BIG GIRLS CRY ➝ DASSIE.
TAGGING ➝ Cassidy Harper, Danielle Harper.
LOCATION ➝ Dani and Gaby’s house.
TIME FRAME ➝ 1/11, evening.
WARNINGS ➝ None.
NOTES ➝ Cassie is very confused about her night with Addy, and goes to the only person who knows about her totally-not-gay feelings.
CASSIDY HARPER
This was not a conversation Cassie expected to be having with her sister; at least not again. Once had been more than enough, and Cassie had been devastated about it then. Why? She had no idea. It wasn’t as if Dani was any form of straight, or like she would judge her for not being completely hetero herself, but Cassie just couldn’t admit it, not even to herself. She hated herself for these feelings she was having, and even more so after last night.
She’d been shitfaced, sure, but aware enough to still remember what she was doing. If she’d really wanted to stop it, she would’ve been able to before it’d even started, but she’d been all too eager to go back to Adelaide’s place with her, and the scariest part of it all was that she didn’t even completely regret it. Not until she’d gotten Addy’s text, anyway. It was hypocritical of her, since she’d literally just told the blonde she was a straight girl experiment, but Adelaide’s response made her feel kind of used. Even though she knew for sure that that wasn’t the case.
Cassie’s head was spinning, and not only from the killer hangover she was suffering through. She’d drank way too much last night. She’d also taken to eating less and less lately, which made her feel terrible in general. All of that, plus being an idiot and crying in her bedroom about how disgusted she was with herself for being so into what had happened last night, was just really screwing with her head. It felt like it was about to explode as she made the short journey from she and Dena’s place to her sister’s.
Pulling up outside, she’d checked her reflection in the mirror. Cassie had forgone makeup today, which was probably smart, since her mascara would be running right down her cheeks right now. But also not, because her eyes were all red and puffy without anything to conceal them. She couldn’t bring herself to care too much, though, and climbed out of her car, heading quickly to Dani’s house and letting herself in. She didn’t need anybody seeing her.
“I’m so not in the mood for this,” she said, her voice croaky from all of the yelling—and total screaming—last night, plus with the way she’d been crying. She’d been speaking to Gaby’s dogs, who were circling her legs and jumping up at her. She resisted the urge to kick them away, instead walking past them and their owner who just had to ask if she was okay. Cassie just glared at her, with the other girl telling her Dani was in her room, then headed upstairs without a word. She didn’t bother to knock on her sister’s door; instead just letting herself in and instantly feeling her eyes start to fill up again as she looked at the other girl.
“I fucked up.”