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[thcboy]

ur moodboard (i guess ? ) r All so cool i love them

aaaa thank u sm!!!!! i kinda wing it most of time but im so glad that u like them !! <3 i just wanted more blk queer moodboards so. had to take matters into my own hands lolol

[thcboy]

can you tell us a bit about your experience with T? i’ll be starting in a few months but i’m a bit nervous. how do you soothe yourself enough to self inject?

hihi!! ofc, however let me preface by saying i only did 2 injections so far, and i started about 5 days ago!

first off, i was also super nervous! it's very natural to be, you shouldn't don't beat yourself up over it. you'll likely still be apprehensive on the day you inject, and that's normal too.

i do my injection subQ (subcutaneous, into the layer of fat and not the muscle). it's said to be less painful than IM (intramuscular, into the muscle). since i haven't done IM injections, i can't compare the two, but what i can say is that my subQ injections have been literally painless so far!

it was very anticlimactic actually. i didn't even feel the needle go in, and barely felt when i pushed the T in. i thought it would hurt like a vaccine needle does or a blood drawing one, but it genuinely isn't even comparable imo. i had a fairly painless experience.

to soothe myself before my first injection though, i called a close friend to just be on standby as i did it! it helped a lot to have someone to talk to and joke with, helped me settle a lot. if you're scared of pain, i also recommend either some numbing cream or an ice pack on the area where you're gonna do ur injection! what i also did was watching videos from other transmen/transmascs talking abt how they do it, the "do my tshot w me" typa vids, i also had a subQ injection tutorial in front of me as i did mine!

some people play music they like, have a show or movie they like playing in the bg, think also about what soothes you in general that you could do during your first injection.

for my second injection, i didn't do all of that because as i said, it ended up being pretty anticlimactic and a lot easier on the mind than i thought! i think the first one is genuinely the only one that's That anxiety inducing one because of the novelty and yk, needles are scary and uncomfortable in general man.

extra infos: im on testosterone cypionate 250mg/ml, im doing diy (due medical racism, transphobia and lack of professionals in my area), and i use 30g 1/2" insulin needles to inject! im doing 35mg of T twice a week, but im gonna switch to 70mg once a week because it's gonna be easier to maintain i think lol, esp considering the halflife and all.

[thcboy]

Hey I don’t know you but I read the notes on your last post and I wanted to send some words of comfort. I’m also transmasc, which is how I found your blog, and I was diagnosed with OCD almost two years ago. I remember how upsetting and difficult to process the diagnosis was, and I want to tell you that you will get through this. Since being diagnosed I’ve been able to better address and explain my symptoms. It’s been hard, but I’m in a much better place now, and I believe that you can get through this too. Wishing you all the best stranger 💜💜

heyy thank you soso so much for your kind words. it means a lot to me, genuinely. it's honestly very reassuring to hear.. it's been a bit hard dealing with this alone... so again thank you so so much for your kindness. i wish u all the best too!!!!