with peace and love, those people are not your friends and continuing to hang out with them is only hurting you, both in that they are actively upsetting you but also by closing you off from making more friends. my advice is to branch out and then ditch them as quickly as possible
i fear you are right in the sense that they aren't the best for me and that they are actively upsetting me but at the same time, what can i do? cutting them out completely wouldn't work, i go to class with them
i struggle a lot socially, swinging from one extreme to the other and often giving people the wrong impression and misinterpreting a lot of action of other people and generally lack a lot of social skills
i am very aware that i am doing nothing more than victimizing myself here and that i should probably focus on finding a way to rip the wall down that keeps me from healing myself and helping myself in the long run but even thinking about it sounds so idk... painful or exhausting, i just want to curl into a ball and cry and never get up again so i think i'll just stay here for a bit longer until i have the energy to get up and do something about it
i've always tried to keep my problems away from others (with semi-successes) so much so that i have locked away the truth from everyone, including myself and i feel like i am lying to everyone, including myself and idk maybe i am also just misinterpreting everything and overreacting
but what i know is that i know not nearly as much as i think i know
and that they could try to see things from my perspectives from time to time and give me some grace, like i always do with them, i think that would help me a lot