you forever*

-keeps you forever-