sorry for the rant but idk where else to put my feelings.. i’m so happy for all my friends who have been in recovery or are recovering. i am beyond proud of them. it’s just when i look back at myself i feel kind of shitty. i don’t really feel like i’m in recovery of anything. i was put in treatment for an eating disorder, but since i never really suffered as much as my friends did, i don’t feel like my “recovery” is anything special. i was never hospitalized, i never lost my period. i don’t feel like i deserved to be cared about because i feel my “problems” were nothing compared to my friends who really deserved support. i was never sick enough to recover from anything. i’m not strong like my friends are. i’m not an ED warrior/survivor/etc. wow now i feel even shittier and selfish after seeing how many “i”s are in this post. lol.