#tempest babbles

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OK YOU KNOW WHAT FUCK IT, G/EN’S A F/O NOW N ID LIKE TO SMOOCH HIM TY 😔🤟

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Oh goodness I woke up this morning thinking about S.imeon I hate this so much,,,

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mutuals please remember me challenge 

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I just downloaded the mobile version of T.umblr n of course one of the recommended posts thingies for my blog (idk what you call them so god bless if you get what i mean cause I don’t) has to be the one that I wrote during a particularly rough time 😔🤟

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@self-shipping-skittles​ TY FOR ENABLING ME BUT JUST A WARNING THESE H/CS SUCK ASS KANSMSKWW 

So basically this G/entaro is a T/atsu A.u was kinda based of the V.ocaloid song  T/he B/east!!

But anyways, Headcannons!!

I was imagining G/entaro to be a T/atsu (since they can shape shift n stuff) n he kinda chills in this mountain near a rural J/apanese village which is also in the mountains which is where our story begins!! 

In this AU, I’m a new waitress in this tea shop/restaurant that G/entaro is a regular at!! R/amuda is somehow the head waiter at the tea shop n we’re tea buddies! 

Ok so since he has this really really mysterious™️ vibe to him n all, I get really curious bout him n R/amuda notices that so like the lil shiet that he is, he always makes me take G/entaro’s order n stuff n like the lil shit that G/en is he always orders these complex ass orders n every time I’m mentally like ‘bro wtf’ he ends up saying ‘Uso desu yo~’ 

Somehow or rather he starts to initiate small chat when I serve his tea n food n stuff and I’m here just SCREAMING INTERNALLY ALNDKSKSW 

After weeks of these kinda interactions, I somehow get the courage (with some help from R/am too) to ask him if he maybe wants to hang out and walk round town one day when I’m free,, maybe? N by some god like chance he says yes !!

We eventually become really close friends and the like n yet I still feel that there’s something he’s hiding from me,,, especially since i don’t know where he lives n stuff n that’s a bit suspicious In my opinion. Especially since he’s known for lying really casually bout a ton of things,,

N NOW THIS IS WHERE ALL THE T/ATSU STUFF COMES IN BECAUSE I SWEAR THIS ISNT JUST A TEA SHOP AU ALDNDKKS

So when we eventually start dating, I still have this nagging feeling that he’s hiding something but whenever I try to bring it up he always ends up lying bout it 

However on one fine night when we’re cuddling together in my house, it also happens to be the night that I’m planning to ask him bout it and hopefully get the truth outta him (IDK HOW TO PHRASE THAT AKDNDKSK), he looks me straight in the eyes n tells me that he has been hiding this big secret from me all of this time!!

Mentally I’m all like ‘are you sure bout that m8 you ‘uso Desu yo uwu’ me every time you say some shit like that but this time I can see that he’s legit serious because of the way his eyes look n stuff!! (I also dk how to phrase that 😔🤟)

So he reveals to me that he’s actually a T/atsu!! N I’m just here like ‘‘what wtf dude this is the worst lie that you could tell me am I supposed to believe that,,’

G/en is all like ‘i understand that you’d doubt me but I have a way to prove it to you that I’m not lying’ n since we’re in my house n all he shapeshifts into his half T/atsu form (He has the dragon horns n the tail) n I am just straight up SHOOK because holy cow I was NOT expecting that n cause wow,,, he looks so so beautiful... 

I somehow don’t pass out from this news and I’m really really touched n stuff that he trusts me so much that he’d allow me to see that so I smooch him on the lips n tell him that I’m genuinely happy that he trusts me so much that he’d allow me see his Half T/atsu form n I still love him so much despite that 

Eventually I do see his full T/atsu form n I am once again in awe because Holy cow I love this man so much and his T/atsu form is also fucking beautiful,,, 

I also eventually gets to see where he lives in the mountains n all and we would usually watch the sunrise together from his home in the mountains!! (N THATS ALL SORRY THAT ENDED KINDA ABRUPTLY BUT IM SOFT NOW ARGHHH) 

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So today huh...

the anon message could not have come at a worse time. I’ve been feeling the lowest of lows for the past few days (ESPECIALLY last night) and I don’t have anywhere else to vent except here cause I don’t really have a good support system at home or outside of this hell site in general which is why I vent a ton here.

Honestly seeing that message made me wanna hurl because I was NOT expecting something so mean to wake up to n I’m not gonna lie, I spent my whole morning crying about everything n my whole afternoon thinking bout what they said. I was planning to post some HCs for an AU idea I had today but I was very very afraid to do so because of what they said. 

But,,, thanks to some friends both on n off t.umblr n my own self reflecting that I realized some things!! Firstly, why should I even care bout the opinion of some arse who’s hiding behind their screen? n secondly, this is my blog n my n if people don’t like how I vibe then that’s their problem, not mine. Yes I know I should’ve actually learnt n used these earlier but still!! Better now than later~

Anyways! One thing lead to another n I’ve also kinda figured out the main cause of why I’ve been so upset but the main point is that I’ve also decided on some stuff bout my blog n to make myself actually feel comfy n safe when I’m on this site!! 

I’m still gonna vent here because as I said earlier I really have no where else to vent BUT!! Aside from my vents, all other forms of negativity is gonna be yeeted out from my blog from now on! Discourse n Reblogs of self degrading posts? I don’t know them! Hate asks? *plays the Y/okohama W/alking T/riple T/rippin remix to drown the haters out* I’m gonna actively put my comfort n happiness first so watch out world!! :D

I’m also not gonna lie, I have a new instilled fear of checking my inbox cause of the anon. So in order to get rid of that fear, I’m putting an ask game in my queue n hopefully I can answer any asks if I get any tomorrow morning !! I know it’s a pretty weird way to try n get over the fear but still I think it may work n stuff so yea!! Also anon is still gonna be turned off for awhile though so sorry about that ;; Basically!! This month is gonna be the month that I start putting my happiness first n getting rid of negativity on my blog except for vent posts because honestly? I deserve to be happy!! Plus my school hold is for the whole month of March n I don’t wanna spend the other half of the month moping around!!

It’s gonna take a ton of time to completely get over what the anon said n to officially be more confident™️ in myself but baby steps!!! Baby steps (*•̀ᴗ•́*)و ̑̑

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R/am: Even if we don’t share our secrets, you two are still my true P/osse~!

Me on the verge of tears: they’re still his true P/osse...

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UNLIKE POPULAR BELIEF I DONT HAVE UWUS FOR S.HU N I DONT FIND HIM CUTE AT ALL /s