When I was a child I believed that adolescence would be like the live-action Disney and Nickelodeon series. type •austin and alley• or maybe •Drake and josh•. parties, concerts, going out with friends, going to 'a shopping center' (why do they still put teenagers doing those things in series and movies? All of that is, at least in my country, fucking expensive. Maybe teenagers from 2010 and the years before that) and all that stuff... adolescence feels more like a fucking countdown to adulthood. And adulthood doesn't sound like I thought it would when I was 10 years old either! That sounds more like survival than anything else! rent, basic food, basic services (electricity, water, gas, etc...) and cleaning and hygiene items sound like a lot of money monthly. Also... minimum 40 hours of work per week to pay for things? (plus 56 of sleep) gives 72 hours of life per week! (sleeping and working/going to school does not count as 'alive'). I know that at that moment I will be alone. a lot. My mother is the only relative I have in the entire city, she is not going to live longer than my 23-25 because of her illness. Dad hasn't been there for me since I was 11, the drug addict bastard 250 miles from my city. Countdown again, tick tock, tick tock, your time will run out nereus! Get scared.