#the bread speaks

[evil-bread-offical]

So I'm 99% sure that I have ADHD, and I just walked past a local weed shop that has their windows open and now I'm feeling what people call "normal" behavior. My mind isn't racing like usual and my urges to do random things are gone. Is this what being normal is like? I don't like it. Bring back by weirdness.

[evil-bread-offical]

I am POLY! Not "CONFUSED" or a "CHEATER"!!! I have NEVER cheated on a test and I NEVER WILL!! Same with RELATIONSHIPS!!!

[the-best-bread]

I feel like an old person saying this but drinking kinda sucks. I was celebrating an accomplishment last night and got drunk about it and being a bit drunk was fun but once I started coming down it wasn't that fun anymore. This was also the first time I'd had alcohol in a few months cause stress and I already hadn't been enjoying it that much. Do people actually enjoy drinking?

[crappe-my-dude]

So I’ve worked in retail going on 5 years now and I am being so honest right now I cannot survive another year like this.

I’m fully aware that 95% of the problem is the current management of the store I work at but I feel like moving to a different store is just going to shift the problem around and not actually solve it.

In the last few months I’ve had to increase my SNRI dose to the maximum able to be prescribed and it’s barely making a difference. I’m having stress dreams and nightmares about work every night that skyrocket my anxiety so high that I can’t function and it’s affecting every aspect of my life

I’ve started seriously applying for other types of jobs and at this point it’s just taking it day by day and trying not to break down

So yeah please take this as a reminder to not make retail workers jobs harder because they’re likely just trying to make it through the day

[the-best-bread]

I accidentally listened to a song that brought up too many emotions and now I will be rambling.

There once was a person I called my sister. We have the same parents. We lived together for the first 14 years of my life. I have not seen her in 8 years and no desire to see her in the future. I have barely any memories of her, of having a sibling, and only a few of those are happy. At one point does she lose her title of sister?

She knows an ancient version of me from when I was 14. She missed my entire rowing career, my growth thru college, and now as an adult in grad school. She has missed my journey as a geologist and amateur wildflower photographer. She has missed 35% of my life. She doesn't know I'm probably the closest I've been distance wise to her in almost a decade and I have no interest in telling her. I'm not who I was and I'm assuming she's also a different person. I don't mention her to new people anymore, or if someone asks I might say "it's complicated" without thinking.

At what point am I allowed to just say I don't have a sister? I didn't start as an only child but I'm also not a sibling anymore and I think that's the only thing keeping me from saying it.

[bluebennet]

Sometimes when I pick up my stuffed animals I pretend like they’re really heavy to give them body dysmorphia

[the-best-bread]

Genuine question:

Is asking an extremely extroverted friend to spend like 30 minutes a week hanging out with you one on one because you’re uncomfortable with being, and tend to start spiraling, with the group they almost always hang out with trying to isolate them from their friends?

Because this exact situation just ended a friendship and I need to know if I’m insane or if asking for a little one on one time in that situation is a reasonable thing to do.

[the-best-bread]

I might be changing my major. Does anyone have any information about what being a geologist is like that they’d be willing to share?