Your life NOW, is an amalgamation of every choice you have made, and or, blindly accepted. This is YOUR DREAM come true.
If there is anything in YOUR LIFE NOW, that you do not like, then you, and ONLY YOU, need to start making DIFFERENT CHOICES. It is your life and YOUR RESPONSIBILITY.
It is a complete denial of existence, when you begin to say, "but I did not choose this." So long as you deny YOUR PART IN CHOOSING, and or accepting, you will never be able to change a thing.
Sad, but true, most people are clueless to the fact that most of the choices they made, they made through a generalized ignorance of existence. They accepted and or submitted to what someone else had told them. They never even stopped for a moment to inquire, if this was something that was, either good or bad or harmful, let alone, if it is true to their own soul.
For myself, the best place to start ... is with questioning everything and comparing it to a very simple standard. My standard. The "litmus test" to everything I think and everything I do, is this ... Does it make me happy? Does it cause harm? If it causes any harm at all, I either stop doing it or will not do it. If it makes me happy, but causes some harm, I stop doing it or will not do it. If it makes me happy, and does not cause harm, then I am good to go.
May all your days be filled with smiles, hugs, love and happiness.
--tfc