I woke up today and I went to search Chris Benoit matches and I came across his Wrestlemania moment with Eddie. All I could think was that these are two great legends gone, never to step foot in the ring again. I truly miss these two so much. Many may think my opinion about Benoit is unpopular but the man was in need of help, he basically lost his brother who he would go to for advice all the time. I can't help to feel sadden people call him a monster but don't understand the full story, not even I know the 100% details but what I can tell you is that this man had multiple issues prior to his last days. I'm no one to judge because we all do things good and bad, no one is perfect. We all make mistakes, period. The story of these two made me realize again how this can go so wrong without the proper help. I've done so wrong lately but I truly believe I want to get the help. I want to become a better person in my life, I'm tired of always living in negativity, change must come. I'm not the type to say "new year, new me" corny stuff but I truly want a better life. I miss you Eddie and Chris, I wish the help would have came sooner for you both. Their deaths did not go in vain, both paved a both for the wellness policy to make sure this never happens again. In my eyes true martyrs for the future. My eyes fill with tears writing this because I'm so afraid of getting the help I need because of judgement from the world and the negative stigma attached to it. It compels me deeply to my heart, get help and be labeled or never get the help and suffer with my demons. I will no longer be changed to this demon. I break my chains from these demons like a Phoenix from the ashes. It will be a long battle but I am a soldier. Thank you Eddie and Chris for all the moments and inspiration for me, my heart aches for you both. I already made this long enough but im gonna end it here, i can go all day. I'm not perfect, but I won't give up it takes one day at a time. #thankyoueddie #thankyoubenoit #eddieguerrero #chrisbenoit #wwf #WWE #motivation #inspiration #rise #mentalhealth #physicalhealth #betterme