#thebluesjane

[thebluesjane]

I know he's shooting a gun in one & smashing a car in another but like

good girls need some danger too.

[thebluesjane]

that's just the tip of an iceberg

So, yello to the world, u know ppl of the universe — I'm talking to this musical/theatre actor and rlly, people may never realize how much impact they make on another person's life but I thank this wonderful human on how much warmth and inspiration I get from our conversations. Just trying to revive what I love to do.

SOOOOO kind & humble that I feel like I've known him for a long time... Or maybe that's just my theatre dreams haunting me like hey gurl, you should've been there too but meh HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

I told myself that it might take a long time for me to work full-time in the industry but I guess taking some detour wouldn't hurt. I've already turned down some oportunities but I guess, I'm just gonna grabe every chances I may get. Ahhhh, just the thought of it satisfies my soul.

U know, I wanna do so MANYYYY things as possible. Watch films, Write film reviews, Travel to film festivals, Write a script, shoot it, direct it, cast it, screen it, and show it to the people I love — man, that's just the tip of my dream iceberg.

wheew //it's already 4am and I might find this post cringe-y after getting some sleep. Hahahahaha :>

((and oh yes before this post ends, pls watch Ang Huling El Bimbo Musical 2018!!!¡¡!! whatta life-changing experience, for me at least))

[thebluesjane]

i swear to the universe, Ang Huling El Bimbo 2018 got me into some serious thoughts. Really, how fun would it be turning your passion into a full-time job. Seeing how happy & fulfilled these people really made me question my inability to make good decisions for myself.

As I was watching them, now, right there was my definition of genuine happiness I would like myself to experience.

**theatre dreams intensifies

[thebluesjane]

Songs we used to listen

I remember when I first noticed that you like me back

We were sitting down in the restaurant

Waiting for the cheque

We had made love earlier that day

With no strings attached

But I can tell that something has changed

With how you look at me now...

[thebluesjane]

🌧🌧🌧🌧

I’ll always have mixed emotions when it rains. It’s like a nostalgia for the present. I couldn’t shake it.

Raindrops falling. My heart mending. You? I don’t know. I shouldn’t care.

[thebluesjane]

3am talks & sadness

"Konsensya na lang yun. Wag na wag kang aasa na babalik siya kasi nakokonsensya lang yun." I just sat there in silence. Finding the right words to defend my walls. And then I realized, there's no use in trying anymore.

[thebluesjane]

But can I be stupid for the last time? Maybe he’ll realized we’re still worth the shot.

[thebluesjane]

5-minute wishes

In less than 5 minutes, I'm gonna be a year older. Nothing much really changed. Just a year of mixed up & messed up situations and decisions. I've had dark and sweet moments. In less than 5 minutes, I wish myself to be happy. Genuinely. I wish to be as happy as I was last year or maybe happier. I wish the brain have a reset button for selected memories of a certain person. I wish it rains. right now.