#textosterone

[i-am-my-own-false-witness]

[genders-haver]

i wnat to sfcream and rip open my body i want to ddie but there are good things coming but i want to fuccking die i dont even know why but life is too confusing and ive been carving up my arms again and i know my friends will respond with a little haphazard "dont do that :(" and im tired of it i dont wnt to be here any more i wnat to be 1 trillion miles away where i dont need to deal with my problems and i cant bother anyone and maybe my corporeal form will be torn to shreds through lightyears of intense space travel and i can finally fucking die. if i really fuck up the cops will just come to my fucking house again and ill become even more paranoid than i am now but im not gonna kill myself because i know this is gonna pass but it hurts so much

[genders-haver]

all i do is disappoint and scare people ;)))))

im an asshole ;ooo

[genders-haver]

im doing a correlation study on bmi and fast food restaurants per 1,000 people in u.s. states and the data is showing that as the amount of restaurants grows, bmi decreases??? i am mad and confused

[genders-haver]

im gonna eat my problems away

and inevitably have a panic attack holla

[genders-haver]

why do i have to carry the burden of my mental diseases? why am i cursed with this panic-ridden life? why can't i move past even the smallest sad things?

i hate being in this mindset but school is once again rearing its ugly head. i've been fine all break and now im fucking dying

the worst part is this is the only place i have to talk about it and everyone will think less of me for it

im tired of caring this much. i want to die but that would be selfish and i have too much going for me to let go but im gonna be fucking miserable again next week and im tired of it

im not going to kill myself. sorry

[genders-haver]

starting my homework aka i want to die

[genders-haver]

i think a robot boyfriend would be cool because we could go on adventures and idk fly through space and make out or something

we could watch the stars as they blaze past at light speed as the effervescent cosmos envelopes our bodies, flesh and steel

robot boyfriends man