finally figured out what was causing me to be so...off.
i haven't been taking my depression meds for about three weeks now. it wasn't intentional, i just kept forgetting to get them refilled. so now, i'm lethargic and don't want to be around others. i thought that my depression was completely under control but this proves otherwise. i actually left work early since i was feeling so terrible. between being exhausted and in continual pain, i couldn't do another 9 hour day.
i'm going to start looking into vitamins that help with energy since i know it'll take a while for the depression meds to get back into my system. between working myself to death at work (i truly love my job though) and having to do almost everything when i get home, there's never enough downtime. i have run myself ragged and if this continues, it's only going to make becoming sick easier. i really just need to have a few recuperation days. sadly, that will never happen.