This is MY life! Wow!
I’m looking at these beautiful pictures from the last week since I arrived at site. The craziest thing is, this is MY life! That is so hard to believe sometimes. Growing up, I would have never thought that I would be doing something like this, I would see people living in other countries and doing hard things and think, “Jeez, they are living such a cool life.” And it felt so distant. I thought I wanted to be a doctor my whole childhood and what a waste of focus that was because I didn’t want that at all, and I should have been focusing on learning as much as possible instead of just wanting people to be impressed with me or something, like as if becoming a doctor would prove that I could do more that people might assume I could do or something. I don’t really know.
I wish I could talk to myself as a child and tell her to JAI YEN YEN (cool your heart). Your life will be glorious and you are incredibly strong and intelligent and loving and giving, and you don’t have to yell at people about your goodness because you don’t know yourself and you’re selling it all wrong. Just live and work hard and take risks and your journey will unfold in ways that are better than the future you try to invent for yourself. Be true to your self and the people who are meant to be in your journey will be there, and they will do what they need to do to stay there if that is where they belong. Don’t try to make them do things that are not doing from their heart, and if they don’t want to give you anything then don’t give them everything. Just accept your life and the people in it who lift you up and accept your journey just the same, and you will be pleasantly surprised with the result.
I’m still learning a lot of these lessons. I’m grateful that I took this leap and that I continue to push myself to do hard things daily, so I can learn about my true self, help others in the process, and live my most authentic and natural life.
